i just started my first office job, it’s been a week and one day. everyone’s super lovely and kind, i can’t complain about the people at all. i’ve not had one bad experience with anyone so far.
however, im really struggling to fit in. i normally have quite a bubbly personality but i feel like ive become such a weirdo with zero personality since working here.
everyone’s incredibly extroverted, and they’re all very close to each other. i find it hard to join in or engage in the conversations because they’re either talking about something i don’t know about or there’s no pause in the conversation so i can’t get a word in. i’m also quite soft spoken compared to them, so a lot of the times when i do speak they struggle to even hear me.
i do much better in one to one conversations but i still find it difficult to keep the conversation going, i just don’t know what to say. i’m not normally like this, i usually have lots to say and don’t usually struggle this much to talk to people so idk what’s going on with me or why im being so weird.
i’m just struggling in general with the social side of things :( again, everyone’s super nice so it must be a me thing, but idk why im being like this? i just don’t feel like me. i tell myself every morning today im just going to be me and its going to be a good day and ill be perfectly fine all the way until i step into the office, then its like somethings possessed me and all personality has exited the building.