What do you do to remind yourself of the reason for the commitment? Attachment to items, a particular song, a hobby, etc…

Family, education, reliability, Cooking and going to the gym, the swatch, XXX music playlist, and my adidas sambas motivate me to remain committed and to follow through and wake up in the morning. Some days I feel like my brain is absolutely shot and then 15 minutes later after some laser focus everything is great knowing that I’m the absolute captain of this computer we have in our heads that we should be maintaining.

When I was about 17 or 18 years old, I met a bunch of “straight edge“ people in the scene who turned out to not be edge at all, and it lasted about two months for me before I separated myself. I am now in my 30s and have a newfound understanding of straight edge. Since then I’ve battled with addiction with alcohol and have been sober for a few years now and have decided to claim edge based on the principal it actually means something to me now as opposed to when I was a kid trying to “fit in” for a couple months I know a lot of folks would have mixed opinions on this. I do have quite a large amount of edge friends who have been nothing but supportive and encouraging of me claiming edge again

I have bouts of depressive episodes, and I will have days where i don’t want to be awake. I’ll take 7-8 melatonin and sleep for about 10 hours and wake up and take more to go back to sleep. I’ve been sober for 6 months now and have been pretty good about doing this kind of thing. It was definitely prevalent when i was homeless sleeping on a couch. But i am curious if yall would consider behavior like this breaking edge? I guess it could be seen as like “escapism” because you’re using a medication to skip the day. I guess the only difference between booze is that you’re awake as with this you’re asleep. Also don’t do this! The rebound insomnia isn’t worth it.