Fuck you, I hope you sweat the bed every night, your entitlement and lack of self awareness makes everyone you ever interact with fucking sick, I bet you never get invited anywhere because why would anyone do that to themselves, what you did to everyone else there was a hate crime, you're lucky my husband is nicer than me, the next time I unwillingly am subjected to listening about who put a bottle to their head and pulled the trigger on someone's unattended canned ass loud ass bullshit speaker while we're all trying to relax and unwind and have a nice time with KIDS around it's going in the trash, buy some fucking airpods

This is my third and final attempt to post this, I need to externalize how absolutely trash it is to bring down the entire mood of a natural sanctuary people hauled their asses out of bed before dawn to appreciate just to have the experience tainted by unwanted exposure to Alison Krauss

Be better bye

I'm a woman and hearing my dad talk about other women and refer to them as a butter-face is just really lame, gross, insulting, and embarrassing. There's a few reasons this is just dumb and something I don't want to hear him say.. I don't want to hear my dad rate other women, or comment on their bodies being attractive or hot but not their faces, or imply that a woman has less value to her because of her face not being good enough for his viewing pleasure, or to just continue on this weird idea that a random man's opinion on a random woman's body even matters as something worth saying out loud as if their opinion was asked, as if it mattered, or that women in general are just things to be viewed and judged. And just why would you feel, as a father, that this is a good conversation topic to have with/around your daughter?

I could go on but I'll just leave it there. Feel free to discuss in the comments.

And for those of you who don't know what butterface is, it's dumb, if you don't already know it I would not suggest adding it into your vocabulary.

(Edit to add: sorry I deleted the last post and reposted bc I accidentally locked the comments right after posting oops)

I've been trying to lose weight no joke for 3 years. I started off over 200 pounds I'm 5 foot even. It took me a while to lose weight because I'm
neurodivergent and I have a hard time locking in, l've slowly lost weight over the years. I was put on a new medication for another thing that curves my appetite and it's making me lose weight quicker. Today I weighed in at 144 and this is the first time I've felt good about my body image. I still want to lose more but I don't feel "fat" anymore. I don’t fear being judged in public because of my weight anymore. I'm on a medication for my ADHD which helps curve my appetite plus the weight less meds I'm already on I'm the most confident in losing weight than I've ever been before in my life and I'm so happy right now.
Before I started weight loss I wore a women's XL size shirt and now I can fit into a small. (It's a little tight but I can wear it all day and be comfortable.)

I went to see my PCP to get my HCG checked to make sure everything looks right.From my description and the fact that I had an internal ultrasound that didn’t show anything, I’ve had two people tell me it sounds like I miscarried. Since I was going to terminate and I had went to an abortion clinic, the ultrasound tech couldn’t confirm it was a miscarriage. She could confirm that she didn’t see anything there though. 

Anyway, two nurses brought me back to the exam room to take vitals and get an idea of why I was there and getting my HCG checked. There was a mixup with scheduling because I misunderstood when I needed to get it checked again, so we cleared that up. 

While I’m explaining, I say, “Well, I found out I was pregnant.” And one of them women congratulated me, and I felt so bad for having to finish my sentence. “But I think I miscarried a couple days ago.”

Her face dropped and I wanted so badly to say, “It’s okay, I was terminating anyway.” That sounds a little harsh and heartless. She had a serious expression the entire time after that. I felt bad for her and I can’t imagine how bad she might feel. I hope she knew that the clinic I mentioned was an abortion clinic. It was just… super awkward for the both of us. 

And like, yes, I was going to terminate anyway. But I wanted circumstances to be different. I wanted it to happen at home and in private. Not in a Marshalls’s parking lot and bathroom where I can hear a family arguing in the stall over. Where I can hear small children bickering between each other. All of it happening the way it did was a total mindfuck. 

