Hi,
I was wondering if someone could sense any bad energy/karma or a spiritual presence?
I've ...had a lot of health issues in life, honestly, some frankly bizarre and my physical health has definitely taken a pretty big hit in the last year or so. When I mean "bizarre health issues", I mean I had a brain tumor at age 8, my femur - yes, the thighbone that's supposed to be impossible to break outside of car accidents, yanno, that thing? That completely fractured for no reason in my twenties. Then there was the pulmonary embolism, the list kinda goes on...
Okay, so my face is my face, obviously, lol, but you know what's a reoccurring problem in my life? I have an ex that stalks me, and a different ex that did something pretty unforgivable 8+ years that I just....loved him too much at the time to press charges, I regret this now obviously, but this guy still messages me a few times a year 8+ years on from the event that caused me to move....we got some kind of closure, I thought, but he's still....messaging into the void at this point.
So no, I'm not going to ask if he's my soulmate or if I should go back to him. Thank God.
What I'm wondering is if there's a particular reason why I've led a rollicking trainwreck of a life - was I Hitler in a past life? 😂 I'm kinda kidding, a lot of what's happened in my life is the result of my own choices and actions, but so many metaphorical pianos have fallen out of the sky and landed on me in this life that I'm just....curious.
I feel like all areas of my life are constantly rebuilding and burning down in a way.
Would a natal chart be more helpful in figuring things out?
Also I had a difficult relationship with my mother, she died close to a year ago and I was wondering if she's lingering or has something to say.
Sometimes I sense a female/ancestoral presence, but I don't really think it's her...
Sorry for the rambling message, thank you for reading all this.