To begin, I am a 15 year old transgender girl. Because of this, I’ve become like an anomaly of sorts to the guys at my school. To them, I’m not a girl nor a guy. It seems like I’m simply a body to them.

I don’t wear super revealing clothes at school. Almost every day I wear a pair of high waisted jeans and a shirt tied around my waist so I don’t look like a rectangle. Even though my clothes aren’t that risqué, guys treat me like I’m some kind of like toy to call names or attempt to use. I’ve heard guys talk about my body while behind me in the hallways, yelling stuff about my butt when I stand up to ask to go to the restroom, and because I have to use the male restroom I’ve literally had guys try to get me to get in the stalls with them. I’m so sick of being seen as this whore by guys, something to use and not take seriously (mind you Im a virgin). I’m only a freshman transitioning into a sophomore in high school and yet I have more stories of me being over sexualized than I have fingers and toes. Not only am I treated as a sexual anomaly, I’m treated as a social anomaly, especially when I need to use the restroom. I’ve been recorded, screamed at, and called to the principals office for using the male restroom even though Florida law requires me to do so.

What’s even worse is that I’m Catholic (please don’t try to discuss theology with me about transgenderism, I don’t really want to hear it). I want to be seen as the sweet Catholic girl who prays the rosary at lunch, but I’m not. I literally can’t display myself in any manner but a transgender f-word toy because people see me in only that way.

I didn’t really expect to be posting this, but a recent event literally made me sob my eyes out and I wanted to get my story out there. My friend was at a yesterday and there was this guy there. Everyone was talking and eventually I was brought up. He called me the “prettiest t-slur around” and that he would “crack me if given the chance.” My stomach was in a knot when she told me about that. I literally had nothing to do with this hangout and my name was still brought up and perverted. I just wanna be seen as a normal girl.

2nd gp refusing HRT for me IM POST OP, I havent got the money to diy i ran out of HRT 3 weeks ago they have been refusing me for over 2 months now and I move to a new gp they refuse me again.

I know osteoporosis is a risk but the GIC wont prescribe it to me and wont help me get my gp to prescribe me, the GPs wont prescribe me do they just want me to die

https://www.erininthemorning.com/p/landmark-official-dutch-review-recommends

The Health Council of the Netherlands has universally endorsed gender-affirming care for trans youth and called for the expansion of access to said care, deeming reducing waiting times "morally urgent". The Council also summarily dismissed as thoroughly irrelevant the heavily manipulated Cass Review.

so for clarity, I'm an Australian, in my country there is this group called "the lesbian action group" or some shit like that. they have been for years now trying to receive an exemption from an anti-discrimination act so they can exclude trans women, and it's like, the worst part is, they're not even like 'oh trans women are men'
they're just like "oh we just want a space for Afab lesbians" its like...guh? huh? wuh? but we're women too? I'd honestly just rather them be openly transphobic lol. they bring up points like 'oh some of our founders we're trans' yeah whats your point? that doesn't reflect at all on what you're doing lol.

I’m only a few months on hormones but when I jump up and down I can feel my boobs move independently to my chest and it feels weird but good!

The video of the trans girl in Florida being tased and arrested because she had a mental health crisis and she demanded her pronouns to be respected has me feeling really bad, mostly because it is being used just for entertainment and to demean an entire group of people, and because she could have easily been me. I am autistic and prone to meltdowns when dealing with stressful situations, and honestly I don't know why people use this to make fun of us. Why do people think we deserve no dignity or respect? Why do we only exist to be used as transphobic comedy punchlines? Why don't people want to have a bit of empathy and compassion with us? I really want to cry because of this. I really feel bad for her.

I really hate society. I just want to live in a virtual world or with androids that don't judge us...

Hello,

what was your most underated/surpising purchase/appointemnt that helped you through your transition?

Im not talking abour DIY HRT or Laser Hair Removal, im talking about very niche things that most people dont have on their radar

For me it is using AI to deal with my depression and general information about transitioning until I got the first appointments with my therapist

Imm sooooo excited for the responses!!

So I got out of the shower and put my towel on like usual and went to get my work clothes out of the dryer and I noticed when I was walking my thighs... were rubbing against each other??? I had to pause for a second, I stopped and started walking again and omg I wasn't imagining it... they've never done that before! ;; I was squealing so loud! I've noticed my physical changes have been sorta increasing lately; I just passed 4 months on HRT this past Sunday and I'm for sure getting breasts now and my medium sized work jacket is getting comically big on me, my hands barely come out of my sleeves. I used to struggle to lift the 45 pound weights in the gym but now I straight up almost drop them when I try to take them off the bar. I'm so dainty and I love itttttt! ;; I hope this is all a sign that my estrogen levels are getting up there and overtaking the testosterone in my body because I'm soooo ready!