But I don’t feel like I have the right to be upset about any of it. People who actually want to be pregnant and have a baby have miscarriages, and they’re allowed to be sad. Not the person who miscarried the day before their termination. I barely even remember it happening. I remember the before, and the walk to the bathroom, and not feeling the sharp waves of cramps anymore, and the children and family bickering, and leaving the bathroom, and the after. I don’t remember seeing it though. I know I did, but I can’t remember it.

I have both a Bachelors and Master’s degree (finished masters back in May) and since then, in the span of two months:

- I’ve applied to almost 80 jobs

- been rejected from 25 of them (32% of all applications)

- Been considered an “eligible candidate” for a state job but haven’t heard anything since June

- had an AI Interview and got rejected from it

- one group interview I cancelled since I learned the company was a Devilcorp and I refuse to follow through with their bs tactics (don’t know what I mean? It’s like an MLM or a Pyramid Scheme but arguably just as bad if not worse)

- I have a zoom screening with a surprisingly good job next week and I’m afraid to ask how that’ll turn out.

- next week is when my current job ends and I’ll be considered unemployed after that.

I don’t know what to do, I feel lost in all of this due to how the job market currently is.

Edit: Since a lot of people have asked, I have a Bachelors in English and Masters in Communication if anyone’s wondering

I never… **NEVER EVER** did subscribe to a newsletter due to a pop-up asking for my email in the middle of the screen when I’m trying to read an article.

Are you high? Who came up with this? If anything it makes me hate the company behind the website.

Tech is miraculous but it’s been put in the absolute worst hands

Like I met someone from Brazil online, I’m from New England. We met in Ireland when she was studying English. Then I visited her in Rio De Janeiro, and it was always a dream of mine to go there. Best experience of my life 😌 it’s just crazy to me that the internet opens up the entire world, and maybe I was idealistic when I was choosing my career, but I thought that was world changing

… Then someone had to just come along and be like “yeah but how can we juice this for as much money as we can get”? The whole internet feels vaguely like an office building of a failing business now. Has this weird corporate “professional” feeling, everyone feels like a pantomime imitation of an influencer, no one is doing shit just cause they want to but because they feel obliged to. People treat the algorithm as a god

I hate the inauthenticity of online content. People are just trying to figure out what makes them money and gets views, it’s almost never what they actually want to make. People looking at all these dumb metrics and gaming the algorithms. Then I have a hard time taking any popular figure online seriously; like how do I know you didn’t just buy your views? Ugh. Maybe there’s someone I’d rather be watching

Everything is so surface level, lowest common denominator online now. Like I go to watch movie reviews and 50% of them are like… STRAIGHT trash. “Marty supreme was a bad movie because I didn’t think Marty was a good guy, aren’t I supposed to root for the main character? 2/10”, brother we were reading about characters like this since 8th grade, have you been zoned out since then? Oh my god. Oh and don’t even touch obsession reviews unless you wanna lose faith in people (if you do, check out Alex Meyers review lmao, I’m still not convinced it’s not just ragebait)

And man at this point it’s pissing me off how much it’s been changing things I like. People started doing things irl for clout and views. Like I used to really like cosplay. It was always meant to be a fun little hobby that you take just as seriously as you want. Now I see people cosplaying who don’t like anime, or when I go online there’s waaay too much sexy cosplays filled with gooners in the comment section (sexy cosplay isn’t directly the problem, it’s posting sexy cosplays for views and likes that’s the problem just to be clear)

It’s also taken the fun out of traveling, too. It actually used to require talking to locals to find new cool places in the city. Now you go anywhere and it’s completely full of tourists. I even see it in my own city. There’s one Italian restaurant which is unusually popular with people from Korea. Always a line out the door. Found out that some social media influencer posted about this restaurant in Korea and now everyone who visits the city goes there. I used to go there for lunch. Now I can never get in

I heard a story that there was a small chinese town where a farmer would make very authentic chicken soup. Someone posted it on social media and apparently he got so inundated with social media influencer types, that he decided to shut down the entire business. He said it sort of ruined his dream, he was happy before

Maybe at this point, it’s time to shut down the internet for a while 😕 we messed it up bad

(repost because apparently didn’t read all the rules before posting)

This feels like a small thing to be annoyed by, but nevertheless I’m ANNOYED.

