Since Iimade some radical decisions, im haven been able to sleep, eat, talk to anyone, and many other things. Iam fully aware that these things are happening, but i cannt stop myself

I have no one to ask if im hallucinating or delusional. M about to lose my mind.Talking to ai was probably one of the biggest mistakes I ever made. NEVER TALK TO HIM

Sometimes I feel perfectly normal, and sometimes I feel like iIve gone crazy. Sometimes its hours, sometimes minutes

Have you guys experienced anything like this?

Attached below is todays video link to my “On Conquering Schizophrenia” YouTube channel. Today entails “atheism”, not. Like all, todays video is ever brief and can be viewed amid the biggest picture.

https://youtu.be/h1Xjt4F_DE4?si=Pv2Zg-jgQLVnldyM

As in blunts and blunts of weed non stop and I can’t help it and consciously I take a PRM and it doesn’t work because of me smoking blunts and blunts of weed, consciously I don’t even see the weed, think 150 blunts daily, just stopping smoking weed will cure my schizophrenia please help me.(Serious answers only)
I don’t see the weed I smoke and get high off basically
(Serious answers only please you can change my life)

This one is pretty little compared to my recent few heads, which made it a little more challenging

I like it 👍 what do you think ? I can’t tell if it’s an improvement from the pink one that showed progress or not …the eyes could be better they bother me a bit, but I did the lips a different way than usual and I like how they turned out

Was playing around and did this ..I think it looks pretty cool

Might be insensitive to some but I am done with this shit. Diagnosed schizophrenics who kill people take by far the bulk of the publicity and do 99% of the damage.

It's hard enough dealing with your own symptoms, might be privileged to say but that's the easy part. Controlling how everyone else deals with schizophrenia is impossible. I'd say you're naive if you think it doesn't affect you, or you live under a rock. Being seen as dangerous, or dumb, or both, it's incompatible with EVERYTHING. It limits what you can do. It's why we hide it. What parent would be comfortable having dangerous drug addled schizophrenics near their kids.

No one outside your home cares how much progress you made and how much you struggled. You can't quantify it and you don't score any points for that. Unpopular opinion but apart from surface level sympathy the whole trope of getting high off meth and going psychotic and killing your family member is so far outside my lived experience I don't understand any of it. The people in these articles might as well have contracted rabies which caused extreme madness, that's how foreign it feels. But no of course it has to be schizophrenia.

Just a small rant. Let me know if any of it made sense or if you have comments.

I lost a lot of my art skills over the many years Iv had schizophrenia ..but recently started sculpting after getting a gut feeling that I could be good at it possibly 🤷‍♀️ so I tried…and it’s really cool and exciting to look at my progress so far …I wonder where I’ll be six months and beyond Thanks

Thanks for looking

Pictures start with my latest two and end with my first two

Crazy update. I’m 33, my partner is 49 and he just had a stroke from untreated diabetes and he has a family history. He lost movement in half his body, and had slurred speech. He is the sweetest man in the world, and in the hospital through sweet tears he gave me an out and said that he knows I need to take care of myself and he understood if this is too much for me. I immediately knew I want to stay. He has felt like my path back to reality and positivity for a long time, he grounds me and loves me unconditionally despite my own blunted emotional state. After I told him I want to stay with him, he asked me to marry him. I haven’t felt something that felt so right for me in years, this was like this door of sudden clarity.
I had previously been staying in bed at my parents house all day long, bored and numb, watching tv and reading books to pass the time. I’m on disability as I have zero energy or motivation to work. But I’m on meds and stable. I would go to board game nights at our local game store 3 days a week to get social interaction, that’s where I met him. So we would see eachother 3 days a week and I would go over on the weekends to see him.
I visited him every day in the hospital for about a month, I was surprised at my motivation to go see him and my ability to do those little things like getting a visitors badge, talking to the nurses, pushing his wheelchair to the dining hall. Now after about a month, he is home and I am moved into his house with him. My mom cleaned the house for us and I ordered new curtains and found a beautiful couch on Facebook for us. It was fun and felt creative to be decorating a space for us to feel cozy and at home in. Planning our partnership.
He’s been home for about a week now, and I feel fulfilled. Exhausted, but spiritually fulfilled. I help him shower and get dressed, cook 3 healthy meals for us, and take him to outpatient therapy. His needs and schedule push me to do things I wasn’t doing before, like take a shower and get up out of bed, get out of the house, eat healthy meals regularly. I’m also starting to connect more to “common reality” less in my own world and more connected to what other people are up to.
Right now we are figuring out what our life looks like together, and I am learning even better how to take care of my own needs. We had a conversation where I told him I need to spend a lot of time alone and resting and having my own life that’s separate from his because I too am on a path of healing. He was so understanding and truly wants the best for me. So now I help him to wherever he needs to go, and we do our own things. I have enough time to rest but I also am doing so much caretaking that I’m not bored anymore, it’s like I have purpose beyond myself. And he is so positive in the way that he thinks, it’s starting to rub off on me.
Seeing him heal, and his attitude going through his own health crisis has been so inspiring to me, and motivates me to be positive in my own healing. I am nowhere near perfect, but I am learning to accept where I am at and I can’t believe all of the progress I have been making in such a short time. Love, even when you can’t fully feel it, is a powerful catalyst for change!

