Hello, I'm a simple guy from Russia, I'm sorry that the president

He's doing this, there's nothing I can do. over time, I realized that something was wrong with me, and I started communicating with neural networks and found that:

1. I don't have complicated emotions. empathy (I can imagine how a person feels, but it's not instinctive. imagine a video where a person is punched in the groin, so I won't feel anything), shame and conscience, disgust (I'm disgusted by pungent smells, but it's more of a defense mechanism of the body), morality (I created it based on other people's strange questions), and I'm very afraid of being abandoned (in in terms of love), although I don't have a girlfriend.

2. The fact that my brain doesn't stop thinking is a stream of thoughts. at the same time, I think outside the box, and when the template is enough, I use the action template.

3. I have a good memory. compared to others, I have a very good memory, when others cannot memorize topics, I literally memorize what the teacher says, and I can retell it to him with his own examples in the next lesson (without memorizing!). I have excellent spatial memory. And my thoughts are like my own voice in my head, which I can change at will. Okay, I'm sorry for the mistakes, I wrote through a translator. I hope there will be those people who will at least leave a comment. I'm lonely and very bored. disclaimer: this post wants to find out how many people with such personality disorders are sitting here, all the information is taken from my personal life and communication with neural networks.

Hi all, I don’t have alexithymia and only just learned of it recently, but it seems to explain the struggles I feel in my relationship.

I want to bring it up to my partner but I am afraid to come across as diagnosing her, or blaming her for our problems, or shirking responsibility (all things she has accused me of due to me trying desperately to understand her lack of emotional depth and empathy).

I unfortunately first thought she had narcissism or extreme avoidant attachment, then autism… but alexithymia fits the best. She is just so lost when I speak about wanting connection or to emotionally share. In couple therapy she stares blankly at the therapist and later tells me we are both trying to dig for things in her that are not there (emotions). She also has no inner voice, no fantasy life, is very concrete, and had to read a book to learn how to validate my erratic feelings as she used to just try to convince me they are not based in reality.

It has been such a struggle to see eye to eye and I am feeling a little hopeful that if alexithymia matches her experience we can try to work with that. If not, at least I can feel reassured she’s not abusing me, she simply has a very different way of experiencing the world.

All this to say, can anyone share the most helpful way someone (especially a partner) suggested to them they may be living with this? Or, what backfired completely? thank you for any suggestions.

And the resources were all very general.

This past week I've been spiraling more and more into depression and it's become more and more difficult for me to identify my own emotions. I went to the dentist a week ago and a doctor there asked me "how do you feel?" and the on-the-spot response I could think of was "I feel bored."

But I didn't feel bored, I just said the closest thing I could think of in the moment. Am I supposed to say "I don't know" when I'm asked questions like this? I don't want to annoy anyone by providing unnecessarily difficult answers to simple questions, and I'm worried that "I don't know" isn't a very satisfying answer.

The most intense emotional experiences I had when alexithymic was crying after sex.

Sometimes laughter, sometimes anger. But mostly crying.

Anyone else have this experience?

I been struggling with identity my own emotions through out my whole life, and like I can identity the general emotions like good or negative. Because of my issue with identity my emotions I did some research and the more I find out about, and the more I find out about Alexithymia the more it sounds like me. My research suggested me on taking a few online questionnaires to confirm my hypothesis, and I took a TSA-20 model test and a OAQ-G2 model test. I scored 84/100 for the TSA-20 and 168/185. My question is that how do I know I exactly got Alexithymia because I want to be for sure, and do I need to see a therapist to confirm it? I always felt that I am different from everyone else in a bad way like I still feel like there is something wrong with me, and I think it would be a huge relief if it is confirmed.

Is it just me, or does anyone else completely turn off their emotions the second they try to process them?

Like, I rarely cry, but whenever I do, or whenever I feel bad for someone, my brain suddenly goes, "Wait, why am I even reacting like this?" And just like that, the feeling completely vanishes. I instantly become indifferent and start overanalyzing why I even reacted in the first place.

Also, the lying thing sometimes when I'm caught doing something, a lie just pops out completely involuntarily. I don't even plan it, it just happens, and I'm left thinking, "Damn, how did I come up with that so fast?"

But the biggest thing is social interactions. If a friend is talking about something exciting, I either panic because I don't know where to look or what to do with my legs -purely because I'm overthinking how to "act" excited or sad so they don't think I'm faking it or I switch into this hyper perfect mode. Like, crossed legs, perfect head nods, unbroken eye contact. A friend actually told me when I was 15, "Why are all your movements so perfect?" I didn't even realize I was doing it. I was just trying to manually code my body language to look normal.

Anyone else relate to this manual emotional coding, or am I just glitching? Also, I've started wondering if I can simply turn off my feelings, or if I never felt them in the first place and I'm just pretending, It's very confusing, even though I have no problem with how I am.

Hi y'all,

I experience a ton of these symptoms and basically just wanna ask what the root can be?

Is alexithymia something that can sort of manifest itself in a person by itself or is it a byproduct of someone being on the spectrum and therefore having a difficult time feeling emotions?

Today i noticed that my galaxy smart watch detected that i was stressed, before i noticed myself. Now i was wondering if smartwatches can help identify what i am feeling, or atleast notify me when i am experiencing emotions.

Does anyone have experience with this and or potential advice?

I don’t know if this is a weird thing to experience, but I wanted to ask if anyone else has felt this way. One night, I was lying with my boyfriend and I hugged and kissed him. Nothing bad happened — it was actually a really normal, quiet moment. But suddenly, my eyes started tearing up and I just started crying. I wasn’t sad. I wasn’t upset. I just felt this overwhelming feeling of love and happiness, like I couldn’t