About 2 months ago, I (23 f) started having a dream of this same house very often. I’ve always believed that dreams held some sort of meaning whether it be a spiritual sign or just insight into how my brain is feeling, however this dream has not left my mind

For some context of how I dream, I have always had very weird and vivid dreams often times waking up slightly confused. Despite how vivid and weird they are, I can never lucid dream. I am consistently aware of what’s going on around me but the second I start to cross that barrier into taking control and lucid dreaming I wake up. I also never had many reoccurring dream(besides like different dreams but reoccurring themes like my teeth falling out). The last “reoccurring dream” I had was in my childhood home I would constantly have a dream where i would go to the bathroom at night and a owl would fly in through the window and start chasing me, sometimes the dream would continue with me running forever from this owl but most of time i would wake up the second it burst threw the window. As soon as I moved from my childhood home I never had this dream again.

I am now in my own house and while I still have many vivid and weird dreams none really have stuck out to me until this one. It started a couple months back where I kept dreaming of this same house. The house itself is “my house” not only do refer to it as such in my dream but the whole first floor is the exact layout of my house. The first floor is also always well lit with every major light on.

However there is a second floor where the door to the bathroom would be. Upstairs is a living area and straight ahead is a large wall to wall and floor to ceiling window. Looking outside you can see green countryside and forests(I’ll also mention that I often refer or I guess “know” that the house is somewhere in Germany). To the left of the stairs is a small bedroom with not much of note besides a bed and the closet however the layout of those two things will change(only two different variants). To the right is a hallway and a doorway into the “master bedroom”, once again there’s is only the bed and the closet as well as an arch into the en-suite bathroom. The layout of this room stays consistent every time when you walk in the door frame the bed is centered on the wall to the right of the room, the closet is located on the same wall as the door you enter from, and straight ahead of you is the arch into the bathroom. The second floor is a lot darker being lit only from the natural early dawn light through the windows.

Despite the house always being the same, the dreams are not, but they hold a similar pattern; The dream will be anything but I will some how always end up in the house and deciding to go to the second floor however something always happens to me that forces me back down stairs. Things like not being able to make it up the stairs due to them shifting and changing or trying to look outside from large window and the floor giving out. Sometimes I would make it into the small bedroom but something “in the closet” would scare me into running back downstairs. I have never been able to enter the master bedroom, i’ll stand in the doorway looking through and it’s almost like everything stretches and again I get “scared” and run back downstairs.

These dreams have been so vivid I will wake up in the morning and my first thought is “I need to go upstairs” even going so far as one day I woke up wondering why I don’t rent out the two other rooms only to remember that they don’t exist.

That was the dream. At this points it’s maybe been 3 weeks since I last had it. Around the time I was having it most I felt like I was going crazy and was spending a lot of my morning ruminating on it. I would tell anyone who would listen. I would often joke and start out by saying “I found a place” (this was around the time Backrooms came out). One morning I called my dad and was explaining the house but as I got to the master bedroom I felt as if I had to ask my dad what the master bedroom looked like in our first home. My childhood home, that I mentioned before, I moved into when I was around 4. It’s were the majority of my clear childhood memories are from. However I have very foggy memories of my very first house. Sure enough, after him describing the layout to me, it was the same layout as the master bedroom in the dream.

I have been in a “emotional turmoil” recently and a couple weeks before the first dream of this house I had a bad reaction to a medicine and felt as though my brain has snapped. I had also bought new crystals around the time it started, one of them being Nephrite Jade which is said to be the “dream stone” although I have not noticed a difference on whether or not I have the dream more when the crystal is closer it me.

The only thing I can make of is the idea of trying to get to another level but fear holding me back. I also feel that’s just the most logical meaning in terms of it just being my brain processing my life. However if anyone has read this far I would love to hear any thoughts or takes on it.