I've always thought I just had a high libido, wrote it off to that...

Until recently I discovered the term PGAD - and now I'm wondering which one (or both?) I'm dealing with.

Weird things about me:

- When having sex, I feel like normal people get satisfied after orgasm, relieved and can relax. With me, once I orgasm, I want MORE immediately. The more my partner tries to satisfy me by giving me multiple orgasms - the more my desire increases. To the point where after the sex session has ended, the arousal lasts for the entire day still. It doesn't go away. There is no satisfaction. If I'm lucky, I'll wake up the next day and it will be gone. But half the time I wake up and its still there for upto 3days afterwards?!?! It's like an "ON" button is just stuck on "ON".

- Same with doing it myself - zero relief, just triggers "ON" button that makes things worse.

- The catch with hypersexuality is that if I'm "OFF" I'm fine. I can even be celibate for a very long time and be totally fine. Problem is that once that "ON" button turns on, it doesn't turn off.

- Not a sex addict. Don't sleep around. Don't have a high body count. Monogamous. 100% in control of that. But when I'm in a relationship, and start having sex... I struggle to stop mentally and physically. (I do stop, like actually do. It's not a problem, because I FORCE myself to be "normal". But inside I am fighting a battle with myself that im never satisfied with)

Does anyone experience similar?

What does this sound like to you?

I'm tired of living every day being so anxious and catastrizing everything and every way the sensations can get worse. I wish I didn't feel arousal at all. I hate not being able to sit for as long I'd like to, my genitals make me sick. I can't even sleep peacefully.

How the hell do people live with this condition???? I also hate how I have OCD with masturbating. And just sexual stuff in general when it comes to myself. All I feel is relentless guilt and shame as my legs tremble.

I keep having dreams of masturbating every night. Most likely because I stress and scare myself over it everyday. Recently, my minds just been telling me, "why don't you masturbate? You know you want to do it! It'll feel good then it'll all go away!" (I think I have OCD.) Haha no. I've been through this so many times before and unfortunately I can't be masturbating anymore because it'll put me into a terrible flare.

Does anyone have any tips to stop these dreams? Like meditation tactics before bed—etc.