Hi everyone! Sorry if this isn't the ideal sub for this kind of question, but long story short, I believe in magic and witchcraft... but at the same time, I kind of don't?
A long time ago, I tried getting into the occult. Chaos magic was my first attempt, but I was pretty immature back then, I tried a few things and never really followed through. That pattern repeated itself a few times over the years, and because those past attempts didn't really lead to anything, it only built up my doubt.
Nowadays, I'm stuck in this middle ground where I believe in the practices, rituals, deities, spirits, etc., but I have huge resistance to fully committing to it.
Incredible things have happened in my life, things that can really only be explained as magic or a miracle. Yet, for some reason, a part of me still insists it was just pure coincidence, no matter how many times it happens.
Does anyone have any tips or advice on how to let go of this skepticism so I can fully dive into practicing?