Hi everyone. I’m hoping to get some perspective from this community because I’m struggling to figure out if this is normal ultrarunning burnout, accumulated fatigue, or something else.
I’m a 33-year-old female runner training for my first 12-hour ultramarathon at the end of August. My goal is to run 50 miles, and when I signed up for this race, I was genuinely excited. I wanted the challenge and I wanted to see what I could do.
The confusing part is that I don’t feel like I’m physically failing.
My training volume has actually been really strong. My normal mileage is around 65–70 miles per week, but recently I’ve been averaging closer to 75 miles/week. This week I hit 77 miles.
Today was supposed to be my 20-mile long run.
I stopped at 15.
About two miles into the run, I started dry heaving (I think from taking in too much salt before I started). After that passed, my body actually felt okay. My legs felt good. Physically, I probably could have kept going.
But mentally, I was completely checked out.
And that’s the part that is bothering me.
This is the third week in a row that I’ve cut my long run short. The first two weeks had understandable reasons (weather and other circumstances). Today was different.
Today was purely mental.
The last year has been a lot. I was diagnosed with hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (hEDS), on top of managing ankylosing spondylitis. I’ve spent so much time dealing with appointments, imaging, PT, learning how my body works now, managing joint instability and symptoms, and trying to figure out how to keep doing the sport I love.
Then I had another major setback: I fractured my second metatarsal and was unable to run for 3.5 months. Losing running during that time was incredibly difficult mentally because it’s such a huge part of my life and identity.
I was also supposed to run the London Marathon, and due to everything going on, that didn’t happen. Instead of really processing that disappointment, I got back to running, trained for Flat Rock in June, and then moved directly into training for this 12-hour ultra.
Looking back, I don’t think I ever really recovered mentally.
I think I’m burned out.
Not because I don’t love running. I do.
The weird thing is, I still have moments where the excitement is there. I’m actually really excited about the upcoming Falmouth Road Race and genuinely think I can beat my time from last year. That race has given me a spark that I haven’t felt with my ultra training lately.
I also realized recently that I’m lonelier than I thought. One of my closest running friends recently had a baby, so we haven’t been able to run together for over a month. Those runs weren’t just miles. They were connection, laughter, accountability, and something I looked forward to every week.
Without that, running has started feeling much more like a task.
I think what scares me is that I’m usually the person who pushes through. I’ve run marathons, chased big goals, and finished hard things. So stopping at 15 miles feels very unlike me.
I’m not looking for someone to tell me to quit. I still want this goal. I still want to see what I can do at my 12-hour race.
I’m just trying to figure out how to find the spark again.
For those of you who have trained for ultras, especially while dealing with injury, chronic illness, or major life stress:
- Have you ever had a period where your body was capable, but your brain just said “nope”?
- How do you know when you need to push through versus when you need a reset?
- Did you change your training, take a break, find new motivation, run with others, or just keep showing up until it came back?
I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who has been through something similar.
Thanks for reading. ❤️