So I have my "trans reddit" account and my "everything else" account, where this one is only in queer spaces (mostly trans and lesbian spaces). I see soooo many pics of trans women on this account from things like trans timelines, trans passing, trans positive, etc, and felt like a lot of the features I was seeing in myself were clocky because they were familiar in these spaces.

Recently I subbed to r/makeupaddiction, which seems to be a sub that mostly cis women post on. And as it's been mixed up in my feed, I've realized that I've been incorrectly "clocking" cis women from that sub thinking it was a trans sub, only to realize "no wait this is a cis woman". It's made me realize that a lot of us pass a lot better than we think we do, and a lot of the clocky features we see are just normal human variance. Like I've always ***known*** that, but I think it took that sub being mixed in with trans subs for my emotions to actually accept it as true.

Anyway just food for thought, if y'all are mostly looking at trans women you should sub to some less trans leaning subs as well. Might help with your brainworms, like it has mine.

Until my egg cracked, I identified as a hetero cis male. When it cracked, I identified as a trans-female lesbian. 7 months into HRT, and I'm starting to notice men. Not simply in appreciating someone's look. It's going to be a fun wrinkle to explore, for sure.

I went to a shopping mall wearing a VERY feminine outfit. Lavender floral dress with puffy sleeves (I LOVE those sleeves), feminine hat, glasses, heeled boots, the works really. Even though I live in an area that is considered quite queer-friendly, I expected to get looks. I’m not on HRT, but other than barely visible chin hair and no more mustache hair than a cis woman would have, and I think I pass pretty well. I surprisingly didn’t get any strange looks, though. Anyone who paid any mind to me smiled, other than a few people. A store I’m at a decent amount of time every few months has a really nice employee who complimented my lavender-covered outfit. The topping on the cake, though: a guy who runs one of those hair stands in the hall of the shopping mall said “excuse me, ma’am“ and asked me if I wanted my hair done. ”Ma’am”! He called me ma’am!!! I felt so good.

Edit: So many of you have congratulated me and been so nice! Thank all of you!

Hey girls, hey everyone.

I'm kinda lost right now, so sorry for venting here again.

Basically, I've been about two weeks clean from any sissy/trans/feminization porn or anything like that. I stopped because I wanted to figure out if I'm actually MTF (a trans woman), or if all of this was just something that porn put into my head.

The problem is... I can't stop thinking about it.

I keep thinking about being a woman. Sometimes I think about everyday life as a woman, and yeah, I also think about sex as a woman. And I'm just like, "What the fuck do I do?"

I saw a post here talking about "Do I want to be her, or do I want her?" and that hit me pretty hard. I've been asking myself that for a long time, and honestly, a lot of the time it feels like I want to be her.

It's really confusing, and these thoughts just won't leave my head.

A little over a week ago I tried wearing some women's clothes. Nothing super feminine, mostly neutral stuff since I have a pretty masculine body. I'm 23. I also shaved all my body hair from the neck down, and... I actually liked it. To be fair, I've done that before, so it wasn't completely new, but it still felt good.

I'm just scared of making a huge decision in my life if all of this is actually just because of porn. I want to know who the real me is, and right now I honestly don't know.

If anyone has been through something similar, I'd really appreciate hearing your story. There are so many trans girls here, and maybe some of you have felt this way before.

Thanks for reading. ❤️

Hi, just simple as the title. I’m 19 and have been in the process of transitioning for the past 4-5 months since my egg was broken. Being fem presenting has made my life inordinately better. In my head though I still refer to myself as a guy, using he/him & keep thinking “I wish I could be a woman”. It just really hurts because every time I realize I’m doing it, it’s like a kick in the teeth reminder. How do you finally stop thinking of yourself/referring to yourself as a man?

Sorry if this is annoying, I don't know that I'm trans, but I'm currently questioning and I've heard that;

A: one way of working things out is that is to just try HRT and see how you feel about it.

B: HRT can have mental/psychological effects, changing your brain chemistry.

C: breast growth apparently starts (at the earliest) after two weeks on feminising HRT.

...and I don't currently have a living-situation where having a noticeably (but slowly) changing body shape is something ok or even safe.

So., would it be worth it to try HRT for a couple of weeks, to see if it has any noticeable mental effects on me? How likely do you think could this be to have true-positive (not placebo) results?

