r/blackmagic • u/EfficientDrama4326 • 8h ago
I want these people to burn in hell
I was raped by a girl who would constantly threaten to kill herself if I never responded to her texts or calls, played games with her, talked to her, or if I stopped being friends with her. Mind you, I only knew her for barely a month. After she found out I was moving to her state, to be closer to my now ex best friend, she said she wanted to meet the next morning after I would arrive. I said maybe, but still sent my address. Drove over 18 hrs, I was exhausted and I just wanted to sleep. She texted me throughout the night, saying how she loved me and how she wanted to be with me, etc etc. fast forward, we meet in the morning. She brought me gifts, gifts I have thrown away after she had left because of what she did to me.
I asked if I could kiss her, because I did initially like her. She said yes, so I kissed her cheek and asked if we could go to the movies now. She said no, then asked me to kiss her lips, I asked if she was sure, and she said yes. I asked maybe 4 more times, then after the final yes, I said okay and kissed her. That’s all I did. After, what 4 minutes of silence, she got into my lap and started kissing me heavily. I tried to push her off but she wrapped her arms around my neck, and wouldn’t let go. Then she changed the subject to how much she loved me and wanted me to be her gf. I said no because we just met and I’d rather not have sex. I’ve repeated this many times over text, phone. She started to take off her clothes and kept putting my hands onto her privates. I felt gross and kept asking if she was sure about all that, all while moving my hands away. She would ignore me and ask me out again, this went on for idk how long.
I remember every single detail. Long story short, she kept making do things to her by threatening to kill herself and would blame me if I didn’t do anything. I scrubbed my face, body after the movies, after she had left, and I still do it. I tried to ignore her and distance myself from her, but she would tell a mutual ex friend, older than both of us, that she’s in love with me but would understand if I didn’t like her. But to me, she’d threaten to kill herself and would blame me via text whenever I wouldn’t text back. It freaked me out a bit, so the guy told me to ask her out to see if she’d stop, it didn’t and she said to wait but she’d kill herself if I dated someone else. I figured if I made good on a promise to her and to many others, aka me going to an event with her, she’d stop.
She said some wild things about my ex best friends then said it was her autism and she has no control over herself. I corrected her and said she’s weird for saying those things, she blamed it on having speech therapy as a kid. She said the same thing about how she “hates disabled/unemployed people, because half her paycheck goes to people like that.” Anyways, after the event, she pulled over to sleep because it was 2 AM, and she kept swerving around on the highway. I fell asleep, very cramped sedan. I woke up to her on top of me, humping my lap and her tongue down my throat. I couldn’t push her off me again, she’d tighten her grip around my neck and I was being choked at this point. I cried and could barely say “get off” because of her grip. She got off after what felt like forever, and said she had a great dream about my now ex best friend.
Told the guy, and told my ex best friends about it. They said she was weird, she loves to lie and to be careful, she’s obsessed with my ex best friends, and I should just ignore her. But they were going to keep being friends with her because they’re afraid of her actually killing herself if they stopped. And the guy said she needed “guidance in life.” I begged, I went to the police, and nothing. The guy lied to my ex best friends about me and said I assaulted her (but she apparently doesn’t remember anything) and that I called them two faced and a bunch of other things.
Now they’re all buddies, and I feel disgusted. I already have insomnia and was getting help for it. Now every time I somehow fall asleep, I see her on top of me. I am so freaked out and pissed. I want to put the girl and guy in a compact mirror and make them regret everything. I’ve already done a jar, but it’s not enough.