r/HweiMains • u/Loretta_Haligtree • 9h ago
Discussion Rank 1 hwei euw, francesco kestrel antonucci, just announced his retire due to his illness worsening.
Rank 1 hwei italy ( and euw ) Francesco Giuseppe Antonucci alas Kestrel / kestrelloz just announced his retire from league due to a rare illness getting worse.
I decided to translate and share his words in case some english speaking fans lost the news since soon they will find themselves without content, without contest and just this explanation, also i think his words truly hit me i no cap got emotional about it, i’m so sad he made this decision.
What is truly depressing is his decision to “set as private” videos and live streams because “…i want people to remember for how strong i was and not how weak i am…- …i’ll set as private video and streams since i’ll probably rewatch them from time time as a nostalgic remembrance, but they wont be public anymore, if no one remembers me than it means i simply wasn’t important enough, for thise who will remember me: you are cursed, you now carry my memory, and thus a burden, you are now forced to live also on my behalf, my situation will get worse soon so i won’t be able to, this means that you’ll have to experience all emotions twice, once on my behalf.”
Here’s the full text
“Salve a tutti, a seguito di un peggioramento della mia malattia (LES), non riesco più a giocare a league come un tempo, e dunque non riesco a mantenere un alto livello di gameplay, per questo preferisco ritirarmi prima di mostrare un brutto spettacolo, così la gente mi ricorderà fortissimo (xD).
Per alcuni potrà sembrare patetico ma ormai non provo gioia nè interesse a essere riconosciuto come il miglior hwei italiano o europeo, sono felice di aver raggiunto vette altissime e aver giocato contro giocatori più forti di me; lottare per mantenere il titolo è divertente ma realizzi presto che prima o poi dovrai smettere e qualcuno prenderà il tuo posto, quindi non pensate che io fossi molto attaccato al titolo ma per piacere ricordatemi per quello e ricordatemi forte.
Mi ritiro da league of legends, dal coaching e dallo scenario competitivo; mi ritiro anche da tutti i social e ho deciso di rendere privati i video e le live pubblicate. Li renderò solo privati, senza eliminarli, perché potrei voler rivedere il passato come ricordo personale ma nessuno potrà accedervi, “beauty fades, this is why it’s beatiful” se tutto rimanesse per sempre available a chiunque allora la mia storia perderebbe di significato, se a nessuno è rimasto impresso il mio nome allora non sono stato importante abbastanza, a coloro a cui il mio nome rimarrà impresso : siete maledetti con il fardello della mia storia, portatela avanti, vivete anche per me, prima o poi la malattia mi renderà un broccolo inetto, vivete al posto mio che non potrò, provate tutte le emozioni due volte, una anche per me.
Kestrelloz siete voi, francesco antonucci è solo un nome e un volto, siete voi ad avermi reso quello che sono.”
Translated with google translater :
“Hello everyone, due to a worsening of my disease (SLE), I can no longer play League like I used to, and therefore I can't maintain a high level of gameplay. That's why I prefer to retire before putting on a poor show, so people will remember me as a great player (xD). It may seem pathetic to some, but I no longer feel joy or interest in being recognized as the best Italian or European hwei. I'm happy to have reached the highest peaks and played against players stronger than me. Fighting to retain the title is fun, but you quickly realize that sooner or later you'll have to stop and someone will take your place. So don't think I was too attached to the title, but please remember me for that and remember me strongly. I'm retiring from League of Legends, coaching, and the competitive scene. I'm also retiring from all social media, and I've decided to make my published videos and live streams private. I'll only make them private, without deleting them, because I might want to revisit the past as a personal memory, but no one will be able to access it. "Beauty fades, that's why it's beautiful." If everything remained forever available to anyone, then my story would lose its meaning. If no one has remembered my name, then I haven't been important enough. To those who remember my name: you are cursed with the burden of my story, carry it forward, live for me too. Sooner or later, illness will make me a useless broccoli. Live in my place, because I can't. Experience every emotion twice, once for me too.
Kestrelloz is you. Francesco Antonucci is just a name and a face. You are the ones who made me who I am.”