Anong meron at puro flex ka ng fake luxury items mo? From head to toe talaga? Dior, prada, golden goose? Tapos fake naman? Ok naman sana eh kasi baka feeling ka lang talaga at pera mo naman yan at prinsipyo mo naman yan? Pero ano na te? Sasabihan mo yung bago ng ex mo na cheap at pangit at di mo kalevel kasi simple lang siya manamit? Sinabihan mo pang losyang kasi galing work ng hospital? Sinabihan mo pang cheap kaming magkakaibigan porke't galing kami sa 'no name' na family pero hello at least kami lahat professional at may trabaho? Ikaw kasi sipsip ka sa mga pamilya ng political dynasty kaya nagfifeeling ka na eh sino ba yang pamilya mo din! Government worker pero puro luxury items ang flex tapos di naman mayaman ang pamilya? Te? Halatang fake naman yang mga suot mo. Te nakita namin binili mo yang golden goose mo ng 3k sa online looool!!!!!

Akala mo di namin malalaman lahat ng panlalait mo eh mga backstabber din yung iba mong kaibigan!!

I have broken up with a long term relationship because I was just getting the BARE BARE minimum in the relationship and couldn’t stand it for long — to say the least I felt neglected at that point and was just eating crumbs when they give me attention. Now, we have mutual friends, who of course sided with me after everything in the relationship, but they still see the ex as a “good” friend to say the least and would still contact them.

I’m still triggered to the fact that the ex is still seen as a good friend despite everything I have truly seen them during the duration of the relationship as such and I love my friends but at the same time I don’t know how to feel about them at this point when they talk to them and everything.

Just want to get this out of my chest.

Di mo naman to makikita, pero if you do, alam mo na

I saw this girl on a fashion subreddit and messaged her just to compliment her outfit. To my surprise, she replied, and we ended up becoming friends. Let's call her C1. Long story short, we really clicked, but she eventually ghosted me because I fell asleep on her twice. I regret that to this day, haha.

A few days later, I met another girl from an r4r friends post. Let's call her C2.

The weird part is:

C1 and C2 were EERILY similar. Same second name, same province, both taking a gap year, same sense of humor, same "looks innocent but isn't" energy, and even THE EXACT SAME Reddit bio. Even their Telegram usernames, though dissimilar, had some eerie coincidences. At some point I became convinced that they were the same person.

I don't think you can blame me.

C2 and I got along just as well as C1 and I did. We flirted a lot, talked late into the night, and she shared photos of herself with me. She even joked about whether I found her attractive (I did.)

Eventually, though, something changed.

She became colder. Replies got shorter, conversations became less frequent, and she admitted she had mostly been talking to me because she was bored. Then one day, without warning, she blocked me on Telegram. I never got any of her other socials.

The funny thing is, I never got to tell her how much I genuinely liked her. I kept teasing instead of being honest. I thought there'd always be another conversation, another chance to say what I actually meant, safe to say there wasn't.

C1, I hope you find it in you to give me a second chance at what we almost had.

C2, I hope I get answers as to why you're so similar to C1, down to the ghosting.

But then maybe, you are the same person after all.

This is one of those stories that will haunt me for life, I keep thinking what if I just never slept that day.

I mourn what we could have had. But curse you for doing this to me.

Baka nga catfish ka lang eh haha, pero di ko maconfirm :[

My ex and I were really good friends before we started dating. We ended on good terms because of long distance, and recently we talked about trying to stay friends.

The thing is… I genuinely want to try because I still care about him as a person, and I don’t want to lose someone who meant a lot to me. But at the same time, sobrang anxious ko. 🥹

I can’t tell if I’m not ready yet or if I’m just scared because everything will be different. Part of me thinks we can make it work, tapos the next minute iniisip ko baka masaktan lang ulit kami pareho.

HAAAY BUHAY

Hiii. Gusto ko lang ilabas to hahaha. Siguro maliit na bagay lang sa iba pero ewan ko bat nasaktan ako hahaha.

Ganito kasi yun, chubby ako. Night shift and ang oras ng kain ko lagi is 4am at 7pm lang. So expected na after 4am (which is oras ng lunch sa work) automatic water na lang ang iniinom ko or 1-2 pcs of boiled egg depende pa. Then nag iindoor walking din ako 3x a week. Sat/sun ang cheat day.

