I got interested in freediving from watching some Instagram reels, of people moving in all sorts of beautiful ways. It seemed to me like they have gained a "third dimension" of movement, similar to flying, but without an aircraft.
It also reminded me of when I was a child (~10 years ago, when I didn't even know the word "freediving"), I used to be able to dive down to 3 meters in my local pool (which shut down) and I really liked the feeling of being underwater, being away from everyone else at the surface, And I enjoyed the idea of not being able to breathe (this is my kink).
So I did a quick search on how to get started with freediving, and I was intimidated by all the training courses and certifications I need. I had assumed that, unlike scuba, freediving was something I could do without qualifications. The fact that I need a buddy is also a major roadblock - I have no friends, I have social anxiety, and the people in my family can barely swim. I am also a lot fatter and a lot less fit than 10 years ago.
All this is to say, that I feel like trying out freediving is a huge commitment, and I'm afraid that all of that will be for nothing, if I eventually find that it actually isn't like what I imagined it to be, or that I just get frustrated and give up.
In fact, I already did "get frustrated and give up" once, attending a swimming class when I was a child. I really hated learning about the proper techniques of breaststroke/freestyle and stuff, partly because I find it very hard, partly because I already was satisfied with how I swam (which is something I sort of just naturally figured out). Thinking back, my favourite way of swimming was basically dynamic apnea.
TLDR: I just want to be able to move freely in 3 dimensions in the water, but learning to do this seems like a big commitment.
Thanks for reading my rant. Please give me some advice.