Hi. I’m F24 and I have a question.

I’ve faced so much injustice in my life, particularly from women who went out of their way to tear me down.

Now, I feel like I’ve failed at everything, and I’ve ended up exactly where they wanted me to be.

Why didn’t life allow me to “win” and leave them consumed by their own jealousy?

I’ve been thinking about trying an online psychic reading, mainly for some relationship and career guidance, but it’s hard to know which sites are actually worth paying for. I’ve looked at platforms like Mysticsense, Keen, and Kasamba, but the reviews are all over the place. Some people swear by them, while others say the readings felt generic. I’m not expecting anyone to magically predict my future, I just want an honest, insightful reading from someone who feels genuine.
If you’ve used an online psychic service, I’d love to know:
* Which site did you try?
* Was the reading accurate or helpful?
* Did you use chat, phone, or video?
* Was it worth the price?
* Would you use that reader or platform again?
I’d also appreciate any recommendations for sites with good first-time offers so I can try one without spending a fortune.
Looking forward to hearing some real experiences rather than sponsored reviews.

whats up with the "1000 character paragraph" bollocks?

My paragraphs or post were no where near. I do know how to form paragraphs for readability. I think something is borked and needs fixed.

What are some good academically formatted books on the occult/demonology? I have a couple I really enjoy such as Witchcraft Magic and Alchemy by Grillot De Givry and The History of the Devil and the Idea of Evil by Carus. I'm not looking for anything too wild but would prefer books that have a variety of information.

Before I start - I'm not religious, but I am spiritual (as cliche as that may sound). No solid foundation in anything, just an awareness and respect.

Here's my dilemma;

My Grandmother ❤️❤️ had a 5-gallon water jug. She would fill it with coins and each time, she would tell me, "When I die, I want you to have this."

It might not seem like much, but for me it holds immense sentimental value; each time she added coins, she was thinking of me ❤️ She even knitted a cuzzi for it including a little 'hat'! 😭❤️ [picture included]

I consider it to hold hundreds of her little blessings for me.

Anyways - several people in my life have encouraged me to cash it in, at a coinstar. I am ABSOLUTELY NOT going to do this. It seems gross - trading all of her blessings for like $200 bucks??

However, I have considered going through it to look for high value coins. Rare coins that might be worth something. I don't know if this is a loophole (which would make me a hypocrite, to be clear) or if it's fine.

My financial situation is... difficult. Not so difficult that I'm going to coinstar with this (EVER. Thank GOD) But difficult enough that finding a single coin and getting some money for it would be great.

The chance of finding a rare or value coin is pretty low. For that reason, I'm also concerned with even dumping out the coins to search.

Would it be like "dumping out her blessings"? Even if I put them back in?

Let me be clear: regardless of the value of any coin - I don't want to desecrate her blessing. That's the MOST important thing. If it's ok to look for valuable coins, then I would do it. But if it's a slap in the face to my loving grandmother's blessings for me, I will endure my financial struggle as I've been doing, looking for solutions in other ways and the jug full of blessings will remain in tact, undisturbed until the day I die.

I don't know. I don't have any spiritual leaders in my life to discuss this with.

TLDR: My grandmother left me a 5-gallon jug full of coins - but I consider them blessings and will be keeping this until the day I die. But, if I were to look through the coins, if I found a coin worth $$$, would selling a single coin be fundamentally different from cashing in the whole thing?

[reposting because I forgot the promised photo]

Stephen Mace - Sorcery as Virtual Mechanics

Can anyone please share the missing pages?

In the last few month I feel a very strong energy when meditating or during my rituals. I often get scared because it's so powerful and dark. It also feels kind of sexual??? Who could it be? So curious... but I'm not sure how to connect and find out what they want. Hope someone can help. xo

Does anybody use planetary magick in a baneful way? Malefic and benefic planets? With talismans, squares, etc. I don't see much pertaining to this anywhere, mostly just protective or positive things (which are great).

