I turned 19 today, doesn't like matter now who wished or who didn't. I've been ghosted by mostly all the males I talk to , i remember telling this guy about how we will see a movie together on my birthday but he didn't even bother to wish me.

Does anyone wanna watch a movie 🥲

For a bit of context, I'm 30 F and my entire life I've always struggled with people just randomly disliking me? Sometimes for no reason as well. When I've asked them, they just say they don't like my vibe. I basically don't have any friends and now I'm in a place where I'm too anxious to meet people because I'm worried they won't like me.

I just don't really understand where I'm going wrong. I'm never horrible, I don't say anything mean to people. I try and show interest and ask them questions. Could it be due to me being a shy introverted person? Or perhaps my physical appearance just instantly makes people not like me?

I feel so lonely and get really upset because I so desperately want connections and friends.

It doesn't matter how I feel, what I say or do. No one seems to give a shit.

Can someone reaffirm my existence, lol? This feels unreal to a point, but it's all I've ever known. What'd feel even weirder is some actual affection. And that's just sad... But it is what it is.

I’m 33 f and I just recently lost my friend group. I was starting to feel incredibly lonely and not included in a lot of the groups activities, which turned out to be true they were inviting newer friends to do crafts and hangout and was told not to tell me. I didn’t understand why and vented my frustrations to two people that went and told them and then they actually officially kicked me out of the group. I feel sad and lost. They’ve been my friends for 3 years, I met them shortly after getting out of a severely isolating and abusive relationship where I moved to another state with this man before things ended and I settled here because I didn’t have an option or finances to head back to my home state. I’m not close with my family. With this I got off of instagram and Snapchat as well because my heart hurt seeing their updates. I don’t know what to do and feel so incredibly alone and I am not sure where I went wrong in the friendships. One of the girls said she thought everything was fine but I don’t understand that when they were actively not including me in group activities. I just feel lost and like I’m starting completely over and not having social media almost feels even more isolating now. Any advice would be helpful… to be fair I have felt a falling out with them or a shift in how I was being treated and included starting in February. Maybe I manifested this by feeling hurt but there was a shift.

I don't really understand 30 M I did everything in my power. I don't understand am I worse than some horrible toxic people in relationship. I did everything put my self out there hit the gym got educated tried to be social wtf man ? is this natural selection leaving people?

I'm 25 years old. I've only had one relationship. Because it was my first time experiencing genuine care and love from a girl, I became completely attached to her. For one and a half years, she meant everything to me.

I was always strongly against long-distance relationships, but I made an exception for her.

She was everything I had ever hoped to find in a woman. She came into my life at the perfect time, just when I had accepted that I probably wasn't lucky enough to be loved. She came unexpectedly. At first, she was just a good friend.

We used to chat and talk almost all day. The only time we weren't talking was when we were asleep. Some nights we'd stay awake until 3 a.m., and even then, when I woke up, there would already be a message from her saying, "Eneeto?" That one message could make my entire day.

But everything changed. She changed, and I couldn't.

Now she's gone.

Now I just go to a job I don't love, paying bills and trying to find a better one. I have no close friends and no one to talk to. Every day feels like the same loop.

My life was like this before I met her, but back then I had somehow found happiness in it. She changed everything. She showed me the kind of love and care I had been craving all my life.

Now I miss that. I miss her.

And sometimes I'm afraid that I'll be lonely for the rest of my life.

I feel like this is incredibly rare and I’m one of the very few people who have lived a life like that.
I was always quite shy and extremely socially anxious especially after I hit puberty so I was always also be at school until I quit.
I feel like an alien.

I have no real life friends, I am a bit introverted, and not great at forcing conversations, but I really value real, thoughtful people. I like talking about life, feelings, emotional & deep conversations, or just whatever is on someone’s mind.

No pressure at all, but if anyone wants to talk and build a genuine friendship slowly, we can talk, I have isolated myself for the past 3 years & it has made me extremely depressed, I still haven't given up just trying to make genuine connections.

Why is it the people who are in my life just don't care. If it's not about them it's nothing. I'm nothing. I'm worthless. It hurts so much and it's never going to be better.

I’ve gone my whole life without knowing you.
Here I am, almost 27 with 30 around the corner.
It’s something I have been searching for since I was 17.
Beforehand I didn’t care much about relationships, I was just that kind of kid.
Others paired off in high school, but I never felt the need or the desire to love somebody if I wasn’t all in. Or if the true feeling wasn’t there.
This awoke in me when I had my first crush after moving to a new high school states away from my hometown.
It’s a feeling like no other, something I could not place or control. I was so shy, too shy that created the problem where I couldn’t even speak to the person I liked.
So, that feeling eventually, went no where.
My luck has been dry, and my love life has essentially been non existent ever since.
Have I had anything close to that crush? Nope. Absolutely nothing.
But that yearning hasn’t gone away, and I don’t think it ever will.

That need for love has been in my thoughts constantly since, and I have never experienced it.
It almost feels crazy to say and write. It is the deepest yearning to be romantically loved, and I have learned through many years to live with its absence.

