So I went to the Hard Rock Casino on vacation and I tried out blackjack for the first time. I’d known how to play it all my life, but this was the first time I played it for real, at a real casino. I lost $200 over the span of three nights because I was playing low stakes, but it was all I could think about for those three days — I didn’t even want to do the normal vacation stuff, like the beach and such, that me and my wife went there to do primarily.
Anyway, the vacation ended and we went home. I never really thought about casinos since, as the nearest one to my house is about an hour and a half away. But last weekend I decided me and my wife would go and play some games. I was only planning on going Friday night after I got off work, but long story short, I went every day last weekend — Friday through Sunday — driving the hour-and-a-half drive each time to go play blackjack. I ended up around $500 over the course of the weekend.
Anyway, now I’m back to my regular work life, and I literally can’t stop thinking about blackjack at the casino. It’s gotten to the point where all I want to do is play blackjack. I’m finding myself jittery, thinking about next weekend and going to play again.
Obviously I’m not stupid — I know this isn’t a good thing. I know the rabbit hole I’m going down, and it’s honestly a little scary looking at it objectively. I know that in the long run, I will screw myself over. But honestly, I don’t know what to do about it. I’m absolutely addicted, hands down. What should I do?