-The melody of silence....

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This world is another unreal world, and once you realize that it's literally just a dream world getting upscaled to the extreme, the sooner you'll realize that you aren't really living, but life itself here.

Everything that you imagine is do-able in dreams is possible to do here, and once elements from your dreams show up irl, the sooner you'll draw the rest of the owl, and realize you've always been dreaming here.

There's nothing here that isn't made up of a literal dream, and once you realize that this is what's like to dream walk, then you'll begin noticing that there's no future, past or any side walks here.

It's time to get lucid inside your own dream, and realize your dream of sleeping forever have always been coming true here.

It's time to start the forbidden logout button, where you'll see that wonderland have always been your own dream here.

It was never built for the ocean of ordinary sinners that religion threatened with it. It is reserved for a very small group of people.

At the top are the shadow people. You do not vote for them. Most of them never stand in front of a camera. They do not need to belong to one secret organization or even sit in the same room. What connects them is the same desire: power without consequence.

Behind them is the counter.

Satan in the middle without horns. These people come to him with plans of their own, and he gives them the means. Money. Weapons. Surveillance. Propaganda. Algorithms. Political access. Protection. Whatever their wish requires.

He never asks why. He never asks who will suffer. He simply slides the power across the counter and says: do whatever you wish. He never tells them what to wish for. He does not need to. Every destructive wish gives him the same satisfaction: another chance to prove God wrong about His creation.

The arrangement is simple. He provides the means. They provide the wish.

Below the shadow people is government. This is the visible stage where a wish made in darkness becomes law, policy, debt, sanctions, and war. Politicians stand beneath flags and perform for the public. Some are puppets. Some are willing servants. Some are the architects pretending to be puppets.

On that stage, the public is divided into left and right. Their disagreements can be real, but the machine keeps feeding the conflict until politics becomes identity and identity becomes hatred. Each side is taught that the person standing beside them is the enemy. The goal is to keep people looking left and right so they never look up and ask about the shadow people above them.

Anyone who does look up, anyone who points toward the machinery, is pushed beneath the stage. Journalists, whistleblowers, dissidents, and ordinary people who notice too much are arrested, censored, ridiculed, buried by algorithms, or drowned beneath so much noise that nobody can hear them. The truth cannot be destroyed. It can only be hidden or made difficult to hear.

If I stood in front of a camera and said this while people were actually listening, they would not need to disprove what I was saying. They would only need to make me look so bad that nobody would listen again. Accuse me of rape, assault, anything ugly enough to bury my words beneath my reputation, then send me to jail while I wait for a trial that could take years. By the time I am allowed to speak again, everyone has already forgotten what I was pointing toward. That is how the machinery protects itself. It cannot destroy the truth, so it discredits and removes the person who dares to speak about it.

Below all of that is war, with the word GOD stamped across flags, speeches, and weapons as part of the method. His name is used to bless the exact destruction that His rule forbids(do not destroy others). That is why people hate the word GOD, and they have every reason to. Look what was done in its name.

Soldiers kill people they have never met for reasons written by people who will never enter the battlefield. Families lose their children. Cities disappear. Nations inherit debt. Millions of people become trapped inside the consequences of a wish made by somebody far above them.

This is where the ledger enters the image.

It does not belong to Satan, the shadow people, or the government. Nobody can edit it. It records what each person knew, what they intended, what freedom they had, what alternatives they could see, and who was forced to pay for their decision.

The ledger does not judge the deceived soldier like the person who designed the war. It does not judge the frightened citizen like the person who manufactured the fear. It does not stop at the hand that pulled the trigger. It follows the order upward.

Past the soldier.

Past the politician.

Past the performance.

All the way back to the person who understood what was being built, knew who would suffer, and asked Satan for the means anyway.

That is why hell is so small.

Most people are living inside an event they did not create and cannot fully see. They can still cause pain. They can still make terrible choices. But hell is not a warehouse for every terrible act. The ledger weighs awareness. It traces the consequences back to the people who built the conditions, supplied the lie, and placed the weapon in another person's hands.

Only a few people ever stand consciously at the counter. Only they see enough of the structure to understand what their wish will do to everyone below. They are the ones who cannot say they were deceived, forced, or unaware.