I went to a buy a coffee at a small place. There was literally not another customer in there besides me.

Me: “Hi, can I get a-“

Employee: *interrupts me* “You can use the kiosk to order”

Me: “…okay”

I go through the process to order on the kiosk, but before I can hit “submit” I’m required to put in my phone number.

Me: “Sorry to be that guy, but I just don’t want to put my phone number in. I get enough spam calls as it is. Can I order without doing that?”

E: “just hit skip”

Me: “there’s no option to skip”

E: “it just needs your phone number for the receipt”

Me: “yeah, but it’s never *just* for a receipt”

E: *rolls her eyes and lets me order through her*

As they’re making my drink, another customer walks in and orders with the kiosk, puts her phone number in, hits submit. The next thing to pop up on the screen is “Thanks for your order & thanks for signing up for promotional content! Click here to opt out.”

I shouldn’t need a phone number to order a stupid coffee. I’m annoyed the whole world is after every last byte of our data. It’s never JUST for a receipt.

***edit to add: I did try 2 obviously fake numbers BEFORE asking to place the order with the employee (111-111-1111 and 123-456-7891) but the “submit” button on the kiosk was still grayed out. It probably has a database of US area codes and knows that those are fake area codes. I could type in my area code + fake number, but I don’t want to relegate a stranger to receive spam calls on the chance I pick a number in service. IMO the answer is to just not use these stupid kiosks, not to try to trick them.

Before you judge me for the title, let me explain.

So a while back, I was flirting with my best friend, until one day he calls me and asks if I like him.

So I ask why, and he says that he likes me, and would like to hook up with me.

I ask if we'd date, and said I was interested in dating, but he said no.

So then he proceeded to say that he was so horny that he wanted to hook up with me, because I was a pretty girl. Not because it was me.

So I said no, which I then regretted.

So I called him afterwards and asked if he liked me at all, and he said no and that if any other girl was avaible he would hook up with them.

I've been sexually abused all my life, so hearing this was like a dagger in my heart. The man I really liked just wanted to hook up with me. He didn't like me. My best friend didn't appreciate me.

So I kinda felt like shit.

So then he talked about new girls he liked and I felt so bad, because I was so jealous.

I shouldn't be. He hurt me. I shouldn't care.

But I cared more than anything. Because he talked about how much he loved them and would love to be with them.

I wish I hooked up with him. Or asked him out. Maybe it would have some satisfaction.

I wish he saw me.

I mean, I'm just sick of men not treating me like a dating object.

Either I'm a disgusting person who no-one wants, or a piece of meat to be thrown to the herd.

I just want love. A boyfriend I love. And who actually cares about me.

And I'm sick of people who actually do like me saying that me rejecting them is such 'pick me behaviour'. No. I just don't like YOU.

I mean, I'd love for a guy I like to like me back, but I feel love so scarcely because of everything that's happened and everytime a man I've loved has broken my heart.

My chest hurts so much, and I'm getting panic attacks thinking about my best friend with another girl. I want him so much. But he doesn't want me.

Fml.

The man was physically and verbally abusive and controlling, I wasn't allowed to have friends, he sold my car years ago so only he could control where I went and when with his car and him driving, he controlled the money despite the last two years being me who worked 3 jobs and took out my 401ks and savings to pay our bills while he sat at home doing nothing and so much more I could go into, yet somehow my life with him seemed 10x better than it is right now. I had to move home which is embarrassing enough, I haven't been able to get a job despite multiple years in administration and project management because the remote work market is so saturated and I have no car or money to get a car because again no job, I'm barely getting interviews and the ones I have gotten didnt end in a job offer, I have very little network and no one in it had any job opportunities they knew of, I have -$1753 to my name, credit cards going into collections and I see no end to this awful struggle in sight. I should've stayed, maybe if I beg he'll take me back, at least I had steady income, a place to live that wasn't my parents and somewhat of an independent life, anything and I do mean anything seems better than this embarrassing endless struggle at my grown age where everyone I see my age and even younger are affording expensive things and supporting themselves

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First, I would like to start off by saying I love you. I really, really, do. And this is gonna sound way to fucking familiar, but that's exactly why this is frustrating.

