For pretty much my entire life I’ve had pervasive feelings I couldn’t explain and the last few years I realized that I’m most likely trans, but I then immediately push down that thought because it would be too hard and I can’t handle what my family may think, so I trick myself into believing it’s just a “weird” thought I keep coming back to, or my neurodivergence making me overthink.

But then I turned 21 a few months ago and realized every time I drank all I could think about was this, and if I blacked out I’d wake up to long conversations on google (i know ai sucks but I’m very isolated) about how I’m almost certain I’m trans and how I can’t take this anymore and the many reasons and things I want. And then it began to be an every day thought, it did take a few months, but the last few weeks I have lost control of it, sobbing at the slightest hint of something relating to what I’m feeling and talking about it online and thinking for hours broke the barrier I put up to protect myself from how hard this is going to be. Now I can’t help but feel incredibly nauseous and disgusted by my body, mainly my legs, I never wore shorts as a kid I guess it always was a thing just now I know the reason. And overall I just feel so fucking hollow and disgusted with myself and my life, and I’m too afraid to actually commit and say anything so I’m kinda just dying. My only respite has been imagining what I’d wear and what I’d want to be called but it just makes it hurt that that’s far away.

The real problem that’s making this harder is my sisters boyfriend who I hate because he said something transphobic a year ago and when I got upset my family refused to let me leave to cool off which I’ve learned I can need sometimes, they then made everything worse and changed how I see them a bit. He’s moving in soon, right as I finally start to accept myself, so if I do tell my family, he’ll know and see all the awkward phases while I’m learning.

Also just ughhh will I ever stop feeling so nauseous and empty about my existence? I was never happy but it’s like a gate broke and I’ve been even more of a wreck, will it only get better when I finally start transitioning?

Sorry this wasn’t really a thought out post I both said too much and left out so many details, I just needed to express this to anyone real, I’m beginning to rot internally.

Thank you to the one person who read this mess ❤️ but if you see this first when you click just stop reading, it’s not worth your time and I’m too exhausted to make it good.

(Sorry if longer posts aren’t allowed, I wasn’t aware)

I’m 56 and came to the conclusion that I am trans about 6 months ago. After a lot of debating I started DIY around Feb/March for a month or two. 1mg EEN per week. I caught sight of my boobs in the mirror one day and panicked and stopped injecting.
I regret stopping because I’m still sure that I’m trans but the thought of the future, not passing, EHRC guidance etc etc seems so overwhelming right now, and I consistently come up with reasons why I shouldn’t try again despite the fact that I really want to.
Sorry! This sounds like a pity fest but it’s not.
I just want some input on what others think I should do. Is this a normal feeling?

(F/M) So I keep feeling transgender every year so I'm not looking for anything huge, and I also just really like longer hair than a stereotypical mens haircut. I am also going onto contact lenses next week as my glasses make me look a little more feminine

I've never been big on community in general, but part of me wishes I could be in the trans community. However, I've found the biggest issue is jealousy - my own life situation doesn't allow me to transition, so seeing others succeeding and making friends and doing things openly makes me feel awful. I'm reminded that even ten years from now I will still be in this situation, just like I have for the last eight years, knowing I want to transition but unable to do anything about it. Add anxiety to that and I prefer not to be involved with community, but part of me wonders if I would benefit. I've just had so many bad experiences, on top of being harmed by other trans people all the while trying to work out my own issues that I don't know what to do. I really want a place where I can be safely open, but I feel like I see other trans people as undesirable now.. like I'm somehow different, defined by my detachment and beyond community and the typical tendencies of openness.

