Hello lovelies,

I just want you to know that you are doing SO GOOD.

You've probably gaslit yourself into thinking you suck at everything and that this affliction isn't a full blown disability.

But it is. I've come out the other side after a bilateral oophorectomy. I'm on HRT and ohhh boy, when I tell you how FAST my world begins to crumble when my hormones aren't right.

The other day I was feeling brain fog, weak, like every little thing had just become so hard. I was struggling, no, life had become a struggle. I almost ran my mouth at a customer. Why? Because I'd eaten two slices of an orange that has was the product of a mandarin and a grapefruit cross pollinating and it messed with my medication.

So, my lovelies, if you ever think this is all in your head, or that this isn't a debilitating disorder and that you have not developed the most practiced emotional control that would put a Buddhist monk to shame, then you need to. Because life is on EASY MODE now. PMDD flips it all the way to EXTREME.

I not only have a job, I run a business now, I built a house with my own two hands (in the woods, the desire to escape society never left me). And I don't have bad days anymore unless my meds are off, and I give myself ALL the grace that I never could before, so they aren't even that bad.

You're all amazing, there is light at the end of the tunnel of shit and you are the strongest, wisest and most incredible humans on the planet.

Love you all

It’s like, when I wake up on the first day of luteal I can just feel it in my bones. I have no energy, I just want to lay in bed and snack. I can feel each pound of weight in my body and everything just feels wrong and too much.

On top of that I’m considering cancelling plans because my best friend seemed a little upset with me and now I’ve been crying ever since and just want to stay in bed and all I can think about is that they hate me now and how I should die. It’s so annoying. Hello two weeks of hell.

Update: took some extra prozac thats been prescribed to me for my pmdd and hung out with my friend and they apologized for being snippy and felt so bad when they found out they set me off. God bless pills. (They’re also super supportive and understanding of my pmdd)

Please, if anyone could talk me down and give me some outside counseling. I’m four days out from my period and crashing. overthinking work emails (did I overstep?), interpreting my beloved family member’s silence as anger (I’ve done nothing wrong), completely overwhelmed with working full time in a very stressful role, overwhelmed with toddler life (she’s amazing but in a sleep regression), and my husband fails at offering any comfort or encouragement without me having to literally ask him to and at that point I’m at my LIMIT And can’t believe I have to ask.

I didn’t take my Lexapro this month (month three of trying it intermittently) and I don’t even have a good reason why. I just want to cry. I’ve been having the most wonderful month - positive, energetic, finally feeling like myself postpartum - and I’m currently sitting at my desk panicking at EVERYTHING.

I’ve been dealing with PMDD for twenty years and some cycles really get the best of me. Why does this happen? Why does Mother Nature bring me to my lowest every month over and over as some sisyphean cosmic punishment for being a woman?

I can’t even cry. the tears aren’t even there. I’m so tired and tormented by my own mind and hormones.

I haven’t been diagnosed with pmdd, but I’m 99% certain that is what I have. I’m debating on getting an official diagnosis for it, for those who have gotten one - are there any downsides to having the official diagnosis on your records? What are some of the pros? Does it even matter getting a diagnosis? Thank you for your input if you have any!

I skipped a whole bunch of my birth control pills, the only thing that helps my symptoms. It was on accident due to just being forgetful and overwhelmed with life. I know it's not a cure all but man what a difference it makes!! I'm leaving a toxic job and currently trying to finding a new one. I'm terrified of change despite knowing I need it. I'm also am not good at said job and that I keep making dumb mistakes with everyone I interact with at work and in life. I have this reoccurring and scary thought that I will be so careless that I accidentally make a big mistake so bad that everyone in my life will hate me and I'll go to prison. Logically, to my knowledge, I know I haven't done anything to cause me feel this way but the overall impeding doom feels too real. Also, I began arguing with my partner about some minor thing and it turned into a whole argument. I tried sorting it out by communicating how I felt but I think I just soured our relationship.

I also started spotting and having cramps so thats great too!! I just feel like utter poo and questioning my entire existence. I can't stop spiraling and it's past my bed time and I would just like my brain to stop and relax.

