Hi everyone. This is one of the most difficult times in my entire life… it feels like a never ending nightmare and I really just need support, advice, and the perspectives of other Kemetics.
There is a group of really nasty people who have just been after me and my fiancé… solely because they dislike us due to our association with the mayor that they hate (it is a small town municipal government… due to ongoing legal problems I will refrain from providing too much detail) The mayor has done nothing wrong… we think they dislike him because they are racists (the mayor is from Egypt who moved here and gained his citizenship)
Finances are absolute hell… we can’t find work anywhere and we are just scraping by… getting what food and necessities that we are able to come across.
I have prayed, and prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I have done spell work. I have done everything that you can imagine. And still… I feel as though my prayers are falling upon deaf ears. We’re struggling with bullying/harassment/financial issues/health issues. I don’t want to go into too much detail on the health issues, so I’ll just say that we both need medical care that we are unable to afford.
Like… there is literally not a single aspect of my life that I am not stressing out about right now. I’m in a living Hell. Anubis is my patron… has been for the past 6 years. And now this time… I truly feel like he isn’t listening. Or worse… he is and just doesn’t want to see us succeed in life.
I’ve been excommunicated by my family since I’m not a Christian, so the option for them to help is out. My fiancé’s family helps us where they can, but it isn’t much.
I just don’t know what to do any more. I know I haven’t provided a ton of info, but if I were to tell more… this post would be a novel. I have been dealing with shitty person after shitty person after shitty situation after shitty situation… it never stops.
I just want to enjoy life again.
How did the Ancient Egyptians view trials and hardships? I know this feeling is nothing new… how did they navigate through when the troubles stack like mountains?