Me and my partner are both trans women and we have been put in an extremely bad situation by both our previous apartment and our new one, our old apartment kept raising rent even though they abandoned the property and our new apartment is charging us more then they told us the price would be, we will probably be able to smooth things out in the long run but for the end of July and august things are going to be rough, we do not have enough money for augusts rent and we need money for college too, please help us out a little bit, just until we can get back on our feet, I have a go fund me in the comments with some more details, please help in any way you can, and thank you so much for reading all of this, I cannot express enough how much I appreciate that someone cares enough to read all of my stressed out ramblings, thank you deeply

So the other day me (I'm trans ftm) and my friend (cis female) went to the pool I'm not like publicly out yet I still dress female and stuff which I don't mind too much I consider myself more androgynous anyways so I'm pretty comfortable with my feminity but I obviously still want to be a guy I want to go on testosterone and get top surgery and she is very well aware of that but lately our friendship has been pretty rocky because of other things outside of what I'm going to talk about right now but yea we were at her house getting ready to go to the pool and the conversation about top surgery came up because I found a potential surgeon that might be able to do it in our area and I was excited and she said something that just rubbed me the wrong way "oh you should just get a reduction since you know some outfits need boobs" now again I'm pretty androgynous and comfortable in my feminity but I have been very clear with my hate with my boobs and my basically need for top surgery since it's been so mentally draining for me just having them since they are huge bruh binders don't work on me good and honestly that comment just rubbed me the wrong way but maybe I'm just being dramatic?

Aren’t you guys scared of the hormone production and transportation will stop or majorly disrupted because of an upcoming war or some political situation, even Usa once one of the pioneers to the progressive changes in Trans visibility and gender care now seem like took a 180’ turn.

So I am disabled and living among people who I don't think I could comfortably be open with. I rely on these people, my family, for housing. It's the only reason I have a place to live. But I can't transition, as I've been told that physical changes will be, inevitably, noticeable. I've been wanting to get onto HRT for the last eight years, and it sucks being stuck this way.

My question is, under these circumstances, do I have to give up? If I can't hide my transition for the rest of my time here, which seems indefinite, I don't think I can safely transition. What should I do?

Im begging to transition but there's acouple qustions i had

How do i go about getting hrt in Australia like can i talk to any doctor

How much strength will I loose I work 12 hours a day if I do hrt will I still be able todo rhe 25k steps at work and swing hammers like surly I wouldn't loose all my strength right?

What else do I need to know

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Idk if this is the right flair btw but yea basically the title why did I have to be a feminine want to wear a skirt and curves etc instead of being a butch trans woman and just getting to use the clothes I already have or at least more masculine my brain is like noooo u have to wear womens underwear and earings and fake nails 💅 and on top of that why me why am I trans why did I get this why not my siblings or my cousins??????

Est ce que vous pouvez me recommander un bon binder long qui soit doux pour la peau et qui compresse super bien pour usage quotidien ? Livraison au Canada

What questions should I ask the surgeon at a consultation for fat transfer breast augmentation?

(reposting here since for some reason reddit was being pissy about me posting this to the FTM sub)

Hey guys. Ever since starting HRT I have been having a harder time falling asleep, has anyone else experienced this? Would exercise help to disperse energy before the night comes? I just generally feel very energetic all the time and it's great to feel that way throughout the day but it's not so helpful at night, especially since I'm still a morning bird and naturally wake up around 6 no matter what time I sleep. Just wondering if anyone here has had the same experience and what helped.

I got a free binder from the trans queer project. I am a little on the heaver side, and my binder has been folding into my fat and i cannot get it to stop. it makes it uncomfortable and starts bruising in the areas it folds.

(I’m 18 btw) I already know how to shave and all that stuff. I don’t have a workout routine I just kind dress in stuff that accentuates the good parts of my body, though I really never wear the most feminine stuff I have outside(since it’s a bit sluttier than I’m comfortable with now, even though I’d love to do so eventually).

Obviously I could learn, and I will, I already have my HRT consult scheduled, but I just wanna try and get a gauge on how much work people think it may take, I may even make an update in time comparing estimates to how long it actually took.

I been transitioning for around 4 years

I’ve always somehow wished that I could be a woman and always wished that even though I was born a male and present myself as such. Just don’t know if I should take the plunge and all.

(MTF) Please ignore the bad makeup, this is all really new to me, (the makeup and even thinking about being a girl)

I will say, I could not stop smiling when I had the makeup on, it was my first time doing makeup at all, and even though I know it’s probably chopped, I loved the way it made me look.

I’m wondering if look feminine already before hrt? Or if you think hrt would do really well for me. Please be as brutally honest as possible. Thank you :)