I’m posting this because I don’t know if anyone else has experienced what I’m going through.

I’ve done DMT multiple times recently, and instead of having beautiful or enlightening trips like i’ve had, every single one now similarly to my first experience has left me disturbed. Every time I go back into a trip it’s an immediate sense of what have I done, and that i’m realizing I cant go back and i’m understanding some dark truth that I am only my mind. At the same time my mind doubts even that leaving me more lost.

Ever since those trips, I feel like my mind has become completely consumed by consciousness, reality, and existence. It’s not normal curiosity anymore. It’s constant.

The biggest thing is that I’ve become hyperaware of my own consciousness. I can’t stop noticing the fact that I’m aware. Instead of just living my life, it feels like I’m constantly observing myself observing reality. I don’t know how to simply exist anymore.

My mind constantly asks questions like:

Who am I?

Why am I experiencing life from this perspective?

Why am I conscious at all?

How can I know anything is actually real?

How do I know anyone else is conscious?

How do I know my own brain isn’t creating everything?

The terrifying part is that these don’t feel like interesting philosophical questions anymore. They feel like problems my brain absolutely has to solve before I can relax, even though I know they’re impossible to answer with certainty.

My trips put me into a state of feeling like i’m in a psychotic break and that I shouldn’t be there, yet I feel so tempted to go back and finally come to some understanding. I keep tripping now regardless of how bad because it feels like understanding the truth of my mind.

During the DMT trips, I had this overwhelming feeling that I had uncovered some truth I wasn’t supposed to see, and an uncanny sense of being watched. It felt like I had looked behind the curtain and realized something terrible about existence. Since then, I can’t shake the feeling that I opened a door that I can’t close.

Logically, I know I can’t prove any of this. But emotionally, it feels completely convincing.

I also feel like my brain has developed an impossible standard. I feel like I can only trust something if I discover it myself and know it with absolute certainty. The problem is that I don’t think absolute certainty is possible. Every reassurance immediately turns into another doubt. Even if someone gives me a helpful way of thinking, my brain dismisses it because I didn’t come up with it myself. Then I start doubting my own thoughts too. It feels like my mind constantly moves the goalposts, so nothing is ever enough.

I honestly feel jealous of people who can just be present and enjoy life. My internal monologue never shuts off. Even during moments that should be enjoyable, I’m still in my head analyzing consciousness, reality, and existence.

I’ve also used methamphetamine for 3 months and weed regularly. I’m fully aware those may be contributing to what I’m experiencing. I’m not trying to pretend DMT is the only factor here. I’m also scheduling a psychiatric evaluation because this has become overwhelming.

I guess what I’m wanting to ask is:

Has anyone experienced something similar after DMT?

Did it eventually get better?

Did you eventually stop feeling trapped inside your own consciousness?

Right now my brain keeps telling me this is permanent—that I learned something I can never unknow—and that’s the part that’s scaring me the most. I genuinely don’t think I’ll ever be at peace and I feel totally alone and misunderstood. It’s impossible for me to put clearly into words what i’m feeling and the weight of it.

I’m not looking for someone to tell me the secrets of the universe. I just want to know if anyone else has been in a place like this and eventually got their life back

Hello, been trying to find a proper all in one device for break through solo. Do not want to use a torch solo for obvious reasons. Heard good things about devices like this..Any advice or recommendations would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you :)

I have had a calling to psychedelics for a long time. Since I was about 12 I think when I watched Bruce Parry consume ibogaine with natives in their traditional ceremony. DMT has long interested me but I came to psychedelics quite late, in my mid 30s. I have had several trips on mushrooms and lsd and had ups and downs. I’ve not had an ego death and the most mushrooms I have had is 3g and acid a 250ug tab. Some were very strong and slowed down my willingness to proceed to the big time. I have done some reflecting though and the calling is back. I have a friend who can get hold of it and has offered to sit for me. I’d like to know if anyone has any advice on how to work towards it or perhaps if I should just relax and let everything happen as and when it does?

First time trying it. Made a tea out of Syrian Rue by boiling 3 grams of seeds for about 15 minutes or so, then drinking it with an excessive amount of coffee creamer. The taste was pretty inoffensive with the added creamer, but the plain seed water was quite bitter.

First impressions was "Woaaaaah"

It feels very different. Much slower and a lot more gentle. The colors also feel brighter and more lighthearted maybe? Though that could just be my headspace lol

It also feels a lot more functional. Being able to function, walk, talk, and eventually - swim, all with cartooney visuals was very interesting and fun.

I did go swimming with a nice little low dose. Im with a sober friend lol so im not too worried about drowning or anything.

Anyways, I've just been experimenting with low doses. I plan to go deeper whenever pool time is over 😎👌

I had a wonderful revelation last night, or you could say I was shown something. I think, deep down, we all already know this, but it’s one of those things that sometimes needs to be put into perspective for us to truly understand and practice it.

