Hey all.
1st of all sorry for a very long post. It has been growing last few months, maybe a year.
I need help with Jungs interpretation on dreams, and synchronicities.
Not sure if it matters but here are some details about me, INTJ personality and as far archetypes go I'm a warrior developing into magician.
The dreams:
I´m in a lunchroom with TFV (using his initials, man is far right easy to google), talking about something (words were just scrambled mess) At some point I saw 3 men and a girl entering this building, I go downstairs and TFV stays behind, he disappeared at this point.
The second I got down the fight began. Men went down after one hit, stayed on the floor but conscious, while the girl kept fighting on. I had to bash her face on the edge of the table, cracked her cheekbone and I threw her on the floor telling her to just stay down.
She gets up, comes close to me and says: "I refuse," she glances at the 3 guys on the floor, "I´m not a pussy like these 3. Do something about it." As she glanced back and forth, I saw her pupil of the eye, at the broken cheekbone sink down toward the fracture.
This is where I woke up, pretty disturbed.
I think I was disturbed because as a kid I trained martial arts, I was taught to protect the week and defenseless, to never hit a woman regardless of circumstances (I refuse to be my father).
Few weeks later, another dream:
I've dreamt of this forest outside my balcony. There was no snow, it appeared to be spring. In my dream I walked out on my balcony and I saw a large number of trees cut down. "What the hell is this?!?" was my thought in the dream. They were cut very low, just above the ground so there was barely any tree stumps left. Weird part is that, judging by the color of the stomps, the cuts appeared to be fresh, yet there was not a single tree to be seen.
This puzzle woke me up.
3rd dream:
I was in a plane crash. The large passenger plane that can carry 200 or even more passengers. There were maybe a dozen people, no more, for whatever reason. We crashed in a sea, or an ocean somewhere. There was a tiny sliver of a land, I don´t think I can call it an island. One of the passengers was a woman holding her child, a toddler.
I stood outside trying to help people get out demanding that she gets out first and other guys help her get to me. When she saw me she looked petrified. I do not know was it due to the crash or due to me, my presence. I woke up at this point.
Now real-life event:
As I was at home I had a tough talk with my sister due to me not being able to help her and our mother as much as they need. During that afternoon weight of the world fell on my shoulders. I decided to call Wendy (not sure why her), a rather new friend in very small circle of people around me. I helped her few years ago with digging up her yard, this was our 1st contact, when we actually met.
No compensation from me was required for that work.
We met few times for cup of coffee or tea. She also helped back with arranging king size bed for my bedroom. I see this as reciprocity from her side which I shouldn't since it was all a gift.
However, she is very religious, a catholic (me being atheist but spiritual, believing in higher power) she said some good things in a short call where we agreed she´d pay me a visit. After I hung up I broke into tears, pulled myself together and fixed my weekly lunch. Few hours later she´s at my place and we started talking. It took maybe 5 minutes before I broke down again and just wept as a child who lost it´s favorite toy. She was there comforting, saying a prayer to Jesus for me. Think I broke 3 times during her visit which lasted maybe 2 hours.
And a very weird detail, during all this while I was collected at some point I heard this male, deep voice saying loud either "Hallå!" (Swedish greeting phrase) or "ALO!" (An expression people of Balkans use when calling out an attention of a person about to do something dumb.) These 2 words sound exceptionally alike, so hard to know the difference. Wendy heard absolutely nothing.
The fuck.
2nd event:
Next day I´ve heard a mosquito in my room flying towards my right ear. I smacked it as it appeared to fly into my ear. Here’s a weird part, I'm in Sweden, temperature was 3-4°C not a chance there are any mosquitos. In my room is 18-19°C.
Weird stuff.
2 weeks later another event:
Sometime during this week Wendy invited me to church on Sunday, Easter at that.
Me, non-religious (but I do believe in higher power) man decided to go just to see architecture and art. I like that.
So, we arrived and I got disappointed given the lack of both of my reasons to go to the churches.