Then kanina lang lumipat akong kwarto kasi may dumating kami bisita at nasa office room sila so medyo maingay. Hindi ako nakakain ng 4am kasi late na ako nakapag dinner kagabi. Then yung panganay na ate ko kumatok at pumasok sa kwarto ko asking if magpapasabay raw ako bumili ng food. I think 6am na to so medyo alangan ako pero nag oo ako. I ordered footlong and b1t1 burger. Sabi ko hindi ko naman yun kakainin lahat ng isang upuan lang. yung iba pang mamayang gabi edi nag okay yung panganay namin.

Maya-maya biglang napasugod yung 2nd ate ko na buntis para siyang galit na galit at kung ano ano sinasabi sa akin na kesyo hndi raw ako magpapayat, ang laki-laki ko na, etc.. na-hurt ako don kasi hndi naman nila nakikita yung effort ko na magpapayat at yung amount of food na kinakain ko every 4am at 7pm. Now lang ako sumali at umorder ng fast food tapos gabon pa haha. Andaming nakakapansin na pumapayat ako pero si ate taliwas palagi nasa isip niya.

Naiintindihan ko naman pinupunto niya ang kaso hindi siya naniniwala sa ginagawa ko. Ayun kasi ang mahirap e. Kahit siya noon na hindi pa buntis hirap na hirap siya magpapayat, nag gym pa sila pero walang nangyari. After ni ate pagalitan ako sa kwarto triny ko mag explain na hindi ko yun kakainin lahat pero mas lalo siya nagalit at hindi na aki sumagot kasi baka mamaya ma HB siya e may baby pa sa tummy nya so hinayaan ko na.

Since may bisita kami (mga fren nya) syempre nagtanong, pwede namang hindi na ikwento ni ate yung nangyari e pero narinig ko pinaguusapan nila yon na para bang may ginawa akong napakasama hahaha.

Tapos ngayon lang chinat pa ni ate buntis yung 3rd ate ko na kesyo pagsabihan daw ako sa kinakain ko hahahha e yung 3rd na ate ko nga nakikita kung paano ako mag control sa food pag magkakasama kami e. Inexplain biya rin yun sa buntis kong ate pero hindi naniwala.

Kaya ang reply ko na lang sa ate ko ganito,

“Hindi naman nila nakikita yung pag fafasting ko e. Hindi naman madaling magpapayat. Kanina na nga lang aki kumain after shift e kasi usually 4am at 7pm ang oras ng kain ko kaya nagulat ako ganon reaction nya tapos parang naHB pa ata dahil sa inorder kong food.

Naguilty aki kasi baka mamaya makasama pa sa kanila ni baby yun. Malay ko ba na apketadong apektado sya don e hndi ko naman kinain yun lahat ng isang bagsakan lang.”

Hiningi rin ni kuya yung 1 burger at 1 footlong na alam king hindi alam ni ate kasi ang nasa isip niya uubusin ko yun lahat. Kung hindi ako natutong magdiet or magbawas, baka oo. Pero hindi e. Iba na ngayon at hindi naman madali ang lahat lalo kung baby fats ang pag-uusapan at ang balakang.

Naiinis siya kasi malaki ang balakang ko at shoulder? Ano gagawin ko e kahit nung payat ako malaki na yan. Ipatapyas ko ba para mabawasan?

Yun lang naman. Nasaktan lang ako pero naiintindihan ko naman side ni ate.

Thank you,
Q.

Sobrang struggle talaga, but more than sa interactions.. ang nakakadrain na situation is not all are nice and honest, which only exists on a perfect world anyway.

Sana minsan maisip ng mga customer na wag maging tuso sa mga taong nagwu-work sa customer service. We forget some stuff here and there, we make some lapses..we try to work with minimal errors and accordingly sa policies pero mayron talagang mga customer na tuso, susubukang i-twist yung narrative para maging pabor sakanila etiher makakuha sila ng freebies, discount, etc.. at the expense na they have to blame an employee that is doing their best to do the job properly.

In the end, yung employee yung sasalo ng consequences either they get a warning, or for some, they are reprimanded.. some even lose their job.

Sometimes, when an honest mistake happens, pag mayrong tuso na customer they take advantage of it and twist the situation. These people are purely evil.

Yung mga taong tuso sa customer-service employees, I hope your karma will be served. May bayad lahat ng pang-iisa niyo sa kapwa ninyo just to gain a little bit of something. Imagine trying to bring someone down who is doing their best to perform, and save for their family and future. Heartless people.

