(for context im 15f)
this generation especially online is continuously growing to be more misogynistic, the more i see posts about feminism and womens rights the more i genuinely despise being a woman to the point i cry at night.
its come greatly to my attention that sexism is deeply embedded into our society and will never fully vanish. the smallest of actions and words can easily be deemed as sexist, the gesture being small but the impact lifelong. since childhood girls are told that if boys hit them, they’re simply flirting and showing affection. seems harmless, right? no. this is one of the reasons men feel okay to physically harm women. the tiniest phrase said to little girls and boys at young ages easily shape who they become as they grow up, men are taught to be misogynistic and women are taught that its normal. I also believe this can be a reason why men are heavily overrepresented in sa and dv crimes (sexual assault& domestic violence/abuse).
and i will admit, i am a misandrist, righteously so, or atleast in my opinion and experience. i myself have been a victim of sa and mental abuse in an relationship, ive experienced the cruelty of men and their intentions multiple times from young. i was 12 the first time i got assaulted, by a boy i liked. it was stupid, yes, but even then boys as young as him at the time thought of women as only sex symbols. he openly asked me multiple times to do things with him, which i always refused until he forced himself upon me, i tried to push but he overpowered me and kept his hand going up. luckily from that and a few others i learnt to recognise what their true intentions are by the slight change of their tone when not being in physical contact. that being said, older men online when i was 13 also tried to pressure me into doing things for them, these men were in their 20’s, they tried to doxx and extort me, endlessly threatening me for what they wanted. ive witnessed and personally experienced a lot of men that i wasnt ever with try to do sexual things with me, whenever i rejected they always resorted to degrading and insulting me in various ways, quickly getting emotional. i have never met a truly genuine man. i dont think i ever will. ever since my first sa i have always been scared of men in public, everyday when id be walking to school or a friends house and id see a man, id immediately think the worst and run away as fast as i could, that also goes for the present. every day i live in fear of men, i watched them destroy my family and myself, i dont think ill ever be comfortable with one. but these aren’t my only reasons.
sometimes when ill be scrolling ill swipe past a reddit story or i think its quota story?? itll be from a womans account about her experience with whos usually her husband. ive seen so many stories explaining how they’d cheated on their wives while they would be carrying their child, ive also seen many where theyd rape them directly after labour, or barely help with the baby after labour. my point here is that men lack sympathy and fail to understand what pregnancy does. im 15, ive never experienced a pregnancy, but yet, its not hard to show sympathy. womens bodies are ruined after pregnancy and put through 9months of torture after. it takes a woman up to 5 years to recover from a pregnancy, but men being the creatures they are they lack the brains to understand this. many go on to stress and use their partners after and during pregnancy. men also dont always love their child unconditionally unlike women. women have maternal love, men dont, its highly unlikely for a man to love his child as much as the mother does. that’s why so many children today are without fathers and with single mothers.
men will never understand what its like to be a woman and live everyday fearing sexual assault and rape. i hate being a woman but id also hate being a man. men lack sympathy and more or less all have the same intention. im really sorry if the grammar or wording of the sentences is wrong or dont make sense this was written at night in a rush of anger. does any other girl feel like this? how do i stop??