Is this practice supernatural? It is magick? Or is it just a sort of life philosophy and spiritual outlook? I see such a mixed bag of posts that it's hard to tell.

Also, anyone have a decent core reading list? The wiki just links to archives containing thousands of books.

Please don't hate me. I am just a curious observer and thought I'd ask.

I recently reached out to Duke Dantalion to help with changing someone’s mind about me, basically to give me another chance and give the relationship a go.

I haven’t seen much movement this was about 4 days ago, I was wondering if anyone has had some success for a similar situation with Duke Dantalion?

I am aware it’s not right to try and override someone’s free will. The situation is complicated, we haven’t split up from lack of love. I had a relapse into addiction and it scared him and I would love for him to believe me now that I will be able to achieve sobriety as that’s the thing that is holding him back.

I want to ask, does anyone know anything about Lilith by any chance? I did some experimental magick and recorded it on my phone after I met her in a dream. Now I find her name everywhere, I feel like I have been stalked by obsessed girls who hacked my devices and know almost every interaction I make with anyone anywhere. And they post about it. Lilith and 666 became too common as account names not only on reddit but on other social media platforms too. I don't know if the hacker uses it to make me go crazy after they already saw the video or that it's actually Lilith the entity making random people do and say things to tell me she is there. I want someone else's opinion.

I was invoking Lord Rosier and in the midst of it, I got a very heavy feeling in my chest. It was so heavy that I could hardly breathe. I started seeing images of fire and words written in what seemed like blood saying “you will die”. Followed by a laugh that sounded menacing and almost like it was mocking me. I’ve never had this happened to me before. I immediately said out loud ‘you are not invited here, be gone now!’ As sternly as I could but the heaviness in my chest grew more and more.

I asked a more experienced practitioner what happened and they told me my ritual was “hijacked” by low level astral parasites or trickster spirits. They said when I showed no fear and told them to leave, the thousand-pound weight in my chest was a physical symptom of energetic compression because I refused to give in to fear, the entity tried to physically overwhelm my heart chakra to force me into a state of panic. Panic and fear emit a low-frequency energy that these parasites eat like food.

They gave me a few banishing rituals to help.

My main concern is, will this interfere with my work? Has it gone to waste? When I first invoked Lord Rosier, two nights later I had VERY vivid dreams that the person I was trying to establish communication with, messaged me in the middle of the night. I woke up and grabbed my phone in excitement because it genuinely felt real. Until I realised I had been dreaming. This happened thrice. And each time the dream was so vivid and real that I would jump up from my bed and grab my phone. I even remember some of the texts I read in my dreams, it was that real. I’ve heard this is a sign that my work is getting done. Is that true?

But this latest episode has had a weird effect on me. I’m not scared or anything. I just don’t understand why that happened. And the “you will die” written in blood, surrounded by fire; is that a threat? Someone also told me this means there will be a delay in my work because it was hijacked.

Thanks for reading and any explanations will be appreciated. I’m new to this so please be kind. TIA.

I hear a silky white noise, hardly smooth, with little jumping, jolting bits. A white river would not have any direction or precise bank, it wanders, nebulous.

I’m wondering if anyone knows good books for protection magick? I have the GOM book, but I’m kind of looking for a book that helps you do rituals to setups wards, protect your house and self using archangels etc for example. Any recommendations?

Most RHPers don't even call themselves RHP. The obsession with the divide seems to be more so an LHP thing. RHP is thus basically an exonym, so to speak. I think there are a few people who called themselves explicitly RHP, I think Blavatsky did something like that, but for the most part, yeah, it's something of an exonym.

Michael Kelly in his Draconian Consciousness writes:

Obviously, groups which lean towards the Left-Hand Path will most benefit you, but to be honest, the actual methodologies of magical practice are much the same across the board in these early training stages, and even the Light-focused Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn, who would throw up their hands in horror at much of the Draconian ideology, will nonetheless admirably teach you all of the essential skills that you need.

