I am not alone, but what else can I do? Everything I obsess over is out of my control, yet it dictates how I live my life. I am not even 100% convinced of atheistic materialism, but I might as well just suck it up and hop on that boat right now.

The world is dangerous today than it was 5 years ago, 10 years ago and even 30 years ago. The world is currently entering WW3 and not one person cares. We all thought covid was terrible with toilet paper, now imagine that amplified by 500 times, with oil shortages and people killing each other over junk food at Costco.

What's tragic is that it's all by design. China will surpass the United States in every category within the next decade. I am not saying this as someone who cares about America being number one, but expressing that we're entering a multipolar world, the global economy will be fractured, meaning life will fundamentally get more expensive. Why have children? We're already having a birth rate decline, the era of AI and automation will make the situation even worse.

Where else can we turn to? Humans stopped talking about the meaning of life, we're too distracted to even entertain the idea in our brains. Nostalgia has become my drug, I just imagine a time when life was simpler, and I shouldn't need to fall back on my childhood to calm down.

Kinds forgot how much I enjoy art and have been drawing pretty consistently for 7 years now but senior year of high school was so fucking hard I was just depressed, working or doing house chores since all that matters are the visual appearance of everything of course.

Masturbating and smoking weed is awesome too but there's always guilt with shit that's like seen as shameful

My fucking laptop is broken and I can't play any games I hatr being s phone screenager😭😭

What are some things u guys typically enjoy. Top 3 ?

If the universe is meaningless, why do shared cultural meanings have such profound real-world consequences?

For example, having a child together doesn't automatically grant the legal status and privileges that marriage does, even though the biological bond already exists. This can be devestating.

At least being born out of wedlock isn't quite as bad today as it was some generations ago.

I’ve seen some videos on YouTube about it. In one of the videos, there was a doctor that claimed NDE’s are real because one of his patients that was thought dead and claimed to have an NDE described every movement in the room perfectly and that it was impossible for him to know what happened inside the room unless NDE’s are something ore than brain hallucinations. His statements made me curious wondering if they’re real and why are there so many different versions of NDE’s? Did anyone here experience it or happen to know someone that did? What are you guys opinions?

Today, as i stepped into the shower, i thought to myself

What exists despite the silence of my inner voice?

You cant stop the thousands of thoughts from racing inside your head, but what about 5 seconds of silence?

I didnt speak much inside my own head, i didnt give a name to the water that was running. I stared at the motion, perceived it, felt what i felt, and then looked at the light shining from the sun inside the bathroom. The light hitting my skin felt more real than ever, but it wasn't any more real than the uncertainty i always perceived in my own head.

I stared, and in the absence of my inner voice, there was no purpose, there was nothing that defined my existence on the mirror.

The numbness i had felt through the day, my racing mind that never stopped thinking, my endless search for answers, the anxiety, pressure, discomfort, the judgement i gave to my own self, to objects and to others.

There was nothing that defined me.

Undefined. Why did something undefined ease my uncertainty, if the uncertain didnt give answers?

No purpose that defined me . Why did those two words stopped becoming hollow? Purpose, grand purpose, divine purpose, whatever you want to name it, i didnt feel tied to anything.

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Maybe tomorrow will change, but this is what i felt today.

Intelligence makes you understand and realize more of what's going on around you. You either recognize and think about things in your day to day life and you either ignore the questions of "what ifs" and the constant realization of mortality, or you go and numb and want to go braindead,whether that be drugs or alcohol. The reason that people get an addiction to drugs is cause it feels good and if you've felt pain and anguish from the curse of intelligence then the blank and empty from drugs and alcohol feels better than if you werent intelligent.Drugs feel better because of the lower base line happiness.So that influx of happiness from the drugs feels better, and you crave the drugs for the calm. Do you think that my thoughts process makes sence?

Nice brutality we got here.

Force this unnaturally after that.

What will you do? For a dollar bill. Backstab your neighbor for the greed of profits and you're "business savy"

Also simultaneously a scumbag but in the brutal money world that is passed as more than okay! Congratulations! You screwed over your neighbor who you then greet with a smile . Who is the psychopath again?

this world is a creative act. it is a story. what a gifted blessing to watch the story unfold on its own. okay but also to participate and its hard to participate and watch idk where do i exit?

Nihilism is defined as a philosophical branch which rejects the existence of any objectively meaningful purpose, moral value, truth, or knowledge. It is then, a cause for one to forfeit entirely to meaninglessness and stop all action whatsoever. In this case, the true nihilist is a catatonic patient; one who refuses to interact with the world, in a state of passivity. A philosopher or a writer cannot be a true nihilist. They are writing and thus contributing to the creation of meaning and human classification of what exists. Action itself affirms meaning. Here I argue that action does imply meaning, that we possess instincts and the means to act but choosing to do so is something that affirms the body's purpose or meaning. We eat to avoid hunger. Sleep to avoid fatigue. We are consciously acting to prevent or sate things. Therefore these are goals, and if goals lacked meaning, they would go unfulfilled. Or is this just a specific branch of nihilism that I am mentioning here?