I have bipolar and BPD. I’m not blaming my sickness pero it’s a major part of why I am the way I am

May friends ako na I treasure a lot, but later on the friendship broke. Usually kasalanan ko. May episodes na I have a hard time controlling my thoughts and feelings, to the point na I say or do things na I never wanted to.

Hanggang ngayon I regret what I did to them. It’s a smart choice na they left me because I’m unstable and hard to be friends with

Just last week, I had an episode ulit where I did a mean thing to a friend. Now, medyo uncomfy siya to be around me.

I know I have to focus on working on myself. I hope someday I could get better, even if it means going through the hardships of battling my thoughts everyday.

But a thought always bears in my mind na sana kaya kong maayos yung mga friendships na nasira ko. sana I could have a chance to be friends with them ulit and be a better friend. Pero that’s life. We choose who we be friends with and if they choose not to be friends with me, then it’s something na hindi ko ipipilit.

edit: I don’t know how to determine if they still want to be friends kasi ayokong namimilit ng tao :(( so only thing i know how to do is to express sorry/regretful I am and to give space unless spoken to :((

30F here. Lumipat ako abroad when I was 22. My parents are still in the Philippines.

When I first moved, sobrang exciting. It wasn’t even really my idea, my parents were supportive and willing to pay for everything, so I just went with it. Wala naman akong issue kasi sanay naman akong maging independent.

Fast forward 8 years, and honestly… parang ang layo na namin. We still talk, pero hindi na siya katulad dati. I know people grow up and change, pero minsan feeling ko hindi lang “nagbago.” Feeling ko hindi na ako parte ng pamilya namin.

Naalala ko yung first time na umuwi ako after living abroad. Tiningnan ko mom ko and ang weird nung feeling. Ang hirap i-explain pero parang she was looking at me like I was someone she knew, not really her daughter. Simula nun, every time umuuwi ako, may feeling na outsider lang ako. Parang bumibisita lang ako sa pamilya ng iba.
May isang moment na hanggang ngayon hindi ko makalimutan.

Nasa airport kami, naghihintay ng luggage. Nag-uusap kami about immigration. I mentioned na hindi ko na-experience yung isang bagay. Tapos ang sagot niya agad was something like, “Kami rin naman.”

Wala naman talagang masama sa sinabi niya. Pero yung tone… I don’t know. It felt like she was trying to prove something. Like she wanted to remind me na porke nakatira ako abroad, hindi ako mas angat sa kanila.

Ang nasa isip ko talaga that time was… “Bakit parang hindi na kita nanay?”

Ang sakit nun isipin.

Simula nung nangyari ’yon sa airport, parang mas lalo kong napansin yung ganung feeling.

Tuwing nagkukuwento yung mom ko tungkol sa mga travels nila, lagi kong nararamdaman na parang may competition. Hindi ko alam kung ako lang ba ’to, pero minsan ang dating sa akin parang gusto niyang patunayan na porke nasa abroad ako, hindi ibig sabihin mas maganda na buhay ko.

Lagi niyang ikukuwento, “Nakapunta kami dito.” “Nagpunta kami sa ganito.” Hindi naman masama mag-share, pero dahil sa paraan ng pagkakasabi niya, ang dating sa akin parang, “Kami rin. Kaya rin namin. Hindi ka naman lamang dahil nasa abroad ka.”

Hindi ko alam kung intention ba talaga niya ’yon.

Minsan feeling ko rin kapag may problema ako, parang iniisip nila, “Yan kasi.” Or parang consequence siya dahil hindi ako naging enough as a daughter.

Tapos kapag naman okay ako or may magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko, minsan feeling ko hindi sila genuinely happy. Parang laging may kapalit. May kailangan. May hihingin. Or somehow the conversation ends up being about what I can give.

Ewan. Baka mali lang interpretation ko. Baka dala lang ng distance. Baka nag-o-overthink lang ako.

I’m 30 now. I live alone. Wala rin akong partner, so minsan ang lungkot din talaga. I try to tell myself na okay lang, at least independent ako. Pero minsan… gusto ko lang maramdaman na may pamilya pa rin akong inuuwian.

May naka-experience ba ng ganito? Yung hindi naman kayo nag-away, pero somewhere along the way, parang naging stranger na lang kayo sa sarili ninyong pamilya?

