I think I just need to vent because I’m having trouble processing my feelings. I will probably delete this later. Anyways, I met my current gf about 4-5 months ago and became official a little over 3 months in. Things have been wonderful; we get along insanely well and have never had an argument/fight. I even told her I love her about a month ago, but she still hasn’t said it back. I don’t mind saying it without reciprocation, but it’s been over a month at this point so idk where I stand. She’s always been a little hard to read and i know that’s partly due to a situation with her ex (which ended ~a year ago) that made her pretty insecure. It’s also my first real relationship but I’ve done a lot of work on myself (reformed avoidant) and I feel very secure in myself now. We talked about our relationship recently and she said:

1) She feels very strongly about me but she finds it difficult to actually say “I love you,” mostly due to trauma from her ex(es) being so flippant and unsure with her.

2) She feels like I’m holding back emotionally or not being as vulnerable as she thinks I should be. She sometimes still calls us “strangers” despite spending so much time together.

3) She “thinks she’s there”—as in she thinks she loves me—and she’s been trying to find a “right time” to say it.

I’m sensitive to the fact that her ex was not a great partner, and I ofc feel for her, but I wish she worked on this before getting involved with me. I have also been the most vulnerable I’ve ever been with anyone, sharing some of my deepest insecurities and sources of guilt. I’m not holding anything back emotionally; in fact I was the one who pursued her initially, I got the ball rolling on becoming official, and have said the L word first. I’d say that makes me pretty vulnerable. Also, we’ve been seeing each other exclusively for almost five whole months. Are we really strangers? It hurts that she called us that. Lastly, I feel pretty shitty about her saying that she “thinks” she loves me. I want someone to be sure about me. She tried to reassure me by saying she’s sure she wants to be with me and she’s sure she cares deeply about me, but deep down I wonder if there’s something truly unlovable about me.

I’m aware this probably goes deeper for her than she’s letting on but I’m frustrated I have to wait for her to figure things out. We’re going to talk tn but I just needed to get all my feelings sorted out.

Okay rant over lol.

I need genuine advice. i’m so confused and this whole situation just feels like such a moral grey area.

So I’ve had a best friend we’ll call L (22) that Ive been close with since we were 14. We’ve been best friends since 17 and I genuinely don’t think there’s anyone on the planet that knows more about me than her (she would say the same i think).
We both hang out in the same friend group and would see each other nearly daily when we were 18-20 and weekly now at the very least (and weekends i stay at theirs). When we were 19, our mutual friend introduced their best friend to us who had moved back. We’ll call her M (22). M became good friends with the rest of us and started dating L. For the last 2 years me M and L have been really close, they were a great couple and dated for nearly 4 years. (I was always close with L but got closer to M)

I genuinely love them both, yes L is my best friend but M was always there for me and even asked if i wanted to move in since my home life wasn’t great (i didn’t but it was such a nice gesture and meant sm to me). we’re all lesbians and it’s a queer friend group which matters a lot i think cause boundaries are different. We’d always jokingly flirt and on nights out we’d even kiss and stuff or we had no issues sharing beds and spooning ect. Everyone used to think L and i were dating before she started dating M and we always joked about it.

As a group we started visiting this pub where we became friends with two other lesbians who worked there. me and one of the girls K (20) had been flirting with each other and i could tell she liked me. Anyway, me and K would talk and flirt when we met up and things were going that way. M would ask me about it and was friends with K first so she helped setting us up.

about nearly 2 months ago now M broke up with L because M just didn’t feel like they were a couple anymore and had feelings for another girl (she hadn’t said that at the time tho). So literally the week after, we’re all hanging out at the pub and M starts heavily flirting with K like in front of all of us, and L was pretty upset (we kinda all were), it was so out of nowhere and they were being all touchy. M took K to another room and asked to kiss her… it was so weird but she was rlly drunk too. M told me right before that she actually REALLY liked K, and she felt guilty about it so broke up with L. I sort of joked about it with her cause K and me were clearly cracking on. K turned M down and things just got weirder, M still really wanted me to date K despite saying that she felt nothing without K and was totally in love with her?? i genuinely feel like she liked her more than me so i just felt weird about it and obviously it was a bit messed up doing that in front of ur ex and in front of the girl K is talking to (one of ur bsf) but i love M, we can’t help how we feel or who we feel it for and i could tell she was figuring something out, plus she was honest.