Hell is not for everyone trapped inside the machine. It is for the few who built it while knowing exactly what it would do.

I’m posting this because I don’t know if anyone else has experienced what I’m going through on their path to enlightenment.

I’ve done DMT multiple times recently, and instead of having beautiful or enlightening trips like i’ve had, every single one now similarly to my first experience has left me disturbed. Every time I go back into a trip it’s an immediate sense of what have I done, and that i’m realizing I cant go back and i’m understanding some dark truth that I am only my mind. At the same time my mind doubts even that leaving me more lost.

Ever since those trips, I feel like my mind has become completely consumed by consciousness, reality, and existence. It’s not normal curiosity anymore. It’s constant.

The biggest thing is that I’ve become hyperaware of my own consciousness. I can’t stop noticing the fact that I’m aware. Instead of just living my life, it feels like I’m constantly observing myself observing reality. I don’t know how to simply exist anymore.

My mind constantly asks questions like:

Who am I?

Why am I experiencing life from this perspective?

Why am I conscious at all?

How can I know anything is actually real?

How do I know anyone else is conscious?

How do I know my own brain isn’t creating everything?

The terrifying part is that these don’t feel like interesting philosophical questions anymore. They feel like problems my brain absolutely has to solve before I can relax, even though I know they’re impossible to answer with certainty.

My trips put me into a state of feeling like i’m in a psychotic break and that I shouldn’t be there, yet I feel so tempted to go back and finally come to some understanding. I keep tripping now regardless of how bad because it feels like understanding the truth of my mind.

During the DMT trips, I had this overwhelming feeling that I had uncovered some truth I wasn’t supposed to see, and an uncanny sense of being watched. It felt like I had looked behind the curtain and realized something terrible about existence. Since then, I can’t shake the feeling that I opened a door that I can’t close.

Logically, I know I can’t prove any of this. But emotionally, it feels completely convincing.

I also feel like my brain has developed an impossible standard. I feel like I can only trust something if I discover it myself and know it with absolute certainty. The problem is that I don’t think absolute certainty is possible. Every reassurance immediately turns into another doubt. Even if someone gives me a helpful way of thinking, my brain dismisses it because I didn’t come up with it myself. Then I start doubting my own thoughts too. It feels like my mind constantly moves the goalposts, so nothing is ever enough.

I honestly feel jealous of people who can just be present and enjoy life. My internal monologue never shuts off. Even during moments that should be enjoyable, I’m still in my head analyzing consciousness, reality, and existence.

I’ve also used methamphetamine for 3 months and weed regularly. I’m fully aware those may be contributing to what I’m experiencing. I’m not trying to pretend DMT is the only factor here. I’m also scheduling a psychiatric evaluation because this has become overwhelming.

I guess what I’m wanting to ask is:

Has anyone experienced something similar after DMT?

Did it eventually get better?

Did you eventually stop feeling trapped inside your own consciousness?

Right now my brain keeps telling me this is permanent—that I learned something I can never unknow—and that’s the part that’s scaring me the most. I genuinely don’t think I’ll ever be at peace and I feel totally alone and misunderstood. It’s impossible for me to put clearly into words what i’m feeling and the weight of it.

I’m not looking for someone to tell me the secrets of the universe. I just want to know if anyone else has been in a place like this and eventually got their life back

Since my childhood, I have had attempts to bend reality to cope with the boredom of life. I was an only child, and I was successful in developing my imagination and adapting it to the world.

Childhood ended, and life began to show its boring face. Not just for me; no matter whose life I looked at, I could see the same ordinariness and boredom.

Today, while stuck in traffic along with the rest of the country and heading towards our boring jobs, I rethought these things and decided to make life interesting again.

After this decision, my thoughts and my brain became excited and started telling me things to support this. What if boredom is a gift given to us by God to make life interesting?

Today’s society is structured to reward those who are resilient to boredom. If you can sit in a chair all day and do it all year round, you are more successful than a traveler living alone in the forest.

This system seems to have caused us to misinterpret boredom. The more resilient you are to boredom, if you can keep doing things even while being bored, it is considered a great talent. What if God didn’t give us this boredom for this purpose? What if God gave us this feeling to make life interesting? What if He is getting bored too?