Before I started transitioning, cis women were much more willing to understand my perspective and we could come to an agreement where everyone is satisfied at least most of the time. Sometimes it was a me issue, sometimes them, sometimes neither - someone got jealous and tried setting us up.

Now that I’ve been transitioning for awhile, few cis women are willing to have hard conversations, and most of them who are blatantly lie and show contempt for me. I’ve been calm and gentle my whole life but I’m not feeling like that’s helping me, especially during a dangerous time in my life. Most of my trusted women family members started using triggers against me anytime I bring something up no matter who or what it is. Of course this is not all women but I am not running into healthy cis women friendships now that I’ve been transitioning. Other trans people have been healthy with me.

After a few test strips, I’ve learned that I won’t get walked over at all if I’m a mean girl. But I don’t want to be a bitch. I want to have the relationships I’ve had pre-transition where we can actually see each other as human.

So, if you managed to stop getting walked over while maintained a kind and loving demeanor, how did you do it?

I'm 16 right now and want to avoid long wait lists that I hear other trans people talk about.

1) Little old man at the store asking me “Ma’am, can you help me pick out a birthday card for my daughter? She’s about your age”

2) A new co worker responding to me talking about HRT by saying “You’re transgender? I had no idea!”

3) Being asked by a cis friend how to do eyeliner wings so evenly and consistently (I do them most every day in my makeup)

What random things recently have given you general euphoria?

So, I live in a red area of a blue state, and most of the people around me have been Republican or Conservative, a lot of MAGA in my area.

Coming out cost me most of the people in my life, but a few stuck around. I ultimately made the decision to cut out some family despite them being ok to meet up and chat, because anytime my "lifestyle" came up I was torn down and told I need to detransition, etc.I couldn't keep doing it, or pretending their worldview (evolution isn't real, vaccines don't work, Earth isn't older than 6-10 thousand years old, etc.) is normal.

I have a friend who I've always considered my #1. If there was ever anything he needed I was always willing to help, even to this day. But he doesn't like it when the topic of me being trans comes up, or when things related to that pop up in conversation. He doesn't berate me, and he is very gracious in letting me vent my frustrations or hearing out my point of view.

But when I'm with him or talking to him, we basically can't talk religion, politics, or my life anymore. We can talk about surface level things, like jobs, video games, hobbies, and the like, but we can't go deeper anymore like we used to.

We used to have such deep and inghtful conversations before I transitioned, he was genuinely someone I loved talking to. And now, it's like I have take all of the growth and development that's happened in the years since I transitioned and box it away, and pretend to be <deadname> when we talk or hang out. I just don't know what to do, because he is a nice guy, and I can tell there's a part of it where in his mind he really is trying to be there for me as a friend still despite what he was raised with and believes.

I tried to talk to him about this and express how I felt, saying basically the same as above, and he said it's not an easy thing for him to talk about, but he's ok to just talk about the things we do still have in common and enjoy.

I just don't know. He still will text me out of the blue sometimes (which is rare because most people I know I have on my phone don't text or call unless I initiate), and I hate the thought of losing a close friend. I've known him for years and really care about him as a person, and I just don't know what to even say in response.

It's like...this is me. This if my life. How can I not talk about that? Why should I not talk about it when it's what excites me and makes me happy?

Has anyone else dealt with something similar? Where people just want to kinda ignore it? I feel like I've lost a friend and I know he's still a text away.

Sorry for the vent y'all, if you read this far thank you, if you didn't I don't blame you

TLDR; my dilemma is, im not on hrt nor have i had SRS, and the LAST thing i wanna do is be ignorant to cis women because i love all women. so genuinely asking would it be okay for me to use the girls🚽, or should i just go in the boys 🚽?

background info:
so, i’m starting high school soon and i was wondering if it would be ethically wrong for me to use the girls bathroom? i’m planning to socially transitiong when i start hs bc im going to a hs where almost no one knows me, and if you click on my profile you can see that i am very feminine-presenting & 99% of the time in public i get gendered as a girl and majority of my middle school teachers gendered me as a girl. majority of middle school i never used the restroom in school, but the few times i got in trouble for going into the boys restroom because the teacher viewed me as a girl, and another time some boys walked in the restroom and just looked at me very oddly & were very confused.

So I started hrt 2 months ago and everything's going fine. Mainly just breast buds started around a month ago. But I've noticed that my testicles have been without a better word saggy, like real saggy, more than ever before.

And I'm just wondering if it's normal since all I've heard is that they shrink and atrophy, I've not heard of saggyness so I'm wondering.

I'm on 1,5 mg gel and 100 mg spiro with a dosage increase in a month.