Hi, I've never made a reddit post before but im not sure what to do and im hoping for advice, or to magically figure this out once ive written everything down. I (20) am currently living with my younger sister, my mom and her, now, ex-boyfriend of 5 years. For context, my parents split up 6 years ago, and live in different cities. My dad's house is close to my work and I dont drive, but i stay there most days since it is close to my bus route. I have been switching between the 2 houses and cities for 6 months now.
I already dont like living with either of them. My father (47) is an alcoholic who cant keep his home clean. I dont think he owns any cleaning supplies other than a broom and he has lived in his place for 3 years now. There is always a smell and piles of garbage/dishes. Granted, he has gotten less verbally abusive since the split, but he is still always determined to be "right". His friends are also creeps who have said some weird things to me.
My mom (50) is emotionally immature in a way that has driven me insane my whole life. She talks almost exclusively in a baby/goofy voice and goes out drinking with her friends on weekend and comes home at 5 am almost blackout drunk. She is also unemployed, and hasn't had even a part-time job in 8 years. Both she and my sister think all my interests are stupid and dumb and that I care too much about things, which really impacts me negatively.
For example, im a huge swiftie. But I dont talk about her that much, because whenever I do, they talk about how horrible her music, personality and character are, and my mom actually banned her music in the house for years. They bring up my interests more than me to ridicule, but if I bring something up in earnest, they get angry and my sister does a performative dissociation.
Im getting off-topic, but i figured it was some added context, anyway
I dont know what to do, I dont want to continue living with my mom and sister, but I also want to stop living with my dad. I dont have any friends looking to move out, and im not comfortable sharing a home with a stranger. Im only working part time right now, 3 days a week, around 18 an hour, but have a good chance of full-time in September.
Im also a student, so between that and me being somewhat physically disabled (I have to use a cane to walk/stand for an extended amount of time) so i dont have the time or opportunities for a second job.
If I want to live alone near my work, it would cost around $1,400-$1,800 a month, which i cannot afford. But if I were to stay with my mom, she expects me to pay half of the rent for a 3-bedroom and 1 bath, which would cost around $2,400-$2,900 total.
I feel like i have no options, though realistically I have a bunch I guess. I have no one i want to talk to about this, so I figured I would come here 🫶