My skin is a welcome for people to hate me, people see my features and want me gone. People see my descendants are from another country, and call me an alien. I don’t get it, I’m one of them. I was born on the soil they defend and that I defend more than my original motherland.

Black and whites look at me and hate me. I’ve been hated even as a child, adults furrowing their eyebrows and whispering about me. Sand thrown in my eye and pushed enough that my chin busted open with hate.

Many people now want to forget the past, hold hands and be at peace. Where was that when I was beaten and called slurs for being born with brown skin? When I wondered why they looked at me with hate in their eyes?

Do not get me started on their hate for me yet their love for my culture. They eat my cultures food and even steal our things and replace it with a stupid name. They love our music and try stealing our fifteen birthday parties.

Yet when they see us and our skin, our features, they have a heart filled with hate? People kill others with my skin, so I might as well be dead if I’m brown.

My former employer laid me off about a month ago after 11 years because incompetent management spent too much money and now they can't pay me. This morning I logged into my bank account to find that they accidentally sent me an extra paycheck.

BEFORE ANYONE SAYS "JUST KEEP IT": I can't legally keep the money. Of course the US has laws in place that protect the employer and allows them to sue to recover the accidental payment, even though it's their stupid ass fault.

I had been looking for another job for a year before they laid me off and it's been like 2-3 months since I even had an interview. For them to accidentally send me money that I can't keep is like dangling a sandwich in front of a homeless man. I never wanted to see or talk to any of them again, but I can't even have that dignity because I had to call them and let them know what happened. Hopefully they can get the money back without me having to go give it to them in person.

In a just world, I should have been allowed to keep the money. They should just have to eat it since it was their mistake, and someone should have lost their job for accidentally paying me extra.

Fucking fat cat shitheads. Get your fucking act together. FUCK YOU!!

ok so backstory: i met this guy on insta like a year ago. we start vibing, just talking casually, nothing deep. TEN DAYS in he's already proposing a relationship 💀 like sir we just met. i wasn't ready, told him that, and he goes full love-bombing mode — "i won't break your heart," "i genuinely like you," the whole script. and me being me, i fell for it. classic.

then one night, radio silence. dude blocked me EVERYWHERE. no warning, no explanation, nothing. i was spiraling for days like what did i even do?? turns out he forgot to block me on telegram so i hit him up asking wyd, and he's like "oh sorry i was stressed about exams." ok??? and somehow we just... go back to normal. red flag number one, ignored.

then he does it AGAIN. blocks me out of nowhere. this time i didn't even bother asking why, i was so done chasing answers. he comes crawling back on his own this time with "my dad saw our chats" as the excuse 🙄 like bro pick a struggle.

at this point i'm just numb. i straight up asked him why he was playing with my feelings like that. told him i didn't wanna continue and we ended things in september.

cherry on top? he's already got a new girl in college. meanwhile i'm the one who was left holding the bag, still confused about what even happened. s

SHOULD I POST PART 2?

soooo yeah, title. He’s kinda young, 12 years old, pretty average guy. Ik it’s mostly the content he consumes and stuff and he’s pretty passionate about these things. He thinks that trans women in particular (well tbh I don’t think he understands trans men) shouldn’t be allowed to do sports, even if they’re fully transitioned and their body is the exact same as a cis woman, so they wouldn’t have any advantages. He says it’s cuz they’re not women and it’s wrong. And the other thing is that he doesn’t like women. Or feminism, he really doesn’t like feminism. And also men are stronger than even trained women, like construction workers are stronger than military women, which yeah thats right ig? But like, it’s only right to a certain point. They have a higher starting off point but men And women’s muscles grow at the same rate, so two people who do the same job for a long time would probably have the same muscle, no?

he also says that modern women hate men and have a bunch of advantages and are major cheaters, and also that they don’t do anything to contribute to relationships and men have to do all the heavy lifting. Also feminism is bad cuz it’s just egotistical and women thinking they’re better than men when men literally are stronger or whatever. And also all its about is “oh men suck”. Also women shouldn’t be allowed into male-dominated groups like army troups Cuz the men will wanna fuck them. Oh and also it will affect the vibes of the group to have a female there. Oh and women are the cause of cancel culture.