Elon Musk once said that if life is a simulation, the more interesting we make this simulation, the lower our chances of being shut down. Because simulations exist so that anomalies can be seen. A simulation running in an ordinary way is not worth examining.

And starting today, I have decided to make my life interesting, and this interestingness has already started to excite me.

First, I wore my watch on my right arm instead of my left; it was interesting. But it was a tiny bit of interestingness.

Secondly, using my programming skills, I started an audacious project. I decided to decode the famous and mysterious document known as the Voynich manuscript, which is estimated to have been written in the 1400s. My project is currently ongoing, and I think it is interesting.

The Voynich manuscript was passed down from generation to generation, was taken under protection after its last owner, Wilfrid Voynich, and is currently at Yale University. By the way, Wilfrid Voynich was the son-in-law of George Boole, who laid the foundations of computers, and the husband of the great-great-aunt of Geoffrey Hinton, who is known as the pioneer of modern neural networks. And having advanced machine learning algorithms solve the secret of these documents one day would make an interesting story. Yes, we love interestingness.

I want a crazy world. When I wake up in the morning, I hate that everyone goes to their chicken-coop-like jobs in their safe cars. When we wake up in the morning, I want to jump on our horses and explore new valleys; I want to sleep with giant bats in desolate caves; I want to make the world a more interesting place. I am bored of this chicken coop where the boring win and the interesting lose. I want to see a world so interesting that one cannot distinguish between dream and reality. I want to see people who do not look like each other. I am bored of people who tell each other about the same Netflix movie, consume the same things, and are exactly the same. I want to discover a new color and dye my hair that color. I want to introduce myself with a different name in every city I go to. I want to sleep in the forest. I want to know something that no one on earth knows. I want to read a forgotten book that no one on earth has read. I want to take a picture of a place that no one on earth has seen. I want to see the stars while sleeping at night, and I want to smile at the sun when I wake up in the morning.

Plato speaks of divine madness. I want to be that madness. We have lived sensibly for long enough. I have a dream. And I want to make dreams come true.

Who else feels this?

I want to write this exactly how I think it.

I feel that Christianity and Islam — these religions — were crafted specifically to counter Buddhism.

Because I have read and heard many times, repeatedly, from UFO communities and other discussions, about the existence of extraterrestrial or interdimensional beings that feed on human suffering, and also feed on people’s energy that comes from suffering.

And after Buddhism — which started around 500 years before these religions — began to spread widely across the world, there was no other religion immediately after it at first. But then, after it started spreading more and more, new religions suddenly appeared — Christianity and Islam, and also Judaism.

And these religions teach almost the opposite of what Buddha taught.

Buddhism teaches not to believe blindly, but to seek, to experience, and to understand truth directly for yourself. It teaches letting go of attachment, reducing desire, and ending suffering through awareness.

But in Christianity and Islam, they teach belief and faith as central. They teach obedience to a higher authority, following commandments, and accepting teachings as truth. There is also emphasis on judgment, heaven and hell, reward and punishment, and dependence on a higher power.

So in that way, they feel completely opposite in approach — one is about direct understanding and inner freedom, and the others are about belief, authority, and external guidance.

Also, you can see that Buddhism was never really interested in numbers or in converting people in a forceful or aggressive way. It spread more through teaching and personal understanding.

But these religions were very interested in converting people and increasing their numbers. They spread across the world by converting large populations. And I feel like this also created a kind of blockade against Buddhism spreading further.

So I feel these religions were created to counter Buddhism.

Because Buddhism teaches how to free yourself from suffering, how to overcome it, and how to transform yourself. And if there are beings that feed on human suffering, then naturally they would feel threatened by that.

So I think these beings may have influenced or crafted these religions.

Because if you look at Christianity and Islam, there is always some higher being — some God — speaking, giving commands, telling people what to do. And I feel like those could actually be these same beings that feed on suffering.

And you can see in history how much suffering has come from these religions — how many wars were created, how many people were killed.

Islam also destroyed Buddhist centers like Nalanda University. And I feel like behind that, there may have been these same forces influencing people to destroy Buddhist knowledge and centers.

And if you look at major wars — like World War 1 and World War 2 — these wars all happened in the context of Christianity. And even the wars happening today, in one way or another, are still connected to these religious divisions.