I seriously don't know where he got this idea from, I mean that the GD adepts would "throw up their hands in horror". Seems like dude's conflating GD adepts and Christian fundamentalists, just because LHPers call both RHP.

Not trying to diss anybody, I just find it amusing and a bit weird, because, you know, I never met a "sanctimonious RHPer". If anything, I always observed the opposite tendency among occultists: to get along surprisingly well and even practice together despite having very different background, view/metaphysics, goal and so on. I can easily picture a chaote, Luciferian and Christian esotericist doing a ritual together. Not just walking into a pub. If they were walking into a pub, my money would be on they are the same person too!

VETIVER. I love working with it because it’s versatile. When I do a prosperity or fast cash working with vetiver I usually end up also seeing an increase in sexual passion—hotter, longer, primal sex, which I then use to pump a lot of energy back into the money working. If I make a fast cash oil with it I’ll also use a bit of that oil in any working that needs to be manifested quickly—as it has such strong grounding “bring it NOW into the here and now” energy. How do you use Vetiver in your workings or rituals?

I have recently recognized a pattern where severe personal trauma and profound betrayal act as an automatic catalyst, transforming my nervous system into a volatile conduit for involuntary energy projection. When I am deeply wronged, my response is an immediate, intense, and seething hatred that completely bypasses the need for formal rituals, functioning instead like an explosive, instinctual 'Crisis Hex' or psychic strike. In multiple distinct instances, shortly after these acute emotional breaks, the specific individuals who mistreated me have faced sudden and catastrophic physical outcomes, ranging from severe illness to traumatic untimely deaths, financial ruin, ect.just awful and ugly consequences (Unless they apologize - weird but relevant)

This pattern just manifested again following a painful falling-out with a close friend whose family was instantly hit with a devastating medical and financial crisis. It’s always within a year or less.

Has anyone else experienced anything like this? It’s happening way too often to be coincidence.

Hey guys, I found a photo of an initiation contract from a French Masonic lodge. I noticed that there was some Hebrew writing and the star on it, and it made me wonder, is Freemasonry connected to the Jewish religion?
I’ll leave the photo here—let me know what you think.

Edit: Thanks for all the replies. I just wanted to add that the photo comes from a french pianist and composer who was freemason and mysteriously died falling from the balcon of he’s friend house in Switzerland after exposing free masonry he’s name is “Stephane Blet” like is write on the picture

Hey all. Was in a shop today inquiring about Abre Camino. The young lady was a lil cocky in telling me “there is no actual road opener herb, the name just means road opener” I think she was trying to be helpful but in the moment kind of came across like a know it all.

My real question is, is thoroughwort not Abre Camino/road opener?

I’m fairly new to the study of western esotericism and occultism. I’m coming at everything from a more eastern, perennial, and entheogen influenced perspective, but I’m very curious and open to learning more about the western traditions. Looking for connections with anybody who may be based around the Nashville area, if anyone would be interested in meeting up to talk about the occult🤷🏻‍♂️

Recently I inherited my childhood home. I live out of state so I'll be renting it to strangers. I'd like to conduct a ritual to

1. Protect the building, and
   
2. Foster security and happiness for all who live there.

I'm trying to decide on a spirit or god to call upon for this.

Classically, Hestia, Greek goddess of the hearth, seems like a pretty solid fit... but surprisingly little was ever written about her in classical times. I'm not aware of any plants/stones/colors/etc. associated with her.

Right now my plan is to light a fire in the hearth, cook a nice cut of meat over the fire (with proper precautions), and serve it at my grandparents' dinner table. I'd also have as many family photos as I can find, and some of my childhood belongings.

I've been writing down a bunch of my earliest memories and would offer these to the hearth-fire as well.

I expect that's enough, but if anyone had other ideas as to good entities for this & correspondences, I'm open to suggestion