Anyway, I’m not saying any of this is untrue but he tends to introduce it like women are dumb, weak, hateful and evil? And it’s just like.. no, man. You’re a child. You have not been in any relationships. The relationships around you are all soooo childish like you say so yourself. He’s just so hateful about women and it’s like.. dude, that’s half the population? You can’t just…. Hate women. Generalizing them like this is the same thing you complain about them doing with men. Maybe some of them are like this, but they’re not all like this, and they can be interesting people and be nice and stuff.

Oh and also when he brings this up i always have arguments against some of the stuff he says but I never wanna make it a full on argument cuz we disagree and I know that so what’s the point in making a big deal over smth he won’t change his mind about? But I’m so frustrated, because to me it’s obvious the flaws in his argument, especially if I understand things so much better than him. Like he points out some valid issues, then he uses it as evidence that feminism is bad and women are bad. Like that’s a bit of a jump dude.

Yeah that was the vent lol.

Im genuinely pissed off right now badly. I dont even know what I expected but I made two online friends over a videogame and they are genuinely nice people around a week ago. Tonight we were just playing games like usual and one of the two guys decides to add his friend in whos literal name in the game is the r slur, and he calls him by that. Im like wtf.. and hes like ahh hes ok with being called that. this friend he added also proceeds to act out being the r slur. then they see landmines in the game and proceed to say allahu akbar... and say stuff like oh when you bomb it dont forget to say that! like not funny at all?? (Theyre all just white btw) Then later we switch to another game and as soon as I join up I hear him say "n word". Thats honestly when I flipped out because they had already been disrespectful with the slurs but now its blatant racism and I told him I was black and only then he was like "oh shoot your black?? sorry..." Ok even if i wasnt black still dont say that stuff???!!!

honestly should have noticed a red flag in the beginning when we were first playing the game we met on he mentioned something about the kkk... as a joke as someones nickname. mind you i had told him i was black and mixed. and he is literally just white from america. and then when we had made a group chat with the other guy he named it the r slur which i yelled at him to change so yeah there were some red flags. but he was a very nice person in general and was nice to his friends and even gifted us games telling us how much he appreciated us especially since his gf and him broke up and we were there for him and now shes in the hospital or whatever. but like genuinely im reconsidering being friends with him at all because of the stuff he says like its just him and the friend he added. the other original friend is completely fine and its crazy because the only one who isnt racist or says those things is the younger guy. both of the racists are full grown aduts?! like we are 18 act your age. this is not funny.

i hope i didnt seem like a pushover cause i dont think my tone was harsh enough when i crashed out and told him to stop but like i literally left the call. i genuinely might cut him off. its so stupid cause its been a week and tbh ive never had online friends or anything so i kinda didnt know what to expect. but of course hes just gotta be racist. Km just mad like why do they think the shit they say is okay?!?!? Like just be a damn nice person were adults. its wild how the younger kid is more mature than you. absolutely embarrassing.

these past few weeks, i (20f) have been researching autism in adult women. i have been having a harder time doing everything i used to do that makes me feel like im functioning. what really turned my attention to autism is a breakdown i had.

all my life, i have had episodes where i feel so overwhelmed i hurt myself. i didnt live in an ideal environment as a child, so when i moved out last year, i thought i would be okay. until a few weeks ago when i accidentally ran a lipbalm my boyfriend got me through the dryer.

i genuinely freaked the fuck out, harder than i have in years. i dont remember what else happened before the breakdown that morning but i ended up bruising both of my arms and my stomach. autism or not,, i shouldnt still be having these issues.

all of the autism tests i have taken scored high enough for me to know i at least should treat myself like im autistic to see what helps me mentally.

anyways, the tomato soup that has me pissed off. its literally been an entire year of me bugging my boyfriend about wanting to eat grilled cheese and tomato soup. i was even pregnant at one point this year and i never got the fucking soup and sandwich i was craving.

finally, last night, the stars aligned and everything was set for the dinner i wanted. until i started puking. i went to lay down with the lights off, and my boyfriend kept asking me to turn the light on while he ran in and out of the room. we have a lamp, i would have preferred the lamp, i even started crying from the big light and he just kept fucking bothering me. i did not communicate to him what i needed in that moment, so im not really upset about him doing it, im just more upset he is so thoughtless.

my boyfriend has been talking about this tomato soup he makes for this entire year we have lived together, did not let me buy the premade soup i wanted, and reassured me he would make the soup. i have been preparing for this so hard, i was looking forward to this since we bought groceries last week.