I have trouble really grasping the reality of how long I have been chronically lonely. So much so, in the rare moments that reality isn’t there, it feels completely out of place, even alien.
I think, so this is what it feels like to exist without that heaviness in your chest. To not feel that constant tinge of sadness, or the subtle yearning that you feel through every day and every moment.

All my heart wants is to love, but that love has nowhere to go. It’s like a map without a destination, a constant wandering without direction.
Putting this into words is a difficult feat. Sometimes it comes across too juvenile or needy.
But the reality is I’ve exhausted this feeling to ad nauseam. Its constant presence doesn’t even phase me anymore, it’s just that sometimes its weight feels heavier than other times.
It feels wrong even writing this.

I’ve exhausted this feeling to its end, and of if I have to live with this for the rest of my life? I don’t know what the outcome will be.

But the things is, I’m not afraid of feeling this way until the day I die. What I really worry about are the repercussions of a life not shared.
I know I could survive as a celibate or a hermit, easily. I’ve lived with loneliness this long, I can live with it longer and even forever.

But is that what I want? No. Time is precious. Life, is precious. The way we spend those two things are sacred. And is there really a point to it all if you’re living a life that you don’t really want, but can’t find a way out of?

Yes, I could live with it forever. But I don’t want to.
I want to know what it’s like to have someone to love me. I want to feel love for another, the way other people love.
It’s like being an indoor plant that never feels the sun. It’s there, but out of reach.
I’m not where I belong, this I know. I’m living a strangers life. A rehearsed character that pretends, acts content but never really feels the complexity of emotions that her heart desires.

If I live through this life like this forever, I’ll know I lived without. And I’ll know my heart never received what it so desperately needed. I have an over grown tree trapped within the cage of my heart.
It reached for the sun that will never be there to touch its leaves. My heart is in darkness, and there it will stay for god knows how long.
I’m so tired. Tired of feeling this way, and not the way I truly want.
There’s so much I want to give and to feel and to love. But will that day ever come? Only the uncertainty of time will answer that question.
God, what the fuck do I do?

I turned 43 in July 18th. It supposed to be another day, just like my previous birthdays (I haven't celebrated birthdays since I turned 17). But something felt different... I have received a ton of ads of celebrate my birthday with friends. And it hit me that... I don't have friends... Zero.

Been this old... With no friends to talk to IRL, is more hard that I anticipate it.

I have 0 connection with the people I work with. I have no relation or connection with past friends. I don't know how to relate with people at my same age. The topics they always brings are mortgage, kids, how everything is so expensive, etc. and I felt that is SO BORING. But the topics I bring to the table would look at me like "you are WEIRD AF!", so I keep it to myself. I been Late Diagnosed with ADHD & Asperger's.

I want to connect with someone, it just don't know how at this age, without feeling weird or judged. I really want to feel to be chosen, and not to pay for company.

I want to be someone’s favorite person and first option. Idk what’s wrong with me? I’m really empathic, im very understanding, I’m very loyal, i make time for people, i initiate a lot, i try to interact in group activities in servers, im a huge people pleaser, I try and try and try and I feel so lonely :/, people only reach out to me when their real friends are busy or they are bored, im sick of it

Just want to find someone like me :/ im always masking that im okay and try to laugh a ton in groups but deep down im sad and lonely

I know people have their own lives and own problems but I hate that I’m there when you need me but never there when I need you. I desire your friendship and attention yet I’m just treated like an afterthought. I don’t ask you to care but I wish you would. My entire life even when I was a child I listened to everyone’s problems or I had to take the brunt of things I should have never had to hear. Now as an adult all I want is to be hugged and treated like you think about me just for a second. Like you care about me the same way I care about you but that’s never the case. I care so much about people even when they hurt me and I forgive even when they probably don’t deserve it. My mind hurts and some days even my body aches. It’s okay. I’m okay.

That’s what I tell myself. It’s not okay though. I’m not okay and it makes me realize I resent you but I don’t want to lose anyone else. Then you realize you’ve already lost said person and you are so desperate you don’t even realize it until it’s too late.

I miss being a kid. It was so much easier to make friends back then. As an adult all these things affect whether people want you in their life. How much money you make, how prestigious your job is, how many connections you have, how attractive you are, how many dates you go on and how many sexual partners you had. Hobbies and skills only matter if you are incredibly good at them. None of this mattered as a kid. You didnt need to be impressive to deserve basic human connection. You were allowed to be bad at hobbies. Adulthood is just a rat race of trying to be better than everyone else.

.. and i need to learn how to ask for help instead of filing everything in my imaginary folders and diverting my attention to solving other people’s issues.

I feel like as I get older, I no longer have anyone who really understands me.

While in school, there are so many opportunities to find like-minded people.

At work, it's harder because there's not as many people to start with. And the age differences and life experiences are so vast, it's truly hard to have a real friend and conversations are just polite.

I've tried church, and it seems people already have cliques and there's too many hoops to jump through and requirements to go to all the outings.

Even my old friends, we all ended up moving away for jobs and life stages are different.

Then parenthood during the pandemic really put an end to any socializing that I had left.