Nagwowork out ako, lifting, cardio, etc. Hindi ko naman aim na sobrang tutok sa muscle building or anything. I eat pretty balanced, aside from the sugar part kasi mahilig sa sweets. In fact, I don't even count my calories. I don't care about my macros. I eat whatever I want in moderation.

D ko naman tinatago na nagwoworkout ako, medj nagiging halata na rin since I started gaining a bit of muscle and losing weight.

Every now and then may magsasabi sakin na bat ako kumakain ng kanin or matatamis kung nagwoworkout/exercise ako, na parang andami kong carbs na kinakain etc.

Pake niyo ba, hindi niyo naman katawan. If anything mas active ako sa majority ng mga circles na ginagalawan ko esp since I'm in an industry where mostly nakatutok sa PC at nakaupo all day pero sila pa may gana i-police ung mga kinakain ko.

Suck it up Ben, umiinom ako ng milktea with pearls NA MAY CREAMCHEESE PA at mas malaki parin bicep ko sayo.

She was the glue in our circle of friends, the reason why we were all stuck together for 4 years in college.

In our circle of friends, I only have 2 closest friends. She was one of them. The reason why the three of us got closer than the rest? It was because everyone had significant other when we were in college. While the three of us was single the whole time.

We called ourselves "Virgins and *her name* just to tease her because she wanted to get laid so bad, but never had the chance to. Even until the day she passed.

I used to be a shy kid, while she was very approachable and everyone knows her. She made me feel seen and heard in a group full of noise.

We were complete opposite in the aspect of being introvert and extrovert, but we were close because of our love for books. I even taught her how to download anybooks app when it was no longer free. We'd recommend books to each other despite not having the same taste in genre. She loved young adult novel books, while I love dystopian books. I'd sometimes read YA books to be able to talk to her though. Because she used to lit up when talking about her fave books.

She ignited my passion for writing. Aside from my first ex who became my muse after a long time of writing slump, she made me write poems or simple letters one at a time. At my own pace, and even only small paragraphs.

We reviewed for the board exam together. Her tita paid for her studies, and sent money but it wasn't enough each time. That's why when she lost hope in paying for another TOR that has "for board exam purposes only", I took the opportunity to chip in, and as a shy person, I asked 2 other friends to do the same so we can all pass together. We did--we all did.

She was there for me when i had anxiety about getting interviews when we tried to apply for work. She encouraged me, and set herself as an example that we can both work without pursuing our degree.

She even offered to accompany me to have myself checked when I had my s word tendencies. She never judged me, and she never made me feel so little despite not achieving anything yet at the time.

She was there for me when I had hesitations about my past relationships. Even got worried when I stopped talking about my exes. Didn't force me to talk about them, but she still showed that she cared and that's what matters to me.

We both ranted to each other about life, family situations, work, or just random kwentuhan.

I remember I used to treat her to lunch in college because she was always tight on budget that time. When we all met each other after years of not seeing each other, she didn't hesitate to treat me. I feel like I owe her one though, because I accidentally damaged her bag while I was pulling her--the strap was torn into two.

Just the other night, I dreamed about her. In my dream, I knew she already passed. But I still cannot believe it, so I asked her if she was only pranking me. I cannot remember the other details, but I really thought she was still alive because of that dream. The dream was only short, but I'm grateful of it because it made me feel her presence once more.

I miss her. I miss my friend so much. Sometimes I find myself sending a message to her, just to talk about my day or rant about how hard work is. But I also find myself erasing the message because she's not here anymore.

I still have friends, but we call ourselves low maintenance friends. Most especially because most of them are now in the US, while I'm stuck here in the Philippines. So being able to talk to her once in a while was really therapeutic in all ways.

How can I find someone who I can talk about life? How can I find someone who will be there for me and will not criticize me when I'm at my lowest? Who will encourage me to write? Who will recommend more books to me now?

This is not enough for all the things I wanna say and express to her. But I feel sleepy now. I've been scolded at work, and I want to share how it went to her. But I can't do that anymore. I miss her so much. I wish she will be with me in my dreams again.

Medyo nakakagigil lang kapatid ko. Mag-iisang taon na 'yung bunso niya tapos malalaman namin na buntis na naman siya. Baon na sila sa utang ng asawa niya. We're talking millions. Dapat sana unahin muna nilang gawan ng paraan utang nila bago sila gumawa na naman ng bata 'di ba?

