Reddit says it's been 5 months since my last post.
Finally... I'm starting to see some progress. I have been using a foil trimmer for quite some time on my head. Before that I had made quite a large thin spot that basically covers the entirety of the top of my head. Finally... It's starting to fill in.
I rate everything on a 1-100 scale of loss of control. 100 being the worst = Pulled a long time and didn't try to stop>
Stats since my last post:
January - was a bad month. 7 times on head. High loss of control on average. Started pulling eye lashes for some reason. 2 - 100 days. 1 - 75 day, 2 - 50 days.
February - was better. Less loss of control over all. Pulled 5 times. Two were 75+ rest were less than 20
March - 7 days total. 4 were over 80. Rest were less than 30
April - 5 days total. 2 were... Hahaha 150. Not a typo. 1 - 50. 1 - 20
May - 3 days total. All less than 15. My first win.
June - 2 days total. 1 - 50 and 1 - 5. That's what I'm talking about!
So I'm making progress. I track all of this on a printed out calendar. I don't go too much into detail, but I can see pretty much all the pulling is on the weekends when I'm too lazy to cut my hair. 15 of the total says are Sundays. 7 are Saturdays. There's a trend. Days when I'm idle. Nothing any of us didn't know, though. But now I very clearly see what to fix.
Cut the hair no matter what on the mornings on weekends.
I still have a lot to work on. But I feel and see - both on paper and on my head - the very slow but steady progress. I still have a lot of ground to cover but I'm hoping to grow my hair out this winter. I'm also telling people I'm going to as motivation. None of them know I pull, obviously lololol ffffriiicckkkkkk. Just think of running my hand through my hair and people telling me I look so good with hair. I've said that statement a hundred times but God damn I hope this time I'm going to make it true.
Keep fighting. Don't go crazy keeping track but keep track somewhere. Make it easy. My calendars live right beside my bed. I check off the previous day as soon as I wake up. A bit of motivation to start the day, huh?! I wish you all the best.
I might check back, I might not. Till next time! <3