I am 21 year old currently in engineering college, but still I feel lonely , alone and anxious , what can I do , I do not have anyone to share my experiences , are there any support groups that I can join ,any therapy which is inexpensive

So I recently had a breakup with my girlfriend for whatever reasons, i don't wanna go into that, but I was so much invested in her that she was everything for me, my friend, my bestfriend, my sibling everything nd I never felt need of anyone else when she was there nd i thought she'd be there forever cuz we both were so much serious about it. But we parted ways nd she did maintained friendships with her frnds but I had no one to even share nd I've no one now. 1st month was so tough nd i wasn't even sane but now that time has passed a bit nd I'm trying to move on I have literally no one to talk to nd I'm still pretty much exhausted to build relations with people again it's just so frustrating that I want someone to be with me but I don't have enough energy to go and approach people....

hey everyone. i hope everyone is doing well. i'm really struggling with my life, for as long as i can remember. i need help. i'm gonna turn 19 in October and could use some advice on how to survive and live a nice healthy life i guess, i'm gonna list some things i need help on later on, but i think i should give everyone a little context. i grew up with very emotionally distant parents and have no father anymore (it happened 8 years ago so it's okay) my mother is very emotionally absent and used to get abusive but that doesn't matter now. she is really strict and controlling to the point i have to SH just to get the anger out and not feel helpless. it's gotten really less now but i sometimes still need to otherwise i get really bad suicidal urges. anyways, since i was 14-15 i have been depressed, on and off, some months are good some months are terrible, i do have a career path and goals but i don't know how to carry it out, for example,

1. \*\*ROUTINE:\*\* i really struggle with keeping a consistent routine, i am 3rd class obese and have PMOS, but i cannot maintain a diet and go to the gym consistently for the life of me, i cannot even go to my coaching or college unless it is really urgent. i don't know how to study, there are times i go without showering and brushing i know it sounds really gross and i feel like it too, but i just get really depressed at times. i want to know how to have a proper routine what should you do, what not should you do, because i genuinely know nothing.

2. \*\*HYGIENE\*\*: i don't know how to shower properly and maintain good hygiene, i mean it's not that i stink but then again i just don't have a routine and don't know what i'm supposed to do, how to wax, how many times a month, exfoliating, cleansing, face masks, skincare, zero. i know zero. i just keep winging it and i don't get any results ever but that's my fault.

3. this is unrelated but i don't know what i'm supposed to do ahead in life, like as in when you step in your 20's, 30's, 40's you're supposed to take supplements, protein, retinal etc. etc. i know for a fact no one will tell me because my cousins are not really close and all other women in my family don't use any "beauty products" cause it's bad i mean i know it is but they call taking protein stupid which is very important so idk, plus i don't like most of them.

I request, please don't skip this post, I've been stuck for so long and need an elder sister or a figure alike to help me because i don't know what to do with all this pain inside of me, i want to fight and make it out but i just don't know how. Please help me, I would be eternally grateful to you.

i’m so tired of trying to make friends and all of them going to shit. all i have ever asked of my friends is that they communicate with me when they have a problem with me. they promise me that they will. they never do. then they build up resentment for me and leave. i don’t know what more i should be doing. i do my best to be receptive, i make sure to never invalidate their feelings regardless of how i feel, i always encourage them to tell me if they take issue with or disagree with something i say (and I emphasize that it’s because I genuinely care about what they have to say, not just because i want to hear that i’m right). so many of my friendships have been like this and i’m so tired.

i’m so fucking lonely and i want to make new friends but on top of the fact that i just have a difficult time making friends in the first place (i’m autistic and always having to mask around strangers, which makes talking to new people very exhausting for me), i feel like making new friends is just asking to be hated again. i’m so tired of this same cycle. i don’t feel like i can trust anymore. i had a friend group a couple of months ago that i had been feeling insecure in, and despite the fact that i tried to communicate and tried to work through my own worries and doubts and insecurities, it turned out even worse than i could have imagined (i’m not even upset that they had issues with me, i’m just upset that none of these issues were brought to my attention until it was too late for me to try and make amends). and it’s just going to happen again if i make new friends. as much as it sucks seeing everyone else have really close friends and friend groups, it’s either this or make new friends and be constantly paranoid and insecure and convinced that they secretly hate me (because at this point, all of my friendships have just gone to show me that they’re just going to secretly hate you until they decide to fucking leave).

i’m not the perfect person or friend. i can own up to that. but i at least try.

i can’t do anything about it anymore. i mean i can but it just really doesn’t feel like there’s a point. it’s just really fucking pathetic that i’m only safe when i’m alone in my room.