Tapos ngayon sensitive daw pagbubuntis niya, edi malaking gastos na naman 'yan hanggang sa manganak siya. Nakakainis silang mag-asawa. Hindi kami kasama sa paggawa niyan, pero ngayon dinadamay kami sa stress nila financially. Igu-guilt trip ka pa kapag ayaw mo silang pautangin. Sobrang hirap naman ngarod singilin. Hindi ka pa ise-seen minsan.

Mga hindi nag-iisip. Nakakainis.

So kanina nagpagupit ako. Gusto ko lang naman magpagupit pero sinasabi ni ate hairdresser na ang dry ng hair ko kailangan ko raw magpatreatment. Teh tsaka mo sabihin sakin yan kung di mas dry yang buhok mo kesa sa akin. Nakakainis kasi kung anu-ano inooffer eh haircut lang gusto ko. Alam ko na may quota kayo but please naman wag niyo ipilit sakin yan jusko grabe din haircare ko no lol mas mahal pa sa treatment nyo kaya lang dry hair ko nang dahil ilang months na ko di nagpagupit at may kulay buhok ko, kaya ko nga pinapatrim para mamaintain ko yung health nung buhok ko!

Tapos eto na, nung tapos na yung gupit ko, sabi ba naman “ang ganda ni ma’am no kaso papayat ka pa ma’am para mas gumanda ka pa” eh tngina teh maganda ako kahit mataba ako at ANO BANG PAKE NYO KUNG MATABA AKO JUSKO?! Nakakabwisit lang kasi. Kung iniisip niyo na compliment yon, PWES HINDI SIYA COMPLIMENT bwiset! Sana itikom nyo nalang bibig nyo kung wala kayong magandang sasabihin. Nakakawala ng confidence hayup. Ngayon naiiyak ako kasi nakatanim siya sa isip ko haha idk if mababaw pero nakakainis lang talaga. Grabeng standard to kailangan mapayat ka para “mas maganda” ka 🥲

Hindi ako pala-dasal pero napa-"thank you, Lord" talaga ako kaninang umaga.

May pinapakain akong stray cat sa tapat ng apartment. Two weeks ago, ilan days na rin siya nanghihingi sa akin ng food pero wala ako maibigay dahil ubos na stock ko na food niya. So, last week, bumili na ako ng food niya, and para akong mommy na excited umuwi dahil may pasalubong sa anak.

Kinabukasan, di ko siya nakita buong araw. Hanggang sa halos 1 week ko na rin siya di nakikita. Akala ko di ko lang siya naaabutan talaga pero sabi ng landlady namin ay hindi rin niya nakikita.

Yesterday, habang naglalakad pa-uwi, bigla kong nasabi ko sa isip ko, "Lord, sana okay lang siya. Sana may nag-adopt lang or something."

Lumabas ako nang maaga kanina para mag-jogging AT ANDON SIYA SA USUAL SPOT NIYA HUHU im so happy. Kinabahan pa ako kasi pag-uwi ko wala ulit siya pero at least alam kong ok siya. Paglabas ko ulit 30 minutes later, buti andon siya ulit kaya napakain ko siya.

Nonchalant ako sa labas pero deadma sa nakarinig na kinakausap ko yung bebe (using my malambing voice) para itanong kung saan siya galing at bakit ngayon lang siya umuwi 😭

Hi cashier ako sa supermarket, nakatanggap ako ng expired na sodexo worth 2k diko rin kasi napansin ang date. So ayun matatanggal ako sa work kasi policy din ng company na pag naka 1k na short within a month automatic babaan ka ng memo for termination. Nakakalungkot lang isipin.

My ex boyfriend passed away last Saturday. I had to hear it from a friend. They said he died of sepsis. 

Ang dami kong tanong. How did he die of sepsis? Was he sick? If so, how long has he been sick? Did he suffer? A person doesn’t just die of sepsis. Especially not a healthy thirty-year-old man.

Hindi ko na tinanong. I no longer had a right to those answers. I sent his mom my condolences and I cried, or at least I tried to cry. 

He was only thirty. He died so, so young.

I met him when I was sixteen and before he was anything else, he was just my chemistry lab partner. We were so young then. We didn’t know the first thing about love. But somewhere between the long nights spent with our other friends in their apartment in Maginhawa, having my appendix removed, and meeting him by AS every end of the day, love grew. 