I hit my cart last night and found myself within a small dome. Suddenly, the top of the dome was peeled back to reveal a never-ending universe. The dome itself looked almost like a Fabergé egg. As the top opened and everything began spilling out, I received this beautiful message:

‘Nothing matters! You’re stressing about bills, jobs, and relationships? Those things truly don’t matter because, at the end of the day, at the end of this life, everything will be okay. You’re on your path, and stressing does nothing. There’s so much more to life than this little dome you think you’re stuck inside. The lid comes off. Remember that.’

And it wasn’t a depressing kind of ‘nothing matters.’ It was the kind of ‘nothing matters’ that makes you appreciate even the smallest things in life. It’s something I feel like I already knew but needed to hear, especially because I’ve been stressing over things like bills, finding a new job, and my housing situation.

Yes, at the end of the day, we’re all living within this matrix, and we don’t really have a choice but to participate in the reality we live in. We have bills to pay. We have to work. We have families to take care of. But there’s no reason to add unnecessary stress on top of it all. Stress doesn’t help. It only weighs you down.

Just keep moving forward. The lid comes off. Remember that.

I’m just out of a session doing Changa and I kind of don’t have anyone to voice my experience to so this is kinda an emotional dump and being curious for others experiences with DMT.

I have a sweet spot on Changa where I get to this really emotional place. Reality and my perception starts to distort (in the way only DMT can cause) and I’m hit with this overwhelming sense of “WOW” is the only way I can describe it. It’s like pure bliss or gratitude or something but VERY loving and positive. I cried happy tears several times in that space tonight.

I don’t push myself with it to hard, I like my little sweet spot there, it feels very loving…but then I thought I would take a reasonable sized pipe whilst in that place and hollyyyy shit!!! I found myself starting to panic and had to work really hard to lean into it…I felt like I was clinging on for dear life. I felt as if I was completely dissolving and my mind was trying its absolute hardest to cling on to random thoughts…my work, have I taken to much, what if I forget to breath….and everything started to look like some kind of mad cartoon, it was pretty wild.

I have been to that point before but really struggle to push myself past it….its like I’m right in the edge of a breakthrough and I loose the bottle, then revert back to my safe, loving WOW place (as I like it there 😂)

Now that i hear myself saying all that, it all just seems to be a bit of a blur….. damn.!!!

Last night was my third time having a notable DMT experience. I fully felt an entity or presence enter my body. Once I accepted the experience and just let her in, I immediately felt my entire body vibrating from every single point - from the top of my head to the tip of my pinkie toe.

Then she settled in and started to show me calming vibrations and what different emotions felt like in my body followed by my seeing the rest of life flash in front of me, and I saw it all and felt it all and every emotion possible in my body I would ever feel.

It was insane. But so beautifully calming and serene. As I started to come down, there was this oval shape in the middle of my chest that felt warm. I knew that entity or presence was still there and she’ll be here forever. It’s not a scary feeling, it’s very comforting. It almost feels as though my body met and saw my soul and they rejoined.

Has anyone else felt or experience something similar? Have you ever heard of anyone else having a similar experience entering their body?

Many people who have done nn dmt in this sub have said the absolute soul shattering lonely feeling of being god. My friend also did a sub breakthrough dose and he felt very alone.

Now everytime I’ve done dmt it was sub breakthrough and everytime I hit the point of enough mental walls breaking down that it convinced me in a embodying way that everything is me and I am everything, to the point that there was no "other" to be lonely for. It was the most freeing and happy and thrilling feeling I could never have imagined.

If god is everything then there is ultimately no "other" to care for, be lonely for, be sad or happy for.. you ARE the "other" you’re feeling lonely for, and have not seen or realized it. The experience very much seems to transcend the lonely god feeling and it goes from something unknown or sort of closed in to when realizing that you are the other, expand Infinitely with nothing closing us in and it’s just all good, all positive.

Of course I’m not saying this is the ultimate truth but in a non dual way this is it and I hope it can help you guys who are suffering through the lonely god experience. <3

Just made a 1:1 for the first time and it went so thick as soon as I took it off the heat, got most of it in but lost about 1/5 of it 😭 are ya’ll just speedy mofos or you got some better syringes maybe??

If I smoke DMT first than eat shrooms will the shrooms trip me or I will waste them ?

I tried DMT using a glass pipe. I didn't know what to expect from the experience, and I can't quite put into words what I'm feeling, but colors look much more vivid, and I feel in control of every movement I make. I didn't manage to have a breakthrough because the taste isn't great and my stomach feels a bit heavy. It’s been 20 minutes, and I’ve mostly focused on the view outside my window since I can't bring myself to close my eyes. I watched the clouds "dissolve" and the sky turn an increasingly deep blue. Even though I didn't have the experience I expected (seeing or speaking to entities), I feel like I’ve already gained a lot; for a while, I felt closer to the things I love, and the heavy burden I often carry—not knowing what to do with my life—seems to have vanished. After 10 minutes (my experience lasted 25), I turned toward my trip-sitter and saw his face change shape—not much, but I’m very detail-oriented, and something about him no longer seemed like him, even though I knew it was him. Honestly, I don't know if I want to smoke any more right now, but that’s okay. Any advice?