NOW, since that night, M has been avoiding me and L (even tho she wanted to stay friends), M said she was just so jealous of me and of course K would like me more (suggesting i’m better looking or smthn??) and that she couldn’t look me in the eye. We’ve not rlly spoken much the past 2 months despite us making efforts and it’s sad cause i love her and ik she’s going through something but surely she doesn’t want us to just drift. She’s still pursuing K as far as im aware and i lowkey started ghosting K cause i just felt weird and honestly the whole thing just shut me to the idea of K and I getting together even tho K stated she didn’t like M (just me).

So now the current situation, L and i have been spending more time together, and ive noticed that it sort of feels like our friendship is shifting into more romantic undertones? ur classic homoerotic friendship except now when we’re cuddling it’s a lot more…. idk intimate, and based on things she’s said and our other friends have pointed out i think it’s sort of going in that direction. I NEVER had feelings for her before but now i’m getting confused and i feel GUILTY, M is one of my bsf would she feel betrayed of me and L went that way? is it morally wrong? i genuinely dk what to do. L is also extremely important to me, and M is more feminine than me but i wouldn’t say i was butch (sort of in the middle) while L is butch so we were never each others types (L and I like feminine girls mostly). Idk would it be wrong if me and L got together? i don’t even know if that would happened but im so used to ppl talking about how messed up it is to date ur friends ex but i feel it’s not that simple. Ironically i never thought our friend group fit the lesbian stereotypes. M was L’s first gf and i’ve technically never had a gf just hookups or situation-ships, we’ve been falling asleep on ft, and treating each other differently from our other friends, we always used to joke but it doesn’t feel like a joke anymore (especially cause we aren’t laughing and we’re sort of keeping a secret while we used to do it in front of our friends) all our friends keep suggesting that we’re gonna get together, that we have tension and we just ignore when they say it. ADVICE PLZ

I've been single for a few years but I miss having a partner. The thought of dating is exhausting. I don't know how I used to go on apps and talk to people. I think I used to be more outgoing. Lol does anyone have tips for getting back out there?

I’m a nonbinary lesbian, and I normally wear very effeminate clothing especially at the club. I like to go all out and wear short skirts or dresses with heels. I like this, don’t get me wrong, but frequently I find myself wanting to dress more masculine.

I know vaguely of what to wear but I worry about the reactions I might get. I worry that someone might maybe feel “catfished” if we hit it off and then see that I also dress feminine or the other way around with me also dressing masculine. I have spoken to other lesbians at the club and some tell me they only date fems and I have also been told by another that they would only date masc presenting people. I already face a lot of flack because I am a nonbinary lesbian but I just worry about how I swing from very feminine to very masculine

just a pic

SHE DIDNT SAY IT OUTTA NOWHERE OR TO BE MEAN!! We were having a discussion about beauty standards and she misinterpreted my question (I wanted to know if she herself preferred that) and tried to answer “objectively”. She likes my butt as it is. But hearing that as a not so big arsed girlie (it’s not small, but not big either) still made me a lil sad, I don’t wanna be delusional either tho lol maybe that’s just true. I feel like that’s what’s “in” these days but I also feel like it’s mostly some men that hype it up so much? Wanted to know if other lesbians agree with that sentiment

Hi. Does anyone know of any lesbian/WLW subreddits for sapphic yearning? I’d love a place to share romantic thoughts and quotes.

so for a little bit of background i am 17f so is my girlfriend,this js both of our first relationship. we have been dating for 9 months and we have never made out . we have kissed, a few times but never anything more.

I’ve always hated physical contact, I cant eveb stand the feeling of someone else’s bodily warmth- Even my closest friends and family, it makes me feel so uncomfortable. But with my girlfriend i actually want to be close to her and i want to touch and i feel like i’m never close enough to her which is something i’ve never experienced with anyone else before. But for some reason every time i want to touch her or kiss her or makeout with her it genuinely feels like theres a barrier stopping me .

I like her SO much, i liked her for so long before we started dating-we where friends for about 4 years and i had the biggest crush on her for SO long, i never thought that i would ever actually end up dating her. and i feel like such an idiot for the fact that i am messing up something į used to PRAYY for with something so embarrassing. i can’t even talk to my friends about it anymore because i feel so so ashamed about it.

i don’t know if i’m ace…i dont know if i just have intimacy issues… maybe i just don’t like girls …
(however i can only get off to women… so?)