At a time when everyone our age was still figuring out who they were and where they belonged, we somehow found our answer in each other. There was comfort in believing that no matter what the future held, we would always have a home in one another.

Looking at it now that I’m almost thirty, I realized what a privilege it was to have found such profound a love so young. A love that was not burdened by the countless responsibilities adulthood eventually lays at our feet. We knew, in the abstract, that heartbreak and death existed, and that one day they would come for all of us. But they felt impossibly far away.

We were so young, and so in love. And when you’re seventeen, love is enough to believe that nothing terrible can ever reach you.

God, if my younger self knew that I’d heard of his death from a friend, that I don’t even know the specifics of how he passed, that I had let myself be reduced to just one of the people that once knew him, I know she’d be livid. 

We were together for nine years. I ended the relationship two years ago. My mom almost died and I had this big epiphany about death, and how unpredictable life is. So I decided to apply to PhD programs abroad. He was already a practicing doctor then and it just wasn’t realistic for him to uproot his life to be with me abroad. And so we broke up. It wasn’t amicable and towards the end, I was just so unkind and unforgiving. I was selfish.  Ewan ko ba. I didn’t understand why we couldn’t make it work. 

And so I left. Huli ko siyang nakita noong umattend ako sa binyag ng anak ng kaibigan namin bago ako lumipad. 

For the past two years, sumasagi sa isip ko na kumustahin siya. I wanted to apologize. I wanted to tell him so many things. But I was too ashamed to even say hi. I didn’t even ask my friends how he was doing because my pride couldn’t handle the embarrassment of being hung up over him when I was the one that walked away. I figured that maybe one day, we’d see each other again, and I’d apologize, and then we could go back to the way things were.

It was so stupid. I was so stupid. I wish I had done so many things differently.

I will be spending the next fifty or so years mulling over everything, going over things that I should have said and done, and it will be painful. But it’s okay, because I will live long. I will grow old and wrinkly, and my hair will turn white, and I will keep his memory alive. I think I owe him, and my seventeen-year-old self, at least that.

Goodbye. You will always remind me of brighter and warmer days, of the sun setting in QC, sleeping on your shoulder during the long, tiresome commute to your home in Novaliches, and your favorite song, Christopher Cross’ Sailing. 

Gusto ko lang magshare kasi ang bigat. Ang hirap maging pangit kasi parang ang unfair ng paligid mo. Kahit anong ayos ko, hindi okay. Nag-aayos naman ako lagi, namimili ako ng maayos na damit pero madalas parin ako nasasabihan na "ganda mo kapag natuto ka mag-ayos". Tapos kapag magpipicture ako kasama ng iba iniisip nila lagi na di ko inaayos kaya nga kahit palapost sila ng pictures di nila ipopost yung pic na kasama ko. Naranasan ko rin na sa family or relatives, mas kinakausap nila yung may itsura talaga. Naranasan ko na umuwi kami ng isang family member sa province, sobrang dami na binati yung katabi ko then pinuri, sobrang awkward nun na talagang naglakad nalang ako dire diretso and ayoko tumingin sa kanila. Naranasan ko rin na dati na nagjoke yung professor namin dati na kapag daw pangit dapat hindi nalelate tapos sabay sabi "kaya tignan niyo si \*name ko\* di nalelate". Tapos pag pumupunta ko sa mga places na mamahalin, di rin ako masyado aasikasuhin tapos iba rin yung tinginan na andaming customers pero sakin nakatingin na parang winewait akong matapos, kaya imbis na magpahinga muna ko pagkakain, nagbabayad na agad ako and umaalis kasi super awkward. Nashare ko lang kasi andami nangyari today na pinaisip ulit sakin na di okay yung itsura ko.

Pa-release lang, sana wag itong ipost sa ibang sites...

7:05 am, time in. Nalate ako ng 5 minutes.

Pagka dating sa dept, medyo tahimik. Yung dalawa pala sa min sa kabilang branch na-assign uli ngayon. Hindi pa na setup yung background music sa dept.

Boot up ng pc, nagpahangin muna sa aircon tapos upo din para mag-work na. Naglagay ng sounds para di boring. Busy-busyhan muna ang peg.

Maya-maya may dumating na operator, hinahanap yung isa sa min. "Ay wala dito, nandun sa kabilang room", automatic na sagot ko.