Last weekends date was a disaster, but honestly you were the worst part of that day. I did everything I could to make it a good day and you just hated it, and you made sure I knew that you hated it. That part hurt, but now it's just stupid and frustrating to think about.

Namely because you actually need to take care of yourself, and part of that day was me just trying to make sure you're taken care of. You need shoes and clothes, and I know you bought them and it didn't go how you hoped, but I don't regret pushing for it. Hell, I bought your shoes you just won't take the damn money. You need clothes that actually fit you, and you deserve new shirts without holes or random stains baked into them. You need shoes that aren't just crocs or vans that hurt your feet. I wanted you to feel nice and confident, and like I was listening. We went to the place you've been dying to go to for 𝒚𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒔 and I'm sorry it wasn't what you thought it was, but that wasn't my fault.

And, in case you forgot, you're the one that still wanted to go shopping. I had already said it wasn't in the plans anymore. You knew why we were going to the store, you even picked the store yourself.

Honestly, sometimes you act like an outright child. Especially when it's a situation where you need something and refuse to get it/it doesn't go your way, and when I need a second to just chill. I don't have the stamina that you do. It's really starting to come off as ungrateful.

So yeah, I'm gonna nag you about going to the doctor and taking care of your damn health. I'm gonna make you get new clothes, and keep up with your hair. Because I love you, and obviously you won't manage this shit on your own. Instead you'll sit there for months, or years at this point, complaining and stating how much you need shit or don't have it. Either you fix it, or I do.

And for the love of everything we've done to get here, please try to show some appreciation when I try. Because I really did and your behavior during and afterwards was hurtful.

im a girl, and im hijabi and in order for me to be a better muslim, i need to stop being delusional and feeling weird about female friends when they get too close

i tried to not think about certain things at all which has been working so far but im still pretty disgusted with myself.

im straight but sometimes weird delusional thoughts come up when another girl tries to be weird with me. i then get all repulsed and im currently not talking to that girl for about two weeks now. sometimes ill think about what its like to date or kiss her, and i like those thoughts in my head but i dont want them.

They’re jeopardizing my closest friendship which is homoerotic too. I want to be straight and I am straight but yk what I mean. I felt gross even writing these feelings out.

note: i reuploaded this bc i forgot to agree to the rules

My first relationship ended really badly, and ever since then I’ve struggled to believe love is even real. And if it does exist… I’m convinced I’m just not meant to find it.

Ever since that first one, I’ve been stuck in this cycle. I start craving companionship, meet a girl, we get to know each other, something special starts forming… then the memories of how the first one ended hit me and suddenly it all feels pointless. Like I’m just walking into another painful waste of time. So I cut them off.

After a while something pulls me back in and I want that connection again, and the whole thing repeats. This has been going on for years now across multiple women. I honestly wish I could just shut it all off and be like a robot with no desire for a partner, no hope, nothing. But instead I keep getting dragged through the same confusing mess of emotions over and over.

And the worst part is I can see the pattern so clearly now, but I still can’t break it. Every time I try to stay open, the fear wins. It’s exhausting, and I’m starting to wonder if I’ll ever actually let myself be happy with someone… or if this is just how it’s always going to be.

My former employer laid me off about a month ago after 11 years because incompetent management spent too much money and now they can't pay me. This morning I logged into my bank account to find that they accidentally sent me an extra paycheck.