while he was in the kitchen, i heard him call me all crazy style. like i legit ran out there thinking something happened to the cat. turns out, he made the soup and used like 16oz of heavy whipping cream in a soup meant to serve THREE people!!! so it tasted like tomato milk. i told him it was fixable, and to blend another can of tomatoes then stir it together. everyone makes mistakes right? i cant be mad about that. i was upset it happened, but whatever.

i never got my tomato soup and grilled cheese, i just kept puking. no assistance offered from my boyfriend, only from our friend who was staying the night. my bf asked me ONCE if i want a grilled cheese and speedwalked away after he heard me say no. but i wanted to say “no, not right now, but i really really want some.”

my boyfriend ate, watched youtube with our friend so loud my head was pounding, and then came to bed, went to sleep. i was up for at least four hours after him just continuously puking. this morning, i feel so much better. i woke up being excited knowing i could have my special dinner tonight!!

oh!! only its sitting on the stove!!! right fucking there all night!!!! i asked “what happened?” and i got told they fell asleep right after cooking. I HEARD THEM WATCHING YOUTUBE FOR AN HOUR. i just dumped the whole pot of tomato soup down the drain crying.

i dont feel at risk for breaking down right now, but it just makes me think about how hard its going to be to cognitively navigate these situations in life to avoid it. im so mad at my boyfriend, and i dont even know if i can trust my emotions to be valid. fucking tomato soup. thats all i wanted.

No matter what job I go to, there's always some moron coworker who consistently shows up late or they linger around 10 - 50 minutes after their shift ends just to collect overtime or cause they want to blabber on to everyone about their personal life, or it's cause they made some big ass mistake that I have to fix.

"Ohhh but I dont want to get in trouble 🥺"

You're like 30 years older than me, take accountability!!! AHHHHHH. I hate it here.

We just broke up. The only woman I have ever loved in my entire life. The only woman who ever loved me in my 33 years on this earth.

I don't know why I'm such an asshole, I don't know why I pushed her away so many times. She was there for me through all my mental breakdowns because of family drama, work stress, friend issues. All of it. Admittedly, she doesn't have the biggest capacity for stress and is an empath, so even when I am just venting she takes everything in so heavily. I had the worst day of my life on Sunday where I had to really look inside and decide that I need to distance myself from my family. They continue to ask for stuff from me but never care how I end up in life. They want me where they can be happy, but if I tell them I don't want to be there because being there doesn't make me happy, they guilt trip me into doing it anyways. I admit my boundaries weren't strong enough with them. So, I broke down on Sunday. I broke down and vented to my angel of a SO and she just couldn't take it anymore. Now I've lost her. I fixed my stuff with my family, am still going through the mental struggle of having to cut off people I love very deeply, but this is nothing compared to the heartache I feel from losing my heart.

It's been two days and I cannot stop this pain. I miss her so much.

Right so I've been w my girlfriend for nearly 2 years now and she is the one person I've loved the most in my entire life. I want to marry her someday and all that stuff, but I have moments where I'm really insecure. I have never liked the way I look and still don't to be honest. My girlfriend tries to support me and I know she thinks I'm gorgeous or whatever but I just don't see it. Now the main issue, she always calls other people cute or smth like that and the other people actually ARE attractive and it just feels like she's only calling me pretty bc she feels stuck in the relationship. I know it's not a big deal, i know you cant suddenly like not notice ppl are attractive just bc youre in a relationship but it just hurts

Ok one what are they doing the rest of the year? Two my window has been open for 10 minutes why are you already invading my bedroom? Three why must you insist on flying around my head? Go buzz in the corner of my room or something why are you buzzing around my ears and tryna go up my nose? They're so annoying to hit as well at least I can just hoover up the spiders. I actually dont care about being hot and sweaty when these buzzy little MF's are out here to ruin my R&R.

I feel like theres this weird influx of dating questions and vents and praising and grievances absolutely everywhere you could ever look at or browse at right now. Like an unusual amount. It depresses me to no end to see like a 17 yo post about how theyre making legit preparations for dates and shit, in a world entirely built for straight people, casually mentioning how this is like their 5th relationship after 4 failed longer term ones lol, when me at that age grew up in a world where no one besides me was openly out, and even I was beaten to near death for "acting too feminine" or whatever. I had to try a thousand times harder and be a hundred times braver than any of my straight friends and peers who got everything while I got crumbs. I feel like I cant get over it. Like the world just isnt for someone like me, at all. We wouldnt ask a bullied person to ignore the bullying - We’d try and stop it. I have to live in a world that a lot of people hate me in every single day. And thats not even the worst part. The not developing normally or having all that open fun that the world woke up to way after I did is. Its fucking hell sometimes. My minds so black & dark because of it.