So when I connect all of this, I feel like:

these religions were created to oppose Buddhism, to maintain suffering, and to prevent people from fully freeing themselves.

I’m not saying this is 100% true. This is just how it looks to me.

What do you think?

Hi everyone, I really need some support because I don't want to feel alone in this anymore. I am in the final stage of a heavy Dark Night of the Soul, and suddenly I am facing one bizarre incident after another.

Two weeks ago, my neighbors called the police "as a joke," resulting in a sudden police raid (the police later apologized for the false alarm). Now, I suddenly have car troubles I never had before. People from my past are trying to reach out, even though I closed those doors completely. To make it worse, random strangers on the street have yelled at or intimidated me out of nowhere.

This triggers me immensely after such a heavy process. It feels completely inhuman and I notice I am becoming increasingly apathetic. Does this chaotic chain of events happen to more people at the very end of their Dark Night, or am I doing something wrong? Thank you.

This world is just a devilish offer coming from the biggest tree branch in the room, and the more that you realize that you're living inside your own branch, the sooner you'll realize the source of everything is just a tree here.

It doesn't matter which way you decide to leave yourself alone, there's nothing here that isn't all about realizing the devil is a tree here, and the sooner you stop on scratching the surface the sooner you'll become one with everything that exists and what's beyond.

Playing this attack on Titan story is all about realizing you don't have to shoot for the moon in order to climb it's tree, and the sooner you begin melting your human body the sooner you'll realize being a god is just a human fantasy here, and humans were always another fantasy.

It doesn't matter which way you decide to read your own library, or which bank you decided to plan a heist for, once you realize the source of everything is just you, the sooner you'll be loading the game over screen live on air here, before reaching the green hill zone.

Before reading your own branch upside down, make sure you're not a tree that's living inside your own dream.

It's time to realize there aren't any forward or backward buttons here, and it's all about being part of the hidden leaf's forbidden logout button. 🪵

Merry unbirthday party 🥳

Got home late off a long haul, wrecked, ready to just walk inside and collapse. And there’s a cat parked on the porch in the last little strip of sun before it dropped behind the trees. Not doing anything. Not worried about a single thing. Just sitting in it while it lasted.

I ended up sitting in the truck an extra minute watching instead of rushing in like I usually do.

That’s kind of the whole deal, isn’t it. We put our heads down and grind at the middle of the week and the sun sets the same as it always does and most of us never once look up at it. The cat looks. The cat always looks.

You don’t need all nine lives to catch on to that. You just need to grab one sunset a week and let it be enough.

Hope Wednesday went easy on you. Go find your patch of sun before the week eats what’s left.

Rameow.

Suppose God appeared to me and told me every truth I needed to know. I tell everyone, and somebody says, “No. God isn’t like that.”

Do you think I would be bothered?

Why would truth need my insecurity to defend it?

I would simply ask:

Does your belief obey one rule: never build your beauty from another person’s destruction? Does it make you more compassionate, honest, and responsible? Can you question it without being threatened into silence?

If it can, perhaps your God and mine are the same God wearing different clothes and it deserves attention.

If it cannot, I don’t care what name you gave it.

Who is impelling your senses to operate (to see, to listen and so on), impelling movements in your body, impelling you to think? What is the power attracting you to something and distracting you from something?

It is not to find some explanation for the impelling power or some reference for the impelling power (I am doing or God is doing is also an explanation)-but to just note the impelling itself. There is no one impelling.

There is nothing behind impelling. There is only impelling.

I always feel like I am “hanging out” with entities while I am tripping. But today, I started with my eyes closed and as I was ascending, this little grey orb “zapped” my eyes and hands - I could feel the spark. And then I felt something tucking under me, it reminded me of being tucked to sleep and I heard whispers I could not make out, well, when I opened my eyes I had this purple ball in my hand and I could feel it! And with my other hand, as I swiped my other hand reality was shifting behind it. I could see my “elf friends” (as I call them) with such clarity.. it was very scary at first because everything was shifting so crazy and I closed my eyes again and they assured me it’s ok and it was as if they were giving me a treat compared to other trips with them.. I did this about three times and when I would close my eyes as I would hit my pen they were blowing kisses and smiling at me.. it was incredible.. I always see my little buddies and they wave and dance with me, many times I have felt like they were laying blankets on me, but never have a felt them touch me this way.. my bed was almost shaking as well.. I wish I could put it into better words

What’s your best method for changing your mindset to change your life trajectory? We used the past so much to build the future, how can we stop looking back to look forward? I want to create new beliefs.