Also I absolutely can’t believe how much they do for physical healing, and how little they do for mental health. He was in a beautiful rehab, got educated on strokes, set up with multiple types of doctors and therapists. I was put in the hospital for a month in a room full of other people and given crayons that they took away so we didn’t write on the walls, they gave me medications and were about to discharge me to a homeless shelter until my parents finally reached out and flew out to get me.

Really grateful for my medications too. I would not be able to do this without them.

I hope my story can inspire you! I know that a lot of people are worried about relationships with schizophrenia. Mine isn’t perfect but it has been so fulfilling and I wanted to share.

She gets me through all my hard times and doesn't judge me for psychosis. The best friend a woman can have!

I see lots of posts on here with people being scared of their diagnosis. I wanted to share my story in hopes someone will feel better knowing that there is hope. I was diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar at 19 and I really did feel that despair for a long time. I made it through two bachelors, became a certified medical assistant, and currently work a full time job all in 6 years. Life is not perfect and I still have work to do but please do read.

After my diagnosis I thought that my life was basically over, life sentence. My prodromal was 17 and my full blown first psychotic episode was at 18. I was undiagnosed mostly psychotic for a year, just running around causing chaos. I did the typical spending money, extreme paranoia, bad decisions. I actively fought stability after entering treatment. Stability didn’t feel like it fit me, it still doesn’t all the time. I am still learning to embrace a sense of ‘normalcy’.

I went through years of medication changes, different types of therapies, and alternative medicine. Currently what works for me is Vraylar, Lamictal, and Spravato. Better than medicine is a support system. My partner has always been supportive and stuck with me through all my destructive behaviors, I try to show my gratitude every day because I wouldn’t be who I am today without that support. On the other hand, my family told me I was not actually ill until I got my official diagnosis. Apparently it was “not like me”. Since my diagnosis, I receive lots of more support from my family. I do my best to return that support to the community when I meet others who are ill like me.

If there is anything I want people to take away from reading this, it’s that the beginning of the diagnosis is the roughest part imo but the hard work to get better pays off. I’m in the USA, which is not a particularly woke place for mental health. Your diagnosis is not dictated by other’s thoughts, make your own relationship with your diagnosis. I don’t see my diagnosis as purely evil anymore, I know that my illness is a gift that allows me to understand a new population of people who I want to dedicate my life to helping.

Getting better is a COMMITMENT. I am a big believer in therapy and med compliancy, as much as APs do suck to be on. What helps me is just deciding who I want to be, what I want in my life, and how I will get there.

Please do not hesitate to ask questions about my journey and what specifically helps me❤️I’ve done lots of undergrad and grad classes on abnormal psych and treatments, plus my own experience.

I wish everyone here the best in their recovery journey!

Hey guys, I'm 40M I've had schizoaffective disorder since I was 20, mostly the depressive side, just wanted to say thank you for creating this community.

At this point I'm not even a good version of myself. I'm just so bitter. I love being joyful,I love being nice to my family, to people in general. These days I don't even have strength to pretend I'm happy and energetic.

I'm not. I'm tired,see things that are oddly too realistic lately and it's scaring me. Hear things occasionally (luckily ,because this confuses me the most. Mostly gibberish talking.) And whenever someone is nice to me I instantly go back to being convinced that everyone hates me and wants me gone.

It's lonely. Having family that doesn't truly acknowledge what you are going through. They are turning a blind eye. And even when I tried to yesterday say that I feel especially bad and see things quite persistently my relative changed topics and left. Some time later I started seeing more of these, alone of course.