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i’m a 14 year old girl, i weigh 141lb/64kg. i’m 5’4. all of my friends weigh less than me, and it’s a miracle if i see someone weigh more than 120lb at my age. i’m growing out of my brandy melville jeans, i can only wear long tank tops that hide all of my stomach, and i have to suck my stomach in for photos and literally walking outside. i have a double chin and i can only take selfies from a high angle, i have a baby face and a square/roundish face shape too which doesn’t help. i only feel good about myself when i wear makeup. i feel such rage when i see girls complaining about how they weigh 100lbs, like i would die to be that weight, and i haven’t been that since i was 9. i’m this weird in between where i don’t look fat at a glance, but my double chin and my stomach make it so much worse. i was really big when i was younger, and ive definitely lost weight since then, but i stopped losing and only gaining now. i feel like a rectangle. i have martial arts every day for an hour, i get plenty of physical activity, and it doesn’t work

I know you don’t want to accept it and that’s not what it was in your eyes, but you did. Then got mad at me for not handling it well. I can’t believe I wanted you back. If you ever end up in my messages trying to reconcile things just know I will never love you again.

I'm raging out internally. People need to like you. If people don't like you, you aren't going anywhere in life.

I'm 26m. At 24, I got accepted into a master's program in Economics at a great university. I didn't get accepted by my classmates and especially my housemates. My housemates would party and when I was taking a crap on the toilet at around ~6:00pm, the bitch I lived with went outside my door and went "he's just weird, he's just a loner" about 4-5 times. I fucking hate everyone. I ended up flunking out.

I hate my life. My brother has psychosis. My parents are shit. My cousins are shit. I'm 26 and can't get a job with my bachelor's, I'm fucking done. My neighbour is the ultimate fuck up and drags everyone down with him including me. Everyone else is happy. I thought I found a nightshift job today but I might have been scammed. Luckily I didn't send my payroll information. I don't know what the fuck to do. My bougie ass classmates didn't like me either. I wasn't from a private school like they were. I hated highschool, I got bullied there too. I'm level 1 autistic but getting put in with ghetto low lives IS SUCH A SHIT FUCKING OUTCOME. I hate everyone man, I fucking hate my life.

Me and my boyfriend have been together for 6 years now and the only reason we are still dating is because of this big looming incompatibility.

For background, we met when we were 18 and 19. I was always adamant about not having kids and he seemed to agree. In reality, I think we were so young and blinded by love that he thought not having kids because i didnt want them was okay. Teenagers are dumb haha

Anyway, now were are in our mid twenties, established, and ready to take next steps towards marriage and moving in together and such. However, we are stuck. Stuck not knowing what to do because this isnt something that can be compromised on.

Today we spoke about it and cried. We arent angry at each other but just so sad about it. We know this cant work and we both want to spend the rest of our lives together so we just cry.

It’s heartbreaking to think that we could be so perfect together yet not be able to be together.

Edit: Im not sure why so many people are downvoting this. I understand we are not compatible and there is no solution. We are just fighting the inevitable and its very upsetting to have to let go of the person u want to spend your life with

Why? Why do y'all need to show your partner how much you "love" them literally everywhere. Showing love in private spaces in alright and none of my business but why do y'all need to bring it up in public? It's genuinely so annoying that wherever I go, there are couples everywhere holding hands/kissing or hugging. It's genuinely so gross and I wish I could buy some bleach for my eyes after witnessing all these. I literally avoid going to the park in the afternoon/evening because in every bench, there would be a couple..literally every fucking bench. The girl would have her head rested on his shoulder's and they'd do all these gross stuff like kissing or making out. I once saw the guy resting his head on a girl's lap. Are you fucking kidding me? What is the point of all these? Why not just stay in if you have plans of doing such heinous acts. My day is genuinely ruined once I witness such atrocities. Don't even let me get started on cafes and restaurant. Feeding each other, loud giggling. This is genuinely so cringe and pointless. Why not just act civilized in public and not make others uncomfortable?