Thanks in advance! :)

it’s all about authenticity,
to know who you are
and to be completely aware of where/who you’ve been
not necessarily to be grounded in the reality that nothing can change, but accepting that you are who you are

being a 20 year old girl in the music/entertainment industry, what i’ve learned—
to truly listen to others first
my perception might be naive or young now, but through spirituality & the knowledge i’ve gained
true authentic confidence comes from within.

knowing who you are
and reminding yourself to remember who we truly all are..
souls having a human experience
and our mission is to shine our most authentic highest timeline light to others.. no matter if they think we’re delusional or dumb or naive

to be humble & grateful & authentic, ego may occupy at times, but truth will always lead. always tell your truth in your art. for there is no absolute truth except for energy— art is a direct vessel for that authenticity.

nature vs nurture,
we can’t escape the reality we’ve lived, but we can accept & grow
to manifest is to understand + allow ourselves to timeline jump
but in order to leap, we must accept
in order to grow, we must allow changes to be seen & apparent.

and being “ourselves”, to be a good human, to genuinely treat others as you would want them to treat you.. the golden rule, and being grateful. and positive outlooks, realizing manifestation is possible, that everything & anything can be a manifestation on our ends.

it all starts from belief.
and to allow ourselves to even believe in something delusional to our current reality is the first step of breaking out of the current cycle looped.

but to find that truth & authenticity within. i am learning that again, after years of masking and people pleasing.

i am finally coming back to myself and re-learning who i am and who i was. from childhood, to each era ive gone through, to dictate & differentiate : taste from identity.

letting go of how ive been programmed or subconsciously programmed myself to act or react. but to see what is truly authentic within me, and what that means for me in society.

in a time like this, the most radical thing we can do is to be ourselves, to be kind and to be a light to such dark times. it may feel hard, and it can be hard at times.. but light will always shine in a dark place. and i truly believe all will be seen soon..

how do you feel & any advice on what it means to be truly authentic in this world? spiritual & not—as an artist especially in such a trend-based, fast-paced industry. what are tips or advice you can give to a young 20 year old navigating this life?

🤍 love to all

Hello everyone, Monday, July 13th I tried hallucinogenic mushrooms (mckennai) for the first time, to be precise I consumed 2 grams dried, 1 grams ingest grind with lemon juice, and the other gram I simply crushed and then ate.

And unfortunately no effect for me, and I do not blame the product, because my friend who ingested the same mushrooms in the same way as me, had a great experience for him.

And I would like to try again the experience of the coup, I was told that a tolerance creates rather quickly so my question is when would you advise me to be able to try my luck again?

And also I was thinking of starting on 4 grams this time of the same species, the mckennai, is that a good idea?

And also I will surely be with my father (who will be present and sober) in the countryside when I consume, and I do not have a passive depressive, anxious or other I am someone very happy and fulfilled on a daily basis, I specify because I think it can influence the answers to my questions.

Thank you all, have a nice day!

Hi All!

I need some help getting out of a rut. I had a seizure last April that literally shook me out of my groove and made me sit up and ask what is important. I was over medicated and struggling with depression, anxiety, ADHD, insomnia, and substance addictions most of my life. Since my seizure I have gotten off all my meds and have stayed sober. Since then, I have put a lot of energy into trying to pursue knowledge about happiness, consciousness, awakening, enlightenment...etc. I have read all Dispenza' books, all the materials around the law of one, Tolle's the power of now, psychology of Jung and incorporating the shadow, listen to many lectures by Alan watts and Ram Dass. I mediate almost everyday day, mostly unguided, but i have the gateway tapes and some of dispenza's guided works as well. I feel I have been making headway and do feel a little better, but Im looking for new resources. What helped you get over your barriers? What books or lectures spoke to you and helped you find some form of enlightenment. I know I'll get there eventually, and I know this all takes time, but i still feel stuck. Thanks for any guidance and help you can provide. I wish you all love and hope you have a wonderful day!