BEFORE ANYONE SAYS "JUST KEEP IT": I can't legally keep the money. Of course the US has laws in place that protect the employer and allows them to sue to recover the accidental payment, even though it's their stupid ass fault.

I had been looking for another job for a year before they laid me off and it's been like 2-3 months since I even had an interview. For them to accidentally send me money that I can't keep is like dangling a sandwich in front of a homeless man. I never wanted to see or talk to any of them again, but I can't even have that dignity because I had to call them and let them know what happened. Hopefully they can get the money back without me having to go give it to them in person.

In a just world, I should have been allowed to keep the money. They should just have to eat it since it was their mistake, and someone should have lost their job for accidentally paying me extra.

Fucking fat cat shitheads. Get your fucking act together. FUCK YOU!!

Jeez, all you people telling me to keep it are living in a fucking dream world.

My girlfriend and I both early 30s had planned to attend an event a few hours away. For context this event is something we have to purchase tickets to attend. It’s definitely more her cup of tea than mine but I’m more than happy to attend, but considering the fact that this was a 4 hour drive away I want it to go smoothly. As this was something she’s attended before, and was the one who suggested we go she was in charge of getting our tickets and making the arrangements. 2 days before the event she tells me she’s purchased 1 adult ticket and 1 kid ticket in the name of saving money. I’m beside myself, I understand wanting to save money especially in this economy, but she didn’t consult me on this she just did it. Yes we both look young, but not that young. For two days I stressed about if we (I drove the entire way) would drive the 4 hours to get there only to be denied entry. I said if it was about the money I would have just given you the money for the ticket, but you just bought the tickets without asking me or thinking about the consequences. I feel like a jerk for being upset about this still because we did manage to get in the event no problem, but I just can’t shake it. I would have much rather paid for the peace of mind.

I am at a loss for words. The modern corporation functions as a large hill with a cannon on top. This cannon is filled with bullshit (quite literally). You have to try to climb this hill while be showered with loads and loads of this bullshit. Sometimes you try to shield the people below you from this bullshit but at the end of the day youre gonna have to shovel it down right on them. Someone's constantly drowning in bullshit and everyone's got it on them.

I swear to god the next time I hear the term "Key improvement indicator" or "jumping off point" I'm gonna loose my ever loving mind. The fact that corporate slop zombies actually believe this nonsense makes me loose faith for humanity.

I dont understand how I can do this for another 30-40 years. Hell exists and its a 6x6' cube with two monitors on it.

I'm too weak.

I don't want people to help me anymore.

I can do it alone!

I want to do it by myself!

I don't want people call me weak anymore!!!

I am going to be stronger! I am strong!!!!!

Stronger than ever! I will show you all!

That this is me!!!

genuinely a horrible experience. otw home from work and i need to wait an hour and a half because i live in bumfuck nowhere in scandinavia. no i don’t want to sit in the waiting room with thirty teenagers. no i don’t want to walk aimlessly in the supermarket and feel pressured to buy a drink or something. bottom 5 experiences of all time it’s an irl unskippable cutscene

it’s fucking freezing rn and it doesn’t get dark till like 2am why tf do i live here

I don’t know what I am doing wrong. I have never felt like I am enough in anything. Besides my terrible problems with self esteem I hate feeling like a background character in my life and it’s eating me alive.

I have many good friends, I know they like me, but I feel like they matter more to me than I matter to them. I know I am never their first choice. They have other better friends. All of them. I have an amazing boyfriend, who is my soulmate, but I feel it is a bit different than in platonic relationship. One of my biggest fears is that someday he will see me how I see myself and he will be tired of me.

I don’t know what I need to change to be someone’s favourite. I often feel if I stop the input many friendships will slowly fade away. I feel bad that it borders me so much, especially when my boyfriend is the best thing that happened to me and truly is my soulmate, but I crave a female best friend.