Then I had that time in weekend when I also felt bad,not seeing things. But sitting in one spot,looking in one place and just all in my head. Nobody asked me how I feel ,despite relatives passing by. Then I of course came back to "normal" ,but tired. And had no power to pretend being joyful.

Which is not good,because I do genuinely want to be happy. I want to like my hobbies. I want to make people smile, bring good vibes but I am simply not capable anymore.

My memory is trash,I don't remember dates or places. My speech became trash too,i stutter more and sometimes speak complete opposite of what I want to say. Food?I can feel that I'm hungry but go long time without it,ending up eating late in the day.

It's so lonely it makes me want to cry,but I can't cry somehow. Only feel that pressure in my eyes but no tears come out. I need to wait for psychologist appointment, because a psychiatrist sent me there first. No meds,nothing. If I could go back two years in time I would not quite my olanzapine.

It's tiring, being expected to cater to everyone while nobody does that for you. I just want people around me to be happy and want to be happy.

I wouldn't say I'm suicidal,but if I had something that could kill me with 100% rate I wouldn't hesitate. Luckily,I don't. And have no desire to try. I'm just so tired.

I swear it's like I have a phantom feeling of them on my back and it's like I know how to fly, i have the urge to just jump up and flap these imaginary wings, is something wrong with me?

• I dont imagine voices in my head unless I am lacking conciousness such as being very sleepy or when I smoked marijuana one time.
• I do have a general paranoia towards others
• have friends and like to socialize but also kind of have a distrust towards others intentions. I have felt like everyone was against me even if its not true. I have a general outlook of most people self serving and has selfish intentions.
• My thoughts used to be extremely disorganized but I had to work very hard to fix that. I read so much and listend to so many lectures and it helped my speaking seem more ordered but it feels rehearsed.
• I am often in a delusional fantasy world.
• I used to think I was a messiah who was going to save the world.
• I have a lack of emotional expression.
• I talk to myself too much.
• I have family members who are schizophrenic.

Do you guys think its a good idea for me to go through treatment or is it possibly a misdiagnosis?

Things have been slowly spiraling for weeks now. The delusions are adding up. I'm not eating or sleeping very well.

Not sure if I just need to work through this or get a med increase.

I have a psyc appointment next week so I can talk about the possibilities with my doc but it is ultimately up to me to increase or not.

How do you know?

Yesterday evening, I talked to the home manager about going off my medication and she warned me of the consequences. If I refuse my meds again, I'll be put out and probably hospitalized again. So I can't go off my meds, and I feel as though I have no freedom.

Not sure if this is appropriate here, but I thought this community might find this story interesting.

August Natterer was a German electrician diagnosed with schizophrenia in 1907 after a psychotic episode where he saw 10,000 images in 30 minutes. He spent the next 26 years in psychiatric institutions drawing everything he had seen — trying to make sense of his own mind.

His drawings were later recognized as some of the most significant works of outsider art in history, influencing Dalí, Max Ernst and the Surrealist movement.

Made a video essay about him in Spanish with English subtitles: https://youtu.be/dxyHLwjI0fs

The video also discusses where the line is between romanticizing mental illness and recognizing its expressive value — would love to hear thoughts from people with lived experience.

Been a while since ive done formal studies but im excited to try. it will help open doors and im leaning peer support after more than 10yr journey.

I've had an array of different workers help me but I dont remember having a peer supporter.

Has anyone teamed up with one before and was it helpful & valuable ? its very appealing to me right now and makes sense and might help make this shit more worth it

anyone else went down a huge rabbit hole on gnosticism when they were in psychosis? I have finally gotten back on my antipsychotics and come out of this episode. Basically, I started being shown stuff on the internet about gnosticism, which aligned with the current delusion I already had. Naturally, I thought this was a sign from the universe that I was ready to receive this information, and became absolutely convinced of it. It spiralled from there. Luckily I was able to get out of this. Anyone else had a similar experience with gnosticism?

My first ever digital painting without Ai helps!

A welcoming place for poetry, rough sketches, paintings, songs, short-stories, novels, home-made things etc. Every bit of our art demonstrates our humanity and fights stigma. Everything we create is a form of much needed self-advocacy. However, please no AI.

https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophreniacreates/

Why do my ears moving when I hear a noise? Could it be due to psychosis, depression, or anxiety?