It's fine to make small talks with strangers or have those once every 6 month friend meetups (since we don't live nearby to each other anymore). But it just feels really lonely. Everyone is busy. Everyone is dealing with their own problems and demanding jobs/life.

Idk what I'm trying to say, other than, it feels really lonely. So maybe it's a me problem. I just feel so disconnected. And it makes me sad.

I know this isn't forever, and maybe I'll have time to volunteer or join something when the kids are older. But the last few years have been really lonely. Very lonely. I guess I'm writing here to just say it to the universe. And maybe it'll help just to let it out.

If anyone else feels like this. I guess this is where we echo each other and somehow it feels less lonely. Sending positive energy out there. Anyone. Everyone.

Does this happen to anyone else?

You are lonely you yearn for companionship but you are no good at sharing or saying things openly, so you make a post on Reddit. People message you. Some connect with you, but a lot are carrying heartbreak, anxiety or depression and just need someone to dump it on. And because you are the kind of idiot who cares too much, you listen. You stay up late. You invest. You genuinely want them to be okay.

A few days later, they are better and they ghost you. They got what they needed. You became obsolete.

The only problem is they left lighter, and you quietly ended up carrying a little of their pain too.

In recent years my friends that I have known for ages have stopped inviting me to things and when we hang out it's always just me inviting them. And even then they don't always respond.

It just feels like I'm just there because I can be in the friend group and not an essential group member. It leads to long periods of time where I don't see them yet I see that there hanging out with this person or this person yet they never land on me. I just wish I had a friend that would choose me to hang out with in there free time and just overall be there for me. It just hurt because I used to be included and I just get to watch it all slip away

I’m 24, nearly 25. Still unemployed despite sending my resumes a ton of times.

I don’t exactly know how to let this out so I’m just gonna say things

I’m not sure how much a job would improve my life but at least that could give me a routine.

I want to experience romance. I’m a gay male, having difficulty with relationships. I want to know what it’s like to kiss someone, to love someone.

Being unemployed, it has its ups and downs but I can’t seem to see my future as of now. And time is unforgiving.

I don’t have any clubs joined, I only go for a jog and sometimes workout here at home. My friends are all working, some moved abroad. Most of the friends I have here aren’t exactly my go-to’s.

I don’t wanna be depressed, I wanna know what love feels like, being excited to see someone and many things. But I don’t wanna dive into that yet if I don’t have money of my own.

Are there people like me? I feel like I’m the only one, I feel lonely.

Despite wanting to, it's hard to connect to others when I'm going through an unfair and hurtful time in life. I've been lonely for awhile now, and people hardly try talking to me unless I'm at a social gathering, so when friendly strangers talk to me - a compliment, saying hello, introducing themselves and asking about me out of curiosity - I always think something like "Are they really talking to me? Odd. I'll just ignore it" or something. Then I figure they really were talking to me, not someone else, and feel bad about it.

This happened the other day. I was walking home and a man sitting out on his porch greeted me. I ignored it, part thinking he couldn't be talking to me because people mostly don't, part feeling if he really was talking to me, it would be too late to greet him back because I had spent too much time wondering if he was talking to me or not. He ended up saying hello again, and I said hey.

There's another strange thing. How removed from the world and pulled into my head I am despite how the outer world interacts with me. I guess I'm going through a lot more than I think. It just feels like the outside world doesn't matter as much, and if it does, it's only because it's somehow an inner problem. Because that's what happens when I want to help bring about a change to my external environment but don't know what to do. It just becomes stress that has nowhere to go: an inner problem.

I don't like how increasingly removed from the world I've been becoming, and yet I also like it. A bus splashed me the other day. I know had my situation been different, I would've cared a little more and had more shock. But it's good I didn't, it really was a small thing and things like that are part of life, but I can tell my reason why isn't great. I can feel it throughout my day, more notably when I'm outside, most obviously when interacting with people. I just don't care as much for what goes on around me. I just want what I'm trying to get. What I need.

When I look at people, I hardly see a human being. I know they're all strangers but something is new about them. Part human, part "new". And I lack manners, they're almost an afterthought now. More like an after care. The other day I was at the store and I kept getting in one of the workers' way. I felt bad and putting others first is slow to come to mind these days, and when it does, I usually feel uncomfortable with showing that I care for them at all. She ended up apologizing and moving out of my way as if she were at fault somehow.

Basically, with my stress, it's hard to relate and it's hard to care, and the more I don't push myself to feel at least a little something for someone else, the more removed from this world I get. But like I mentioned earlier, I also like it. I like being away from this world. I like being in my own, even though it's just the outer world with less beauty and kindness. It's just easier on me I guess. I don't have to process anything new. But at the same time I want connection. It's all so annoying. The lack of justice, the mistreatment, feeling alone and then also finding comfort in being wrapped up in my crap world to face on my own - and I mean that in the least empowering way.

I probably sound confused to you all. My thoughts are so jumbled up - there's so many of them. I wanted to get this out though.

-- Split

I feel incredibly alone. I am overwhelmed with anxiety, I feel extremely anxious and upset and very disappointed at myself for feeling these things. I just dont wanna feel this way please, I feel horrible. I hate my life. Nobody fucking cares. Everybody is selfish.

i will be honest