I know it’s stupid, but it’s just so hard to feel left out, I never feel like I am a part of a group. My friends from high school found many friends at collage and they seem so happy, while I also found friends, but I feel like I randomly started to hang out with them and truly they don’t like me as much as each other.

I am jealous of lives my friends live and i know I need to change mine, but the fear of being judged and how people perceive me often paralyses me. I gained weight at my first year of collage and I can’t do anything without feeling ashamed. I know people judge me. It makes me overthink so much. I am rarely going out, because I don’t look good enough to go to a club or something. I don’t sing or dance, because I feel I am doing everything wrong. I am stiff and awkward so I don’t like going out.

It is exhausting to live like that. My heart feels heavy so often and my hands shake. I hate how often I am ashamed or/and jealous. I feel like I will never will be skinny, pretty, happy, outgoing, smart of fun enough ever. I only see my flaws and it bothers me. Especially when it’s so easy for me to see positives about other people. I feel like my problems with self esteem literally eat me alive and stop me from living.

I am currently trying to lose weight and change for better, but I am struggling because I find comfort in food. I know I need to change things that bothers me about myself, but I am really scared I will never be enough.

I just don’t like myself, I really wish I was a different person and I don’t know. Existing with hatred for myself is just miserable. 😞

I don’t know if I deserve to be happy anymore

ok weird vent here, when I use the word change I don’t mean fully in a bad way. I used to be very confirmative and bleh never really dressed how I wanted or acted how I did. but ever since I’ve got a girlfriend I just don’t give a shit what people think of me I dress how I want to and act how I please, when I say act how I want I mean in not being one of the nonchalant dudes all the time.

I’ve also noticed that I’ve became more extroverted too I don’t know how. I find at work (I work with kids) I can be way more fun and active and I don’t feel like people will view me differently for how I act while working. Plus having a girlfriend has giving me Somone to talk to about feeling depressed as she did have it. But she has gotten much better. I’ve also started my to pick up new hobbies like learning embroidery. and Just having a girlfriend makes me feel so much fuller. I feel like I have a reason to get wake up and not bed rot all day.

but I’m really happy that I found a girlfriend because I was going through it right before I found her. I was probably pretty depressed but I never got tested and yeah. she’s also part of the reason I made honour roll too soo yeah.

i don’t really know if this qualifies as a vent but I just really wanted to talk about how great my life has gotten and I hope you really enjoyed my great big vent:)

I’m sorry for suck a big ass vent Ive had so much and no one to talk to about it.

I wish I could unmask in front of someone. I know it's annoying, but it's so frustrating to have to mask ALL the time, it's actually exhausting. I just wanna be able to be me in front of literally anyone and not annoy them. I hate that I'm annoying when I unmask. I just wish I could be me for one day, really.

Literally my entire life whenever I was asked who my favourite person was I would say my grandma and she was genuinely the person I loved the most in the entire world. She helped raise me too so I had a special connection with her. I won’t go into details over what happened because of privacy reasons but she definitely has undiagnosed narcissistic personality disorder (not throwing that term around carelessly I’m serious), and has done and said really terrible things. When I first found out about a huge conflict happening in my family I honestly felt really bad for my grandma and she started crying in front of my and all I could see was a scared child hoping that I would still love her, but I can’t see her the same ever again. It’s been months since the initial event started and slowly everyone around me including the rest of my family completely hates her, and honestly I just feel really disappointed. I sometimes feel like a bad person because everyone is super enthusiastic about saying bad things about her but I always just get quiet even though the stuff she’s done is horrendous. I don’t know if I love her anymore and that really hurts me because for the longest time she was the most important person to me. Even in my childhood she would body shame me and criticize me all the time but I still loved her despite that and I guess that all should have been a warning sign of what was to come. Now every interaction is so awkward and she just starts randomly crying and before I used to feel sad and start crying too but now I’ve just become more desensitized to it because she uses it as a manipulation tactic. I just feel really sad that all my respect and love towards her has warped into pure disappointment and grief.