This thread will basically be explaining where i started, where i am now, and asking what can i do to improve
Hello, I go by Zero in most places, im 24, Im Neurodivergent (Autism, ADHD) suffer Social Anxiety, and im physically & mentally disabled, and im 380 US lbs
ive always been a big or fat person since i was a child, and i hate it the same way i hate myself, on my own or in public
be it genetics or more likely, due to my mother who was my enabler for far too long, and how it was never realized or caught until too late into my late teens years ago, growing up and always eating the most, so much fats and sugars, poor habits i was eventually able to kill off
ive done endless changes to myself, one of the biggest cornerstones being ending soda, and i never went back, the day i compared the sugars of mainline soda to something like tea, or other countries, it concerned me enough to just stop, i only drink it if handed to me now, especially when its so easily replicable via Sparkling Water + Whatever Fruit flavor water packets/powder/droplets you have, healthier and cheaper, and its all i drink now besides Tea
i *Just* started getting into Fruit Smoothies, The realization of “if i cant properly get myself to eat fruit as often as i need, why not just drink it?” Spurred that, and as of a month now, im blending frozen fruits with evaporated milk, ginger, & sometimes cinnamon, its practically my breakfas/lunch some days, same applies to salads, Asian Cucumber salad is so damn easy & good, idk why it took me forever when i love greens in general, anything works if it just has enough seasonin for taste of flavor, or adding grilled chicken
and overall, despite my weight, i just barley eat anymore, due to autism, the mounjaro i take after switching off ozempic, and learning last year i have a eating disorder, i just dont have the same gluttony anymore, pretty much everyday now its between “dont eat anything besides small snacks like greek yogurt with stuff, bag of nuts, or few pieces of asian candies/snacks until dinner” or basically same method but ill try and eat a breakfast OR Lunch of something, i dropped the “3 meal a day” cycle long ago, it only happens when family cooks, not from me
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this is overall simplifying things, but as you can see, ive done a lot even for an average intake of a typical american, but heres my problem: why am i still fat? Why was i losing weight so well for a year straight (i started journey back in 2020 at 415 Ibs, lowest i got was last year at 340 Ibs) to now being 380 Ibs again
nothings changed besides i probably have been eating just tad more? But nothing dramastic, and due to this its really activated my eating disorder again past few months as im trying to not starve myself constantly as punishment or worse, the only real thing i can think of that would help is getting back into proper physical activity
when youre disabled + have social anxiety, its hard existing, especially around strangers who you hope dont care about you but your brain says otherwise, wanting to just ignore interaction out of fear, i used to walk outside in neighborhood all the time, but the world lately has ate at me and ive lessened it, thats the only thing i can think of why i probably gained again, and currently my mother And I are working on possibly getting a treadmill at home, something i could use daily with the weights we got
am i going on the right track? Or am i still missing something?
please give me anything, and thanks for reading to the end