Okay, I've been reading fanfics for a few years. & currently, I'm at my wits' end T_T, so these 2 characters are a rare pair. Like, I can't find what I want, and it's very specific too. So, I feel like writing it myself is the only option left.
Except, I don't have writing skills & it's pretty bad. I wrote a draft (short) & it's so time-consuming. Feeling a bit disappointed :( Also, I don't have an ao3 acc, using as a guest. So, have to make an acc & wait to post.
& there are a few ships that I adore, but there are so few fics or almost none. So, Ive been brainstorming what I want in the story. Then I've to read source materials again, to start the actual writing or else it's even more ooc. & then look into writing help materials, & other stuff to search?. All of these are so time-consuming.
& I'm also kinda busy, don't have that much time to spare like I used to have.
Also, kinda scared cuz some of those ships are rarepairs & might not be perceived well cuz of how some "fans" are. & not liking some tropes.
So, yeah, but IK it will be worth it, cuz it's fun to write (maybe my writing skills will improve) & brainstorm random ideas, & hopefully I will get to know random ass knowledge, so it will be nice regardless. Hopefully.
Yeah :> I needed to say this to someone.