And don’t even piss me off rn and comment some dumb shit like “um it’s really weird how you feel so strongly about comedy films maybe you need to unpack that in therapy-” like shut the crap up omg istg you people are so annoying like this is why everyone hates you (including you yourself) irl

Phew. Okay, now that that’s out of the way I don’t like black comedies because they’re often more black than they are comedies. The whole premise is that a disturbing issue has to be woven into the fabric of the film and then comedified somehow. Pick an issue that’s not disturbing enough and it’ll just be a comedy film with ill fitting elements. So the issue they pick always has to be notably disturbing, but at that point I don’t want it made fun of, I want it solved.

I remember being like 9 years old flipping through channels and stumbled upon what I later found out was Weekend at Bernie’s. I caught it right from the beginning and the entire half hour I watched it I was like… why are they doing that. Like desecrating human remains. Please don’t do that to someone’s corpse and put him to rest, this is so uncomfortable. Europe is notorious for these films (there’s this one Spanish one - if you know you know). European black comedies are basically just disturbing with a few situational jokes that make the whole thing feel more twisted.

I don’t like it, it makes me uncomfortable and it’s just not my thing.

Me. Not you. Me. Did you psychopaths who got triggered from the disclaimer at the top also read the tag? Not looking for input. That means you. You, the seething, spiteful person behind the screen. Shut the fuck up and get off my post and bitch at someone else who’ll entertain you cuz I’ll just straight up give you the hand.

Everyone else, thank you so much for listening. I’ve been wanting to talk about black comedies for a long time without going into the nitty-gritty film technicalities of it.

Title pretty much. Not sure when unc era is, but I definitely feel like one at the moment. I see all these 14 and 15 year olds and I just feel like time has passed me by.

My dad kept saying that he was going to set it up so that I have access to his bank accounts in order to pay his bills for him. He’s getting older so it makes sense. I don’t have a good relationship with him at all, but I absolutely would be willing to go online to his bank account and transfer some money around and make sure his shit gets taken care of.

Except he never actually set it up so that I have access to his bank accounts. Like everything else about my dad, he just constantly talked about it and never actually did it.

Then, instead of moving into the assisted-living facility which I suggested near his house (I suggested going there for 1 to 2 months so he could get all his stuff taken care of before deciding whether where he wants to go permanently), he left the country. Because care is cheap cheaper.

He doesn’t know his username and password to access his bank account. He doesn’t even know his pin number for his debit card.

He keeps telling everyone that I’m the person to contact for financial stuff. I’ve told everyone he never gave me access to anything, but they still keep sending me all his bills.

I called up and yelled at him and told him that he was making it very difficult for anyone to help him and that I wasn’t going to jump through hoops just to make his life easier when he was doing nothing to help me do that.

Basically, everyone just expects me to find him the money for all his bills until he can figure out how to get access to his money.

Well, he’s gonna have a lot of late fees, cause I’m not fucking doing it.

I think exercise gets to a point where it’s not helpful for anybody, and I think I’m well beyond that point.

I genuinely can’t sit down until I feel like I’ve done enough, like if I’m not on a walk I’m at the gym, or walking on my treadmill while I study, or even walking around my room. I average around 35-40k steps most days with an absolute minimum of 20k and my legs constantly ache and I never have the energy to do anything, but the amount of guilt that I feel if I miss a day isn’t worth it. I’ve been walking around for 6 hours today, most of which was up hills, and the rest of the day was studying because my feet are generally torn to shreds and I’m in so much pain from my knees that I can barely walk and I’m sunburned, but I’m very stupid so obviously this is just gonna happen tomorrow because clearly I’m my worst enemy!

I’m terrified to eat enough to even fuel this ridiculous amount, I’m literally crying if I eat over 1.2k and then I wonder why I feel like absolute hell. My health and body feel like they’re absolutely ruined from years of restricting and then this getting worse over the past few months. I don’t even know where the obsession with steps and exercise came from because I never used to be so bad.

I’m just so tired of being like this, I waste so much time every day when I could be having so much fun and living my life. I keep cancelling plans because I’m scared or overeating or not moving enough and I have literally less than a year until I’m eighteen and I’m just wasting it!

