Figuring out which of my friends and acquaintances are also incels has been really exhilarating. surprising amount of diversity and I don’t mean race, talking politics, level of education, and wealth but also race (lol). It’s like playing Pokemon go but instead of finding Pokémon I find unlikely friends. They say comparison is the thief of joy but I’m also finding it to be a giver of reassurance. I want to make a Masonic club but it’s only fellow incels who’s with me!

im undergoing my internship at a firm and i just cant believe this will be how it is until we die. 8-5 shifts stretched out to damn near 12 hrs due to commute, 5 days a week, barely any time to do what you enjoy. is this how its going to be for the rest of our lives? if so this is so fucking bleak man.

before everyone spams "thats adult life, suck it up", that is my exact question. how does everyone just... exist like that?? i have nothing to look forward to, other than eagerly looking at my watch counting the hours till lunch break and 5pm, knowing that no matter how i rush, theres only a couple hours left for the day to play some games or watch a movie because i need to sleep early.

i know that when i graduate and get a career, the job will only get harder, and there will be more commitments as an adult. in other words, just when i thought things are bad, it WILL get a whole lot worse.

oh and i havent even got to the incel part. i feel so lonely. so fucking lonely. 23 years of my life and ive never had a romantic relationship. i have never felt the warmth and adoration of another human being before. im prolly idealizing too much, but every second of my existence i wish there is someone that genuinely desires and yearns for me. it feels like the only thing that might just keep me going and get me to wake up everyday. but due to being an introvert, idk how any of this works. idk how life works.

i cant stop thinking about how dreadful everything is. how do i keep going? soup noodles

I've always struggled with socializing and never found my group of people like everyone else did in highschool. Now I'm doing online school so I'm even more isolated but I atleast I can play video games all day...

I am so lonely. I have never been in a relationship once in my life. I have no friends. I get jealous of the people on here that have friends because even if they don’t have a romantic relationship, they at least have social interaction. I’m fat and ugly and the only times I speak to people are the customers at work. My brother has tons of friends and has been in multiple relationships, but no matter how much I want to resent him for it, he’s so kind to me. He tells me that I’ll find someone and that I’m so sweet and funny and that I shouldn’t throw in the towel yet. I hate that I want to hate him because it shows how ungrateful I am to have someone so wonderful in my life. Maybe that means I deserve to be alone.

Underestimated how big those salmon filets would be but fuck it we ball.

Hit 5 years sober today. Was gonna try to make the day feel kind of nice but the girl I’ve been talking to cancelled on me again and work has been eating me alive for months, so this ended up being my little celebration. Steak, apples, honey, cinnamon, and me sitting in the backyard trying not to feel insane.

I mean I thought I was pretty good to be fair

im a fat fucking chud

Also, it’s funny to hear people say the Jews feed them “goyslop” when this is prime Jewish cuisine in front of you

I do not need anyone to call a suicide hotline, I really am not planning to kms, like, ever. I was just hyperbolizing my depression. I am regularly going to therapy and I am looking for a clinical psychiatrist to get antidepressants or any other meds that may help me after I get professionally diagnosed

I made this food myself, it is my 5:40pm lunch (I often eat only 2 meals a day)

Nothing ever goes well. Each day I wake up, the forces of fate will work together to bring me down. I'm just too tired now. No amount of sleep. No. I think yesterday I skipped two of my classes to sleep for 13 hours. I miss my mom. I miss her even though she's still here. Someday I'll have to learn the things she still does for me. Like how to properly do my laundry, or to cook something good. She cooked this btw. It's spaghetti fusili with too much minced meat but it's really good.

on this and i swear im one of the most confusing dumbasses alive i genuinely dont even know what the fuck im doing with my life my sleep schedule is absolute dogshit my brain is running on caffeine random motivation spikes and pure bullshit yet somehow im supposed to function like a normal human being everyone looks at my gpa and acts like im some genius or whatever but my dumbass brain refuses to accept it my mom is literally a teacher at the same school i go to and sometimes my brain starts thinking what if people just gave me better grades because they dont wanna have some awkward ass situation with my mom being their coworker like bro imagine being so insecure that even your own achievements get dragged into court by your own brain fucking stupid and relationships dont even ask ive never even had a crush in my entire life a girl can text me and instead of acting like a normal person my brain just fucking dies and i start saying random dumbass shit my social skills are basically a broken game mechanic nobody bothered fixing and honestly my confidence is also fucking cooked i think im ugly as hell and im short as fuck which definitely doesnt help when my brain already spends 24/7 overthinking everything sometimes i look at myself and think damn this build is actually terrible short height bad sleep weird hobbies no relationship experience and somehow my dumbass still expects myself to act confident im also weird as fuck my reading history is a complete disaster i read bl yuri insane web novels with thousands of chapters masterpieces and the most dogshit slop humanity has ever created my brain looked at normal entertainment and said nah give me emotional damage and questionable decisions at this point im convinced im a masochist i willingly watch stories that destroy me play games that make me suffer for some stupid 0.01% chance complain like my life is ending then come back and do the exact same shit again apparently my brain has the memory of a goldfish with a gambling addiction the funniest bullshit is i have good grades but still feel stupid as hell i can cram months of material in 30 minutes like some kind of idiot genius then forget half of it when i actually need to prove i know it like what the fuck is this build high int terrible storage system i procrastinate overthink everything sleep like shit act dumb and somehow keep stumbling forward i dont even know if im actually talented or just some lucky dumbass who accidentally got good results and is now desperately trying not to fuck everything up anyway thats my stupid little tragedy im basically a caffeine powered sleep deprived nerd with questionable hobbies zero relationship experience and a brain that constantly tells me im a fraud somehow i made it this far which is honestly the most confusing bullshit ever