Has anyone else experienced anything, and how
do i talk to my girlfriend about it.
please be nice i am soso embarrassed to be asking about this į dont know what the fuck is wrong with me

Sorry for the weird question, but I’ve always kinda wondered how it would work if you’re laying on the side cuddling with someone.

I’ve got little to no experience with this myself because i generally don’t really cuddle much, but a friend of mine recently asked if we could cuddle and now I kinda realised how much I honestly needed that.

So to get back to my original question, what do I do with my other arm? Am I laying on it, do I just have it behind me or something while the other is wrapped around someone? I’m kinda confused and could need help

A friend of mine who is straight really wants to sleep with a woman because, in her own words, she "just wants to try it."

That's completely her choice, but she keeps asking me if I'd do it with her.

I've already told her several times that I'm not interested in sleeping with her, but she keeps bringing it up anyway. Maybe it would be different if I found her physically attractive, but I don't. I've also been completely honest with her and told her that I like her as a friend, but I don't find her sexually attractive.

At this point, it's honestly getting really frustrating that she keeps trying.

I've even suggested that she check out dating apps because there are definitely women who are interested in sleeping with straight women who want to experiment.

I know she's asking me because we already know each other and she trusts me, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm simply not interested.

What would you guys do?

Throwaway account, likely deleting soon.

But anyway. I (25F) am going through a very grim time of my life as of lately. Throughout my entire life, I never fell in love, whether with men or women, I essentially never felt anything like the sort, even when I met some of the most amazing people in my life, I never even got close to developing feelings.

There's only been one exception in my life, which I'll call J (23F), where against all odds I actually developed feelings for. Really strong ones too, at that. So I confessed, and things worked out really well for at least 2 years.

She's the sweetest being. We have such a matching sense of humor, taste in movies and books, places that we like. I couldn't have imagined life turning this way after failing to feel love for so long in my life, and I could honestly say these past 2 years have been the best in my life, which was painfully mediocre and uneventful before that.

There's so much we were planning to do together, we wanted to have a trip to America together, or move together at some point, and have a dog, as we both always dreamed of having one.

However, lately she's been different. More unresponsive, uninterested in our conversation, always talking in "maybe" and "we'll see in the future". I could feel essentially no passion. And after a week or so of things going this way, she told me the truth; she developed feelings for a friend she was hanging out often near where she lives. That devastated me.

We didn't break up yet as we're seeing "how things play out". But I'm just waiting for the inevitable to happen. And it's been torture. I really, really don't want to go back to how things were, I don't think I'd be able to handle it after how good things have been for my life. I don't even know why this happened; we used to be the happiest before she met her. After she met her, she often told me she was gonna meet a friend in a cafe not too far from her house, essentially everyday, and she lost interest completely in going out with me. I really don't know what I've done wrong. I wish I could know.

Knowing my own feelings, it's severely unlikely I could develop feelings for someone again, as this one time was a "lucky miracle". But I also can't imagine how my life is gonna look once the inevitable comes to happen. And I'm scared. I'm gonna miss this life tremendously. I'm just not ready.

So, is there anything I can do to cope? Anything I can do to not fall into complete despair? Anything really, I'm just feeling a bit desperate.

She has told me today that once were gonna see eachother tomorow, i should prepare mentally and that i shouldnt try to convince her otherwise.

Were both F17 and we have been together for year and almost 10 months but these past few months were really rough and even though we promised to eachother like milion times that we would work this out and thing will be better, she gave up eventually and i cant blame her, it was really hard and exhausting.

Since its summer i planned so many things for us to do and andventures we could go to... She declined and said that she was anxious to go with me before. Which hurt me and i tried to understand, she herself admitted that i dont judge her and never gave her the reason to be so worried around me and i thought we were comfortable with eachother. I tried everything but i cant force her right.

And im not even angry, just sad, it was obvious where things are headed but its hard to believe after everything.

I guess we are gonna be together for three hours atleast tomorow bcs i need to go to her city first and those things. Should i buy her flowers or write a letter or anything?? Its not to force her to continue our relationship, just a nice thing to do?

I dont even know how to move on or continue without her, she was my first everything and soon she will be gone. She said that we will stay in eachothers life, we can be friends and maybe, after some time we can be together again, but i dont know if id want that after all.

It feels like my world is falling apart and my summer with her is gone..

How much do y'alls talk during the initial stages of dating...?