I have two friends whose birthdays are on the same day(today) and they have planned to go on a large boat that one of their family owns. I was not invited. I get it, that potentially, maybe, they just want it to be a private celebration between the two of them because to my knowledge some other friends are also not invited. But still, I have been friends with them for like four years. Not only have I invited them to my birthday parties multiple times(despite this year one of them forgot to come), but we have just in general also hung out a lot. We go to the same high school and we eat lunch together every day.

I am also very interested in boats so it hurts even more.

Honestly, I am very disappointed. The party is currently taking place as of my writing. I didn't even want to ask them if I could come or why I was not invited, because the mere fact that they did not consider me when planning such an event makes me really sad. Maybe I should get better friends.

The man was physically and verbally abusive and controlling, I wasn't allowed to have friends, he sold my car years ago so only he could control where I went and when with his car and him driving, he controlled the money despite the last two years being me who worked 3 jobs and took out my 401ks and savings to pay our bills while he sat at home doing nothing and so much more I could go into, yet somehow my life with him seemed 10x better than it is right now. I had to move home which is embarrassing enough, I haven't been able to get a job despite multiple years in administration and project management because the remote work market is so saturated and I have no car or money to get a car because again no job, I'm barely getting interviews and the ones I have gotten didnt end in a job offer, I have very little network and no one in it had any job opportunities they knew of, I have -$1753 to my name, credit cards going into collections and I see no end to this awful struggle in sight. I should've stayed, maybe if I beg he'll take me back, at least I had steady income, a place to live that wasn't my parents and somewhat of an independent life, anything and I do mean anything seems better than this embarrassing endless struggle at my grown age where everyone I see my age and even younger are affording expensive things and supporting themselves

I (20m) have been talking to this girl (20f) that lives 2 hours away from me, travelling is no issue.

This girl is really kind, and she looks stunning. We hit it off and over the last few weeks she asked if i wanted to come and visit her, I got excited and asked her if she would like to go on a date, and she agreed! I was really happy over it and I might have freaked out a little since I haven’t been on a date in a long time.

We agreed to meet up at this café she likes for lunch, and I was really nervous In case I screwed it up, but everything went well. I walked her back to her place and she kissed me! then we said our goodbyes and a few hours later she messaged me asking if I would like to go on another date soon! I of course said yes, and I couldn’t be happier.

Hopefully this all works out.

ok weird vent here, when I use the word change I don’t mean fully in a bad way. I used to be very confirmative and bleh never really dressed how I wanted or acted how I did. but ever since I’ve got a girlfriend I just don’t give a shit what people think of me I dress how I want to and act how I please, when I say act how I want I mean in not being one of the nonchalant dudes all the time.

I’ve also noticed that I’ve became more extroverted too I don’t know how. I find at work (I work with kids) I can be way more fun and active and I don’t feel like people will view me differently for how I act while working. Plus having a girlfriend has giving me Somone to talk to about feeling depressed as she did have it. But she has gotten much better. I’ve also started my to pick up new hobbies like learning embroidery. and Just having a girlfriend makes me feel so much fuller. I feel like I have a reason to get wake up and not bed rot all day.

but I’m really happy that I found a girlfriend because I was going through it right before I found her. I was probably pretty depressed but I never got tested and yeah. she’s also part of the reason I made honour roll too soo yeah.

i don’t really know if this qualifies as a vent but I just really wanted to talk about how great my life has gotten and I hope you really enjoyed my great big vent:)

I’m sorry for suck a big ass vent Ive had so much and no one to talk to about it.

I can't be the only one???

My childhood years were marked by hours of my dad trying to teach me math, and I genuinely couldn't understand and he'd soon get angry and yell at me, "for not understanding basic things" make threatening gestures, throw things around and rip my notebook out, sometimes hit me.

It made me so anxious that every time I knew I had to study with him I'd get anxious and shut down, and the more angry he got the more scared id be, trying desperately to understand but ofc the panic only made me worse.

It made me avoid math whenever possible and I hated even mentioning the word. I also had bad teachers. Me and my friends (most of whom are also bad at math) often joke about being bad at maths but I wonder if any of them had similar experiences.

It was one of my biggest insecurities because I was really good at everything else, history, English, languages, etc. Math was my Achilles heel as they say. It doesn't help that both my parents are amazing at math and sciences, really intelligent and I felt like a failure. They mocked me relentlessly for it and they just see it as a joke they never thought it might make me sad.

And also, math is really boring and hard.