My chiro sold me vitex (as well as tulsi & Endo supreme) to help with PCOS symptoms, Pmdd & fertility support. I took them for about 3-4 weeks beginning in early May, she directed me to take 2 per day, every day. I began having pregnancy like symptoms, nauseous in the morning, food aversion, late period. I took multiple pregnancy tests, at home & at the doc, not pregnant. Here I am, end of July, I still have yet to get my period for June or July. I’m emotional & on edge & rage full & so so so sad. I think my hormones are messed up now. Idk. We’re wanting to start ttc in October but now that I don’t even have a period, idk if that’s gonna happen. Any similar experiences? Did your period come back? I’m so scared I’ve messed up my body

Hi all, I apologize for the long rant ahead, but I’m sure other people have experienced something similar. I have PMDD, painful periods, chronic fatigue, lower back pain, depression, and anxiety (as well as a long family history of endometriosis). I have been on the same birth control for a couple years now (Alacyen) and it’s worked wonders for me. Lighter flow, shorter periods, and less debilitating pain during menstruation. I was seeing a different OBGYN for awhile who was great but I was having problems with his office staff for awhile and decided to try someone new. (I also see a psychiatrist who has helped with my mental health and is a great provider). So I went to see a new OBGYN today and I left crying (I’m an empath and have a lot of bad experiences with doctors, ugh). I told her about my symptoms and my history of bad luck with birth controls in the past (a birth control in the past had me bleeding for nearly a year straight). But I told her I was looking for a second opinion on PMDD, chronic fatigue, and possible endo. This woman told me my only option was to change birth control and work out 5 days a week if I wanted relief. I was in utter shock, I challenged her and told her I have been working out 3 days a week and have had to build up to that overtime. She goes on to tell me there’s no excuse, that she’s a mother of 3, works full time and wakes up at 4am to workout during the week. After this comment I completely checked out, I can’t believe a doctor is so quick to compare herself to her patients with different health conditions, lifestyle, and biological factors. This really hit me like a truck because I feel like I’ve made so much progress with my health and fitness journey, It’s so sad that doctors like this exist. How do you deal with experiences like these?

Thanks in advance🩵

Okay yes I know it’s PMDD. I have a formal diagnose, meds, and therapist. But damn this luteal is kicking my ass. I have healthy anxiety and panic disorder that I’m actually overcoming but it does flare in luteal. Not only did I convince myself today from the fatigue and palpitations that I had congenital heart failure but also that I have undiagnosed cancer. Girrrrl. The anxiety, panic attacks, crazy derealization, and EXTREME fatigue really gets scary for me. I lift heavy and do cardio 5-6 days a week. I walked for 20 mins today and had to lay in bed for an hour after. Does your guys PMDD get this bad? Headache for 3 days too. I’m also a day away from my period according to my chart.

Hey guys. I’m really sorry if things like this are said a lot but I don’t know where else to go as I’m spiraling.

I have an amazing relationship with my girlfriend of 3 years. I love her and want to spend the rest of my life with her. But once a month, during my luteal phase, I suddenly no longer want to be with her. I don’t want touch (romantic or sexual), I feel completely detached. I’m convinced I’ve fallen out of love with her and that we need to break up.

But usually, either once I start my period or after I’m off my period, I go right back to normal and I no longer feel this way.

The issue is…no matter how many times I remind myself during these phases that I’m in my luteal phase and it’s just hormones…it feels so REAL. The emotions are SO REAL. And I’m so scared of them. They’re so real and so strong and so scary because I’m terrified of falling out of love with her

Any advice for this at all???

Okay so this is a very odd post from me but I'm going to share it here as I fear if i share with anyone else they will get me sectioned x

First off, i spent about 10 years diagnosed and no treatment suited me, this then lead me down a path doing some weird & questionable 'healing' experiences....

Anyway couple of years later i found the cocktail that worked for me and im currently managing my PMDD semi okay...

Anyway heres the weird part, I went to this healing session which was basically a sound bath on a water bed, with vibrations beneath you and then also a sort of emdr flashing therapy on your eyes.... honestly, how i find these things ill never know

... i thought it was basically a sound bath but boy was i wrong 🤣

I went through this whole experience about how I felt I was born an angry baby with this innate feeling of intense rage & anger... as if it was predestined that i was going to be a bitch haha 😆 i then felt like i was screaming constantly and i kept imagining i was letting all of the anger release from my body.... at this point i was bit pissed off because i originally came for the calm relaxation vibes but i thought lets stick with it

One thing i noticed was that the rage wasnt ugly, like i assumed it was.... it was powerful more than anything. I almost respected feeling that level of pure fucked-up-ness and it was almost something to admire.....

But i did feel a sort of resolve... almost like that feeling had been demanded to be felt since 5 lifetimes ago. As if i have been carrying an ancestral load of utter shit 😅 so there was that, and also just being able to look at PMDD from a new perspective was pretty interesting....