So like... I (23f) have been on like 3 dates with this girl (23f) over the past 3~4 or so weeks, and like, during the dates themselves, everything feels great, she feels enthusiastic, and like, honestly, I really can feel this going forward between the 2 of us...

But like, it just feels like she kinda forgets I exist between dates...?

Like, with basically all my previous partners, by this stage, we'd talk at least once a day, sometimes multiple times, usually through text but sometimes over voice or video too...

But it just kinda seems like she doesn't feel like writing to me at all until the dates? I do write to her every once in a while, just to feel like things are being kept alive between dates, but I now look back at it and I realize she never wrote anything to me first unless it was date logistics...

She can most definitely keep a conversation going when I initiate it... She just never initiates them herself so I'm just left... Confused I guess?

Because face to face, she is the one that "takes risks" so to speak, pushes things further and whatnot, so there definitely is interest...

I feel like maybe I'm just overthinking, maybe she just hasn't got into the habit of that, because as far as I can tell dating never really worked out for her in the past, she never went past like date 1 or 2, and like, we have gotten partially intimate at this point, and to my understandings despite us not even reaching 3rd base I'm already a few "first"s for her... So I don't really doubt the fact that she indeed is interested...

I'm definitely bringing it up next time we meet, I guess I'll just try to find a way to communicate that if we're going forward with this I feel like I do want to get some attention every once in a while, to like, know she keeps me in her mind like I do her and whatnot...

But I guess I'm just looking to ask if any of y'alls dated someone like that/are yourselves like that during the initial stages? Or maybe in your first relationship? Something? Idk. I guess I'm just trying to find a reason for that to calm myself down until we actually have that conversation because I just don't see anything that would stop me from like... Messaging someone if I like them. If I like someone, I wanna talk to them very often, I wanna let them know I'm thinking of them... So there's this tiny thing in me just nagging "what if she doesn't actually like me like I like her"?

I’m 34 and sometimes I wonder if I’m asking for too much. I don’t want a perfect person, I just want someone I can love deeply and who chooses me back.
It feels strange that something so simple can be so hard to find. I’m curious if others feel the same, especially those who have struggled to find a real connection later in life.
How do you keep believing it will happen?

But seriously, I dont make a big deal about birthdays but there was a time in my 20s where I didnt think I'd live to be this long due to mental health. ❤️❤️

Hi, I'm 22 years old. I live in the city with my girlfriend, and my life is nothing like I thought it would be. This is my first job, and I've been working here for 9 months. I have a great salary and a really nice apartment, but I'm just not happy with my life. I grew up in the countryside with my grandmother. My best friend lived there too, and everything felt perfect. I miss it so much. I miss walking through the meadow behind the house, wandering through the forest, and spending time in the garden. It's summer now, and I'll spend the entire summer working. I only have 5 days of paid vacation. I actually had to take sick leave just so I could finally come back to my grandmother's place after I don't even know how many months.I miss her so much. She practically raised me, and this is where I spent my whole childhood.I just can't come to terms with the fact that my life now revolves around 40 hours of work every week, plus on-call shifts. I'm not happy at all. My relationship is suffering too because I simply don't have time for anything. Sometimes I feel like not showing up to work, taking my girlfriend somewhere out in the countryside, and never coming back. We rent an apartment, so we have bills to pay. My girlfriend's fixed-term contract expires in about a month, which means that if we both quit our jobs, we won't have any money. The thing is, I actually love the work I do. It's just too much. All I want is some freedom and some time to actually live. i've become so sad because ever since I started working, I feel like I've drifted away from everyone. I don't really see the purpose or meaning in any of this anymore, and I honestly don't know what to do next.Has anyone else felt this way? Does it get better? How did you cope with it?

So, I have an odd situation. I met this girl way back in December and we hung out, I took her to the mall, we hit her bong, and I ended up staying the night and it was totally innocent. I ended up having to return to college a couple weeks later and I ghosted her later on as we didn’t even talk at a certain point.

Fast forward to last week, I’d been really hormonal and I decided to text her to see if we could hang out. Mind you, I was still a virgin and did not expect it to even go in a sexual direction, but it did. I picked her up from work, we went to her place, got high, then I asked to kiss her then we fucked almost immediately after our first kiss. After we finished she told me how unexpected it was and how she didn’t think I liked her like that, I told her I did, because in the moment I thought I liked her. It’s hard to remember everything in clear detail, but we decided to start dating. She immediately made plans for me to essentially never leave her side for the next week until she left for vacation. I did not realize this at the time, but she trapped me sort of. I had to pick her up from work every day from that point on, then I would spend the night at her house. She wants to know where I am at pretty much always, she texts me from work, she says she misses me every moment. This is immediately distressing to be honest.

