r/academia • u/No_Adeptness2738 • 3h ago
Started a good postdoc but deeply regret the location. What should I do?
I recently finished a PhD in a mathematically heavy engineering field, primarily control theory and applied mathematics, at a California university. I had a productive PhD, with several first-author papers in strong journals that I led essentially independently.
When choosing a postdoc, I had two main options.
One was in the San Diego area and involved two extremely prominent senior researchers. I had heard some concerning things about working with one of them, while the other seemed potentially excellent. The proposed project may (emphasis on \*\*may\*\*) have been driven primarily by the first person. It was somewhat adjacent to control theory but would still have represented a pivot into another field, with me mainly contributing mathematical modeling.
The second option was with a very kind and supportive tenured professor at a highly prestigious university in the Bay Area. The PI is not an enormous name in the way the San Diego researchers are, but is well respected. This project was also a pivot away from control theory, again with me primarily serving as the mathematical/modeling person.
I chose the Bay Area position and started about a month ago.
So far, I like the PI and find the research interesting. The problem is that I deeply dislike living in the Bay Area. I do not feel at home here, I dislike the general environment, and I miss Southern California much more intensely than I expected. I increasingly feel that choosing this position may have been a major personal mistake.
The postdoc could realistically take at least two or three years, and possibly longer. The San Diego opportunity might have been shorter, although obviously I cannot know how it would actually have developed.
This experience has made me realize that although I genuinely love research (especially fundamental research) the place where I live and my broader quality of life may matter more to me than institutional prestige or the ideal academic trajectory. Southern California feels like home.
I also just turned 33 and feel that the next few years are personally important. The idea of spending several of them somewhere I strongly dislike is making me feel increasingly depressed and trapped.
What would you do in this situation?