However, during the mass (or whatever it’s called) this woman started singing and about 3 seconds of hearing her voice I broke down. Few minutes after I pulled myself together a man approached me with greetings from his wife: ”Know that Jesus loves you, cares for you..." and so on, don´t really remember because I broke down again.
After that I spoke to the pastor about the dark night of the soul. According to him many people turn to Jesus just to find comfort and guidance. And the dark night is when soul dies and gets resurrected as he explained it. Which is my understanding also.
Then it dawned on me, "Oh man, did I pick THE DAY to come to the church". And that broke me. This is where pastor said: ”That is not for you to worry about. Jesus is knocking at your front door. All you have to do is open it."
Wendy, which I believe was crying, said: ”Just say yes and let him in."
Rational side of me concluded, "I've got nothing to lose" after I just nodded my head and said yes.
15 or so minutes after that, I’m all together and collected, I spoke to Wendys friend, yet another woman, who mentioned joy and safety with Jesus, which got to me for some odd reason.
Next morning I've realized, every time I broke, a woman is directly involved.
Odd.
Back to dreams:
After a while I've started dreaming about turning into a werewolf. 1st time I've dreamed this I am reasonably sure there were 3-4 other people around me. All other dreams I was on my own.
Does this fit? If so, how?
New dream:
I was on top floor of this 11storey building. It is very familiar to me since I used to be there pretty regularly while exercising. In my dream I was blowing snot out of my nose. Now 2 weird parts:
- After awhile entire flight of stairs was covered in my snot;
- I see myself starting to walk very carefully, as if I tried not to step in that snot, down the stairs. I barely make it down 1 flight and I'm back at the top. Every time I'm back there's more snot.
What would Jung say?
I've dreamt of my mother. She was sitting on my old bed in a bedroom in my old apartment. She had problems breathing and appeared as she was trying to loosen a stranglehold, yet she was all alone. I came in with a ladder as if to reach a ceiling. I've never climbed the ladder, I placed it on the floor as I was (it at least appeared) approaching my mother. This is the moment I woke up.
Werewolf, now my mother?
Another weird dream:
This time I'm in TV show "The Crime Story" I've dreamt that some people were trying to kill m. I don't remember if I was a good or a bad guy. They've failed a number of times. But the last time, someone got me. I don't remember if this person cut my throat or if I got stabbed in my throat. This is when I woke up.
I’m getting killed in my sleep. Why?!?
Latest dream:
I've dreamt of me and my sister in our old house, in which none of us lives anymore. We were walking down the stairs, and I told her to stay back and wait till I make sure everything was fine.
At first, she didn't comply so I grabbed her by her neck and pulled (I felt this touch and her hair in my hand) her back up few steps, after this I continued down few more last steps to the bottom floor and I saw a pale blueish hand leaned on the edge of the broken window of the door.
For some reason I decided to open a door by grabbing that hand. I've felt this one also as if I was awake, and it was ice-cold and I realized instantly it was a dead person. After I opened the door and took a look behind it I woke up, with a sense of unease.
Now the woken experience directly after the dream:
I woke up at roughly 3am, a "dead hour" according to some cultures (whatever it means). I was reflecting on my dream. That's when I heard 2 steps outside my window. And it got quiet. I thought "this is weird", as I pondered to actually get up and take a look I've heard it again, only this time further away.
I decided to stay in bed since it was moving away.
Dead person and uneven footsteps, too few at that. WTF is going on?
2nd night
After the previous I dream:
I'm sitting on my toilet bowl and I see a piece of feces (shit) on the floor next to me. I take 2 pieces of toilet paper to grab it and throw it in the toilet. For some reason I was careful not to break it. I woke up just before I tossed it in the toilet-bowl.
3rd night
A person is giving me 100Sek (while we're on a tram) saying "I know I owe you 200 but this just till we get to ATM".
I've noticed that these dreams are a night after a night, not weeks or even months apart.
Last 3 dreams came 3 nights in a row, unlike all others with weeks between them.