This goes on for several days, I tell myself it’s fine because she’s leaving for vacation soon then we’ll get a break. I introduce her to my family in the process of getting some new clothes and stuff from my place and she hits it off with them immediately, I invite her to my sisters birthday party and they seem quick friends. They have a lot in common and she immediately got my sister several gifts, some of her own stuff she already had, and then some stuff she got from friends.

What scares me most is how involved she is already, we’re both only 18 and she wants a future with me within less than a week of dating. She has introduced me to a lot of her family already too. I don’t exactly want a girl this clingy, and I wish I knew from the beginning she would be this way. She does nothing but butter me up, say that she’s “obsessed” with me, and all this other out there nonsense.

Believe me, I like her. I lose track of time when I’m with her, we have good sex. But I don’t think I’m even as attracted to her as she is to me. Sex is becoming a task already and we’re only nearly two weeks in, I make her come 8 times in a row, she can’t even make me come once.

I do not know how to break it to her that her behavior has been a massive turn off, I feel like she will be heartbroken and we’ll have no choice but to break it off. I just wish she wouldn’t have rushed into everything so quickly, maybe I wouldn’t be responding this way now.

I literally told her I am looking for my own place to live and she offered to be my ROOMMATE. That is fucking absurd to me. I do not know you and you do not know me, we are so new to this, she needs to slow down.

I dropped her off at the airport on Monday and was excited for a break from her, but immediately all she does is snap me. I told her to enjoy her fuckin vacation and tell me about it when she’s home, but no, she must document everything. Is it too much for me to want some space after seeing her every day building up to this vacation???

All she seems to be is a bundle of anxious attachment and unaddressed issues as I get to know her, and believe me, I have my issues too, but I work on them, she doesn’t even realize she has a problem. She calls me “love” already. She keeps buying me stuff in Vegas rn. I don’t want any of this anymore, but I do not know where to stop this without hurting her. I can’t break up with her while she’s in Vegas, but I know she’s going to regret all the stuff she has done for me.

Also, she seems to think I’m so “attractive” that any girl will just swoop me up and I’ll cheat on her. That’s disgusting to me, how dare she even accuse me of reaching such low levels as a person. I would fucking never, and I hardly even know her yet she wants to control who I talk to.

She reads all my text convos, convinced me to give her my phone password (mind you, I have never asked for hers because I DO NOT CARE WHAT SHE DOES ON HER PHONE.)

Listen, I know I’ve done her wrong by ghosting her in the past, but I feel like I do not deserve this treatment. It feels like I am under surveillance.

I don’t want this to be so long nobody reads it, so I think that is the majority of it, but believe me there are more things I won’t even list. What do I do? How can I let her down easily? Also, it’s just so embarrassing because I’ve already hard launched her and now all my friends will see this relationship go to the dumps within days. Help.

TLDR: Took a girl out who has anxious attachment issues, now she won’t give me any room to breathe.

You were my first love. Not my first time. Not my first kiss. But you were my first choice. The one I trusted completely and so wholeheartedly. And i know that you’ll never feel the same. I know that you don’t think of me in the middle of the night. I know that you don’t cry of what we could’ve been. How you made me want to look nice every time I knew you were coming. How in the darkest of the night I wish it was you holding me, kissing me, talking to me. You were the one who made me realize that i wasn’t broken or incapable of loving someone else. How even now I still want you. Even after the silence. The arguments. The laughs. The heartbreak. It is still you. Because you were my person. But I was never yours. So I took what I could get from you. I took the kisses, the touching, the whispering, the smiles, everything that you were willing to give me. Because it didn’t matter to you that I gave you my heart because i knew that you wouldn’t keep it. Does that make me sick? Deranged? A masochist? Maybe. Because even when the good didn’t out weigh the bad I still took it. I still take it. You were the first woman who made me feel like it was okay to just exist. That I didn’t have to be…on. That I was beautiful even when I thought I wasn’t. But when I think about it now. I don’t think that you made me fall in love with you on purpose. I think that’s just who you are. So easy to love. To smile. To just exist with. I cried when you said that you loved me. Not because I was happy but because I knew that you couldn’t love me the way I wanted you to. Because I think that you don’t understand that just the bare minimum from you is enough to make me feel enough. And I hate that i feel this way. I hate that I’m crying writing this. I hate that even now you still affect me with your silence. And what I hate most is that i know that I’ll come right back every time. I’m not trying to guilt you or make you feel bad about just making me feel this way. Because even now at my worst I just want to let you hold me. I want to hear your voice and your laugh, and your corny ass jokes, The way you mess with your hair when you’re focused, the way when you think no one is listening and smile when you see that I was, the way that I find you so fascinating and beautiful no matter what you do, the way that you pick at your nails when you’re bored, the way you paint your nails and you pick at them when you zone out, and just being there with you. I fell in love with you at 17, and I still love you now. I don’t hate you even when I thought that I did. Even when I knew that you will never love me the way that I love you. And that’s okay. That’s okay. Because I don’t regret it. I don’t think that I ever could. Because you made me feel everything. I love you. I am in love you. And I would do it over and over and over again.