Mga 5-10 minutes after, dumating naman yung scheduler sa dept namin. Hinanap na naman yung same person. Sabi ko uli nasa kabila. Nagtaka si scheduler at tinanong naman yung senior namin.

"Sir, napansin mo ba siyang dumating after ng tanong ko sa'yo kanina?".

Sabi naman ni sir, "Hindi ko rin napansin ehh, pero parang hindi ko pa siya nakikita".

Nagtaka kaming lahat sa dept.

Kilala kasi namin siya na masipag at hindi nale-late, di tulad ko na malapit lang naman yung bahay ko sa kanya. Pati yung bisor namin napa isip. "Nag-iinform naman siya kung mag-aabsent, bakit kaya?", aniya. Parang may mali sa araw na to.

Around 7:45 am, nag-ring ang phone sa table ng bisor namin. Nakinig ako. Usap nang sandali at biglang napasinghap si bisor. Kinabahan ako at tinigil ang sounds. Naging aware kaming lahat sa dept. After ng call, nilapitan kami ni bisor at maluhang sinabi, "patay na si _____, nasa hr ngayon yung parents niya. Inatake daw sa puso. Tinry pa i-revive pero doa na sa hospital". Pumunta si mam sa hr para kausapin ang mga magulang.

Nagulantang kaming lahat, di kami makapaniwala. Kahapon lang kakwentuhan namin siya, kakulitan namin, kasama pa namin. Nagtanong pa siya sa kin kung pano asikasuhin yung pag-ibig loyalty card. Nag-isip pa siya kung kelan kaya niya maasikaso kasi 10 days na lang at makumpleto na niya yung perfect attendance. Next month, birthday na niya.

Ang bigat. Lalo na't nakasama na namin siya ng halos 3 years sa dept namin. Pito na nga lang kami nabawasan pa ng isa. Kahit na sobrang pressured at ang daming workload na napasa sa dept namin since last year, nagka-isa kami at nakayanan namin. Buo pa rin kami. Pero ngayong araw na 'to, ang kilalang dept sa company na super chill at masayahin ay nanahimik at nalungkot.

Hindi kami makapag trabaho ng maayos kanina.

Lalo na nung pumunta sa dept namin yung family niya at kinuha na yung mga naiwang gamit, pinigilan naming umiyak. Buong araw, halos tulala at inalala namin siya.

Naiiyak pa rin ako ngayon.

Siya kasi partner ko sa sched namin sa dept. Kasama sa pang gabi. Kakuntsaba kung mag breaktime kami ng maaga or kung manonod ng movies sa dept pantanggal antok. Lagi ko din siya kasabay pauwi. Nagku-kwentuhan habang naglalakad. Yun na pala ang last kahapon.

Bro, sa sandaling panahon na nakasama ka namin, nakilala ka namin na mabait na tao. Walang bisyo, masipag, maaasahan, hindi mareklamo sa trabaho at masayang kasama. Di ka namin malilimutan at salamat sa oras na binigay mo sa min kahit na katrabaho lang kami. Pahinga ka na and God bless!

Labas ko lang to kasi ang bigat-bigat na.

Panganay ako, 2 months after kong magsimula sa work, tumigil na sa pagpapadala si Papa (OFW) May maliit na tindahan si mama, mag ti-3 years na kong nagwowork. Wala akong savings. 1 washing machine sa bahay pa lang napupundar ko (salamat 13th month)

Pinahiram ako ng Tita ko ng 50k para makapag review for board exam. Nagamit ko na yung 10k pangbayad ng review center, kaso hindi ako makapagresign sa work ko to focus sa review kasi ako lang inaasahan ng family. Ang dami kong cinoconsider.

What if maubos yung 40k then wala akong mahanap agad na trabaho? Saan kami kukuha ng pambili ng bigas? Pambayad ng kuryente? Pangbaon ng mga kapatid ko? Kasama pa namin sa bahay yung bedridden kong lola (Papa's mother) and yung kapatid niya (Tito ko)

Naoperahan kapatid ko, nagkasakit ako, naospital lola ko. Lahat yan wala manlang paramdam tatay ko.

Nahihiya na rin ako sa Tita ko kasi inaasahan niya makakapagtake ako ng board exam ngayong October, which is malabo kasi hindi ako nakakapagreview consistently. I have health problem and pinakabawal is magpuyat.

