I made a post the other day about my tulpa hating me suddenly and spewing a bunch of hatred and all of that. Many told me about intrusive thoughts, I've tried to look at it but there's just no way they're this articulated for this many days in a row.

For 3 days now I've been trying to dialogue with her and she talks in this panicked voice all the time while being barely audible. The few words I do make up are ''I hate you'' and ''Forget me'' which she yells at me all day long. She's asked me why I wrote that reddit thread several times, I told her that I wanted some help but she just instantly jumps ''You're an aaaassshole'' like a banshee.

I've tried sitting down and talking things many times at this point but she's become a ball of rage, she does not care about any arguments and just wants out. I made this post to give some closure in case I left anyone hanging, I don't think I'll be having a tulpa by the end of the month.

I’m looking for videos or meditation guides that can help me form and force my tulpa. Or to help me learn other tulpa related skills

Yesterday I was in bed watching TikTok when out of nowhere I remembered an idea I had a while ago about creating a tulpa to have at least one friend lol. Well, I followed the steps from a list: I closed my eyes, gave her a name, gave her some traits, and made it clear to her that she is a free being and can shape herself however she wants. From the very first moment, I tried to talk to her. I started watching an anime episode while constantly telling her what I thought about each character. When I got up, I felt like something was following me. I got pretty happy because I felt it was a great first step. I kept talking to her for a long time and I still feel like she is following me, but I don't know if she is shy or something like that since she always stays behind me and it's hard for me to imagine her. Any advice?