How do you deal with the let down after rejection?

I (29F) recently went on a date with a girl (28F) who I met on hinge. We have a ton in common and over text she was slightly love bombing me, but after meeting her in person I thought she is just a genuine lover girl.

We had a great date, spent nearly 5 hours together, went to two different spots and had great conversations. When we parted ways she hugged me and asked if we could do this again, which I very enthusiastically agreed to.

The night of the date we both said we had a great time, she also texted me the next morning saying she hoped I had a good day.

Later the next night, she texted me that she actually doesn’t think she feels anything romantically. I feel like every girl I connect with likes me until it comes to the physical/sexual part of the relationship. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! It makes me feel unattractive, ugly, and i start to get very down on myself.

A few years ago, I was dumped because my girlfriend told me she was “not attracted” to me. And I think i’ve been carrying that still to do this day. And any rejection to me seems to make my mind spiral into very negative thoughts about my physical appearance.

Does anyone else struggle with this? And if so, how do you stop the negative thoughts from creeping in and taking over?

Hi! 25F here, just figuring out I’m attracted to girls this month (woohoo! huge step for me!) I’ve been hanging out with this girl, she’s so cool, and she’s the first woman I’ve ever been consciously attracted to. We met through mutual friends a few months ago but we both broke up with our partners recently and started hanging out more. She’s asked me if I’m gay before and I said “I don’t think so” but after thinking about it, I’m not entirely sure but I KNOW that I like her.

So, she’s making me dinner tonight at her place. I can’t help but feel nervous as I’m trying to build up the courage to tell her I’m into her. She can probably tell anyway, but I don’t know! This is all so new to me! I’ve only ever been with guys and they normally initiate so I just sit back and let it happen regularly.

Anyway, I’m here just for some advice / selfishly some self-soothing as I don’t know who else to talk to. Should I tell her I’m into her or just sit closer than usual or show it via body language? Is it a total red flag for her that she would be the first girl I’ve ever kissed? And how do I know 100% sure to kiss her if I’m not even sure what my sexuality is? Is that selfish? Clearly, I have tons of anxiety (ab everything, not just this hahaha) but I just don’t want to mess things up! Any and all advice is welcomed — I feel a bit silly that I’ve never noticed I was into girls before. I don’t know, I feel just out of sorts! Thank you in advance.

Sorry but lonely masc who needs to vent real quick. Im SO tired of being single. I'm tired of going on dates that lead nowhere. I'm tired of dating apps and leaving lgbt meetups feeling hopeless. I just want to be in love, to yearn, to be romantic, to go on cute dates with a beautiful woman and just be. WHY IS THIS SO HARD??

I really like to read them sometimes but at the same time with something happy happens it makes feel sad. Like watching them get into a relationship, kisses, and affection just sadden me because I really want a girlfriend while knowing I'll probably never get one any time soon, if ever. It makes me feel so pathetic that I cry about some people getting together that aren't even real. I'm embarrassed that it makes me go into a whole ass spiral how I wanna have that and can't have that. Then I make myself feel even worse about this because I'm a pathetic fucking loser who won't do anything about it. My social skills fucking suck anyway and maybe it's better if I don't fuck up anyone else's life with my presence in it right now. I've posted how I am fucking done with everything and everyone anyway and how relationships just aren't for me. Certain girls are meant to be alone. Certain people aren't meant to ever be happy. So I just sit and read and cry like a pathetic fucking loser i am. This is just another vent. I'm sorry you had to read this.