Im doing my extraction right now. My MHRB seems to be mixing with my naphta to create a brown goo. In the tutorial im using jt doesn't say anything about that, and it shows them being seperated the whole time. Am i doing something wrong?

It's been over a year since I started being more careful with DMT.

On May 20, 2025, I had an experience of unmatched intensity.

I'm no beginner with DMT – I've been studying, using, and meditating on what I've received since 2016.

During a phase where I'd committed to taking my first steps into learning how to dance, I decided to use a small amount one morning – around 5–10mg.

The thing is, I was completely taken over by the trip. A kind of cosmic dancer showed me every step, every movement, every axis, every rhythm in existence – with an intensity that kept building, faster and faster, more and more accelerated. It felt like I'd been plugged into one of those machines from The Matrix, downloading everything at once.

I remember starting to beg for it to slow down, because my mind was at its absolute limit with the unrelenting flood of information – you feel like your head is about to explode. There was also an indescribable sound that kept speeding up and slowing down.

After the trip, once I was finally able to stand up again, everything was different. The shapes of things – the objects in my room, in the kitchen – were reduced to basic forms, as if the whole world had turned extremely minimalist.

The way I moved changed instantly. Everything was rhythmic – 1-2-3 – light as a feather, lol.

The trip itself lasted no more than 10 minutes, and the after-effects maybe 30. But after that, something had shifted. It was as if I'd unlocked an ability.

I'm still learning dance at a normal pace – I didn't suddenly get better overnight. But I think I unlocked the capacity to learn, which feels significant given how rigid I've always been – the typical guy whose only physical background was weightlifting.

The experience was so intense that I've never had the courage to go 100% again. I stick to minimal doses now, and I'm extra careful with the lighter, lol.

That's my report – just wanted to share it, friends.

Thanks for reading.

I won a cart from a giveaway on onions. When it got here I took a big rip and it felt magical, I’ve been doing it for 2 days and have tripped on shrooms while doing it. It’s not hitting at all now I thought you could do it with no tolorance am I wrong?

It seems fun but I also hear a lot of bad about it. Also what’s the most effective way to consume it

I’m very new to DMT and I’ve only ever done LSD but recently I just got a DMT cart and I’m very curious on whether or not I can smoke DMT by myself in a dark room and not freak out?

Sooooo me personally I’ve been extracting perfection for a solid decade now, white as snow sand consistency deemzters,, As years pass I look around and I see a heavy amount of yellow/orange dmt, now I’m not knocking yellow deemz but when I see yellow I automatically think “rushed process”,, DMT was never made to be a rushed process or to make a quick buck which sadly it’s turning into,, More commercialized it gets the more control comes over it while pushing mid rushed quality,, When I extract I take my SWEET SWEET time, I’m breaking down the bark with my bare hands then using a coffee grinder to get the rest, something about breaking down the bark you get a connection with the bark,, I also will mix and shake my lye/bark/water mix for an easy 2-3 days to get the most yield,, I’ll also warm bath on the stove for a couple days easy(lightly shaking with naphtha/lye/bark/mix every half hour for those couple days, then I’ll freeze for an easy couple days, then fridge for a day, then fan for a day, and WALAAAA perfection!! Remember it’s not a wiener competition on who can do it the fastest, so do it properly and you will get rewarded, rush the process and have janky deemzters ⚡️🤷🏼‍♂️👽

Thought Ill share this generative art here.

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Is there anyone who has a chronic migraine (with aura) and has taken DMT? Because having aura migraines means the visual cortex is very sensitive and it often undergoes cortical spreading depression causing those zigzaggy lines.

I just wonder what would happen if I take it, because I haven't heard of someone with that condition taking it

Getting a dmt cart and want to try just taking small rips cuz I saw something about dmt micro dosing and I’m curious if anyone has experience with it

From a recent trip where orange was the main colour dominating my experience.

I’m about to get my hands on 2g of freebase powder and I want to have my first breakthrough I’ve messed around with dmt before but to no avail, I’ve decided the best way for me to do this is with a vape and homemade liquid

Have been looking at the geekvape aegis 3 solo, I understand the 0.4ohm coils will be the better choice, I need some help with the liquid choice

Supposedly 70/30 is best liquid for this vape but is that okay to mix the dmt with? And how much of said liquid would I mix with how much dmt? Completely new to this kind of dmt experience but it’s the ideal choice for me, any help would be greatly appreciated or if anyone has any suggestions