r/PharmacyResidency • u/No-Plankton1838 • 5d ago
To the PGY1s
I just started my PGY2 after finishing the worst most toxic PGY1 experience of my life. I was belittled every day, bullied constantly and felt so alone and depressed that I had to seek mental health support.
I genuinely considered quitting residency a few times. Looking back I am so glad that I didn’t. I know it’s early in the year but I am SO much happier and I can’t believe I was in such a dark place just a few months (maybe even weeks ago). I really thought the torment wasn’t going to end and I based my worth on pleasing people who were just sad about their own lives.
Anyways the reason I decided to make this post was because I don’t want anyone to feel the way that I was feeling. Residency is important but it is NOT everything. You are not worthless if a preceptor doesn’t like a project you worked on. Residency should NEVER make you consider that other people’s opinions are more important than your life. If you feel like that your program is failing you. Please just keep this in mind as you go through the year.
I’m sure that most programs provide support to their residents and genuinely want to teach. That was the opposite of my experience and being on the other side I realize how awful and wrong what happened to me was. Remember why you chose pharmacy and always stay true to yourself.
Have a great year : ) - also feel free to save this post if you ever need to reach out to someone about anything residency related