I live in Turkiye and i want to study abroad. I have 2 years from now until i graduate from high school. And i barely know things that i am supposed to know.
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I chatted with a friend a few days ago who is studying in istanbul. I know him from middle school, we were in the same class. And I realized i wasnt acquiring/getting/having the things that i should be. One specific sentence is pivoting around my head. He said "i couldnt forget that this teacher (not guidance counselor which i will be going over later) said us 'read signs in istanbul instead of going to college in anatolia". This was the most punchy realization of that i am wasting myself.
In LGS, which is the required exam for being accepted to high schools in turkiye, i achieved a kinda remarkable score for me. About a month ago from the exam, we went to istanbul for a day trip. I saw a high school named Beşiktaş High School. It inspired me but i knew it was too late to win that school. So much so that school closed applications at around 1.5 percent that year.
I was so overwhelmed of being into 1 hour 40 minute tests multiple times a day, depression, blah blah but i dont want to speak like teenager who is over dramatizing small things and crying over that. Just know these killed my urge to actually end myself up in high end high schools. I just decided to going in the 2nd best school of my city. Last months of my studying process went by with this kind of mindset. Fortunately, i had 458 points over 500. My percentage was 3,01.
Before signing the school preference papers, we almost made no research of what i could be studying in. I thought that the school that i aimed for out of tiredness was good enough. But it wasnt. I accept that i made a big mistake there. But i was just 14. I also blame my parents and that unqualified guidance counselor about that. My dad tried to convince me to go to a religious high school in istanbul. But i didnt want that. I already went to a religious school in middle school and i hate it. The school that my father was trying to convince me for was good, but i definately didnt want to learn extra things about something that i dont belong. So i refused it.
When the big day came, the preferance day, we were called by the guidance counselor. She asked my score, percentage, blah blah blah... "lets find a school that you deserve." than said "ok, that school is fine." Yes. I understand that the major responsibility for making the right decision, doing the research was on me. But i was already in a bad mental situation. I just wanted to leave things as soon as possible. Today, i regret it.
The day i chatted with that friend, i realized i am missing so much. He told me about his life in istanbul. His oppurtunities and friends.
I, in my little mid developed town, was making no progress. I somehow lost the social interactions with my friends. And that thing killed my oppurtunities for making my golden days count. People were making memories, they were founding a network, they were having good time. I had good times too. But i lost them and i dont know why. I had good relationships with almost everyone. Then everyone slowly faded away. They acted like i dont exist. They ignored to spend time with me. I know i did something wrong there. But i dont know what.
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I decided to study abroad. But i barely know things i should be. I will talk about my strong parts, hobbies etc. and my decision of faculty that i made considering those. But i need your help to have some guidance about if i made the right analysis of myself
I have a huge interest and admire about woodworking. Especially moving joints. I have watched woodworkers making something and they are almost leaving my mouth open. Making these joints come together in so complex ways, making them steady and strong, this is a huge amount of thinking and designing process. I would love to participate in a woodworking workspace.
I also have a interest about leathermanship. Making a wallet big enough to fit multiple cards in it, making it compact enough to fill enough cash in it while making it small enought to make it fit inside your back pocket. I dont know if ı am describing it good enough to explain my amaze about it since cards and money designed to carry easy. I am trying to mean that it is about designing it the most sufficient and efficient way. The way that you put things together. Like you cant fill everything you need in your father's car's baggage but your dad can take a look at stuff and he can stuff them perfectly in no time.
Last thing, tailoring. I dont know how to describe it. They somehow manage to make a cloth that fits you the best even if you have the most unproportioned skeleton system. I thought about a business about making tailorwork much more modern and desirable for everyday shopping. But i will hide it to myself if i actually will be going to do it :D
I have a particular interest in mathematics and physics. In short, i love knowing how and why things like theorems work. And i think i have some talent on them
Besides these, i also make something about music. I started playing guitar and learning music theory.
In short, they are mostly handwork, craftsmanship. I would be so satisfied if i could be doing them all by hand, which i try to do on my own sometimes, but i dont see enough money to pay my bills on them in the future. And i saw a correlation between them, which is optimizing the design. So i decided to study in a design engineering faculty. Which colleges do you suggest? I also talked these with AI (claude specifically) and it agreed on my decision and suggested some universities like dyson, something starts with TU in Netherlands, and MIT etc.
ALSO, i still have a lot of questions. I know i have to participate in SAT but I don't know the other things that is required to add. In my country, you enter the exam, you exit, and go to somewhere. But it is more complicated than that out here seemingly. What should i add besides them, what i can start to do today, how many projects would be enough, what kind of projects are allowed, how can i prove the projects belong to me, etc.
ALSO, do you have any suggestions on countries?
Thank you in advance