Ang bigat, feeling ko walang direction buhay ko. Habang tumatagal, lumalamang na yung sama ng loob ko kay Papa. Hindi sila hiwalay, sadyang hindi lang siya nagpapadala dahil sabi niya wala na siyang work. Anak lang din naman ako. Bakit ganito kabigat?

He suddenly gave me flowers and chocolates, advance na daw kasi uuwi akong province ng 5th anniv namin. Huli na pala yun kasi di na kami aabot ng anniversary.

It’s funny how life works no. Ang saya lang namin nung nakaraan, miss ang isa’t isa kasi nagtravel ako tapos ngayon, wala na kami. Masakit pero this time, tanggap ko yung break up namin. I’m at peace with letting him go. Maybe, this decision is really for the better. Hindi man eto yung ending na ginugusto ko, pero I’ll trust God’s plan. Naniniwala ako na kung meron para sakin, bat di pa ngayon Lord? Char lang. Magheal muna ako and enjoy life. Pwede naman ako mag isa, pwede rin may kasama. Kahit ano, basta masaya ako ☺️

To my ex. Thank you for the almost 5 years of beautiful and painful memories with you. I wish you nothing but success and happiness in life. Sorry for my lapses and I’ve forgiven you with all my heart. Just live your best life, not for anyone but for you. I hope you’ll find the love you deserve. 🍃

Hello, gusto ko lang ilabas ito dahil wala naman ako mapag sabihan lalo na’t hindi naman ako sigurado. Baka nag ooverthink lang ganon.

Mayroon akong ka work na ka close, 4 kami na mag kakaibigan pero itong isang ka work kong ito mas naging ka close ko dahil ako ang naging tagapakinig nya pag may problema sya sa kausap nya.

Nag simula ito nung umamin ako sakanya na may happy crush ako sa isang ka work namin. After that day, napansin ko palagi nya na yon kinakausap which is di naman nya ginagawa before. Lagi na tinatabihan sa office and lagi na bukang bibig. But I didn’t think anything of it kasi happy crush lang talaga. Pero after my confession to her kasi, pag may chance talaga na pahiyain ako lalo na sa harap nung guy, ginagawa nya. Wrong pronunciation, wrong term and even pag may new look ako nilalait nya. Kamuka ko daw si ganto and ganyan.

Medyo nahuhurt na kasi ako sa pang lalait and its starting to affect my confidence. And randam ko na may diin mga pamamahiya nya at pag tatawa saken.

Am I overthinking things? Baka naman masyado na kasi syang comfortable saken kaya umabot na sa ganon?

This year, I started taking care of myself consistently, and grabe, ang gastos pala.

It started with the basics—better food choices, skincare, sunscreen, workout clothes, and the gym intake products. Then you realize there are so many little things that add up over time.

Growing up, I thought taking care of yourself was just about eating healthy and exercising. Pero ngayon, I realized that investing in your health, appearance, and overall well-being can get pretty expensive.

That said, I don’t regret it at all. One of the best feelings is hearing compliments from friends who tell me they barely recognize me anymore because of the weight I’ve lost. Some even joke that I’m aging backwards and somehow looking younger every year. Honestly, hearing those comments makes all the effort feel worth it.

I’m happier, healthier, and more confident than I was before. Nakakashock lang talaga na maintaining a healthier lifestyle comes with such a big price tag.

ang hirap maging mahirap. sana binigyan lang ako ng pagsubok na kaya ko lang harapin. sana yung hirap lang na kaya kong kayanin, sana yung level lang na hirap lang na kaya kong lagpasan. wala lang, nakakapagod lang kasi.

Birthday is nearing and I again feel blue. I feel I’m again being left out, I feel I’m alone. However, this may be demanding from my end as I want to be with my friends yet as adulting occurs, they’re not free. I know Im just being OA and ofc their reasons are all valid, that theyve got priorities. I just feel sad

i fucking hate how you entered in my life and made me believe that you're different from every boy that made me feel like shit. you were able to gain my trust and I thought that this is finally it, that I will finally get the love l deserve. you made
me feel that way so effortlessly. I didn't have to ask nor mention it then suddenly you left because you realized you can't "handle" having someone while focusing on your academics. you said you have SOOO much to prioritize and love is not one of them and YOU promised me that I'll "move on" eventually. you are so unfair. subscription yarn?