Anyway thanks for reading my strange post, has anyone else had any similar experiences? And if not I hope this was entertaining in some way at least ❤️

i feel like my case is so weird. i know that in PMDD the root issue isn’t a hormonal imbalance, but i don’t have normal hormone levels (PMOS), so i have an irregular cycle along with irregular but pretty obvious PMDD.

i have generally elevated estrogen levels and respond very well to progesterone (mentally and physically), i’m just more sensitive to progesterone (allopregnanolone?) withdrawal. i also have hormone-sensitive MCAS that’s very noticeably triggered by rises in estrogen and a genetic difference in one of the liver enzymes that breaks down estrogen (CYP1A2).

i’ve pretty much figured this all out on my own because no gynecologist or even reproductive endocrinologist ever understands my situation. luckily my immunologist is happy to prescribe progesterone because it treats MCAS. i’m just looking for other people in similar situations because so much of the usual advice doesn’t seem to apply?

Hello! Wanted to get some input on starting Yaz versus trialing Slynd first.

On paper I’m low risk for Yaz- (barely) under 35, normal BMI, normotensive, non-smoker. But the DVT/PE risk still freaks me out. Also, my dad was a medical malpractice lawyer and I remember the Yaz/Yasmin cases he worked on in the 2000s.

Is it worth trialing Slynd first to see if the “safer” option works for me? Do I just go ahead and do Yaz because the relative risk of a VTE event is still lower than, say, in pregnancy? My gyn appointment is Friday and I feel stuck.

I know for perimenopause or menopause treatment high doses of estrogen is prescribed with higher doses or progesterone. But has anyone here been prescribed 100mcg estrogen patch with 100mg of daily Utrogestan for pmdd? And it actually helped their pmdd?

I know the naps guidelines in the UK which I think is quite a few years old it says 100mch estrogen x 2 a week with 100mg of daily progesterone can be prescribed to control symptoms.

I have been using the 75mcg patch estrogen with daily 100mg of Utrogestan and I still have pmdd.

I have been on the 75mcg patch for quite a while now and I was cycling the progesterone part for a long time, it was 200mg for 12 days but they thought that the starting and stopping of that was adding to the pmdd so put me on daily.

I still have pmdd unfortunately. Wondering if now because I take progesterone every day whether upping the estrogen patch to 100 could help 🤔

So I’ve heard it mentioned that there’s a connection there but I’m curious if there’s anything specific or scientific to back it up? I know there’s a lack of research in general. I was feeling sorry for myself all morning and had a flashback to some childhood events and then realized I just started luteal.

Right, so I'm on day 2 of a really bad pmdd flare/episode or whatever, but this has come up in my mind for years so I thought today I would post and ask others, I think my non-pmdd brain knows the answer, but unfortunately she is not with us today, and we have full on pmdd bitch brain on.

My PMDD escalates real life problems, but also can cause delusional thinking, I have experienced psychosis with pmdd but not in the past year, this morning I woke up enraged about something important I need to make a decision on, I was thinking about all the worst case scenarios and was raging about the intentions of others and how I was interpreting everything, I was ready to confront the situation with an email I have drafted in my notes...

But I stopped myself because I noticed I was absolutely fuming and actually about to have a panic attack so instead I rolled a joint and took 2 diazipam (both prescribed medications for me) I also had some food and coffee and did some yoga

The problems I was raged about this morning don't seem so serious now, they are still problems but my brain doesn't seem them as a threat now

SO.... My question is.......

A. Was I just overreacting this morning because of pmdd and that causing me to rage and the medication has stopped my over reaction

B. Have I just numbed myself with medication and have resorted to people pleasing and ignoring the things that enraged me because I am medicated

Thanks for reading !

(This is partially for fun and curiosity I won't be making decisions today regardless of comments, just looking to see what others think or if you can relate)

Hi, long term lurker on here, first post.

I've been on GNRH injections now for 11 months, on the NHS. These have changed my life for the better in ways I didn't even realise were possible.

I was on HRT for the first 7 months but have had such bad reactions to HRT (allergy/autoimmune the GP says) that I've been taken off any addback altogether.

I have always gotten breakthrough symptoms at 4 weeks after injection, usually 1-2 days each month. It seems to be increasing each month though, and I want to know if anyone else has had a similar experience.

It's gotten progressively worse to the point where now I am having symptoms from 3 weeks post injection, and it is almost as bad as my PMDD symptoms were. I'm also getting cramps, body wide aches, extreme exhaustion, acne and eczema flare ups and a few other things, like I used to get before every period.

If anyone has any similar experiences or knowledge of GNRH injections efficacy fading over time, I'd really appreciate any input!

(Also if you have any questions about the injections, especially on NHS in the UK, please ask away!)

I am a college student and I work in a high volume call center for a major company
We typically take calls back to back all day long
I get horrible brain fog during luteal etc

That being said
Sometimes I make mistakes , I’ll say the wrong thing or there will be a glitch with the computer and somehow something won’t get cancelled etc

I’m leaving at the end of August to go back to college

But I’m worried
Because I am already super sad and down today
And I have a 1 on 1 with my supervisor

Everyone is supposed to meet with her
But I’m worried I will get fired and I need this job for another month 😭

That's all. I am so exhausted. Feeling like nothing in my life will ever be good again

Hi. I am in a really really tough time now. Well I have been the last year. Really over 20 years. It just some times goes a tiny tiny bit better. But it hasn't done for a while now.

I just started taking a birth control pill (I read that it's a combination pill), hoping it will balance out some of the extreme hormonal waves. The name for the pill in my country is Mirabella / Loette. (Google says it's called things as Aviane, Lutera, Sronyx, Falmina, Orsythia in the US.) Are any of you familiar with one of these? How long did it take until you noticed some differences?
I started an SSRI called Citalopram/Cipramil at the same time, but I know that one takes even longer to start working, and also might worsening the mood/psyche in the beginning..

I try to be realistic that it will take some time for the medicines to work (if they even do for me).. I just needed to ask out here.
Also kind or supporting words are very welcome..❤️‍🩹❤️ I'm quite exhausted and scared. And also feeling alone tbh.

Hope anyone have any input. And thank you for reading anyways if not. <3

I’m just fucking tired of having cyclical thoughts and issues that only occur one week before my period. I often doubt my very stable job and very stable relationship. I realize everything is fine once my period starts. But it’s hard to get through the week feeling like everything in my life is wrong. I also have weird feelings towards people during this time. I seek comfort in friends rather than my fiancé who wants to support me the most. There are very few people who I think can handle my PMDD and love me despite it all. I feel withdrawn from my family and people I normally love. I feel like I can only trust my cat.

I have so many writing assignments, but what should take me less than an hour ends up taking hours. Eventually, my cognition just poops out and I give up. It's a frustrating cycle. Any suggestions?

tldr: Had a really bad pmdd episode during my birthday trip, and my friend (has adhd) saw the absolute worst of it and was affected by it too. I did take accountability for the things I said/did and apologize for the impact it had on her, but I also feel like I needed support during one of the hardest moments I’ve had in a while. She took everything personally, despite my warnings and explanations. Now she’s distant, and I honestly just feel abandoned. Has anyone else been through something similar? Were you able to work through it?

full story if anyone is interested:
so, a few weeks ago i went on a 3 day birthday trip with one of my closest friends and of course it landed right in the middle of my worst pmdd days. i had already been under so much stress before the trip (work, immigration, apartment hunting, barely sleeping, etc.) and i told her beforehand that i was entering my pmdd week and wasnt doing great mentally.
the trip itself just felt like one thing after another. we had a fight the first night because she made a nasty comment that really triggered me and i completely “lost my cool” and yelled at her. i ended up crying for 2 hours straight. i apologized afterwards, we both cried, hugged it out and i thought we had moved past it.
but the rest of the trip i honestly felt like i was in survival mode. there was a lot of rushing around, poor communication (mainly from her, cause i kept telling her where i was at), sensory overload, and i felt like my nervous system was just constantly getting pushed. i kept telling her i was struggling and trying so hard to keep myself together but i just… couldnt. (she has adhd btw, so i’m completely empathetic of her experience of this too)
when we got back she wanted to talk about everything, but i told her i didnt have the bandwidth yet because i was still in pmdd. she said she understood and would give me time. as soon as i got my period and felt like myself again, i called her, but she said she wasnt doing well and didnt want to talk. we’ve texted here and there since, but shes definitely more distant and i have no idea where we stand.
i feel awful that she had to experience that version of me, and i do want to apologize for the impact it had on her. but i also dont know how to apologize for (except for the yelling, even though the rage just took over) something that genuinely felt so out of my control. i warned her beforehand, i explained what was happening while it was happening, and i really was trying my best. i’m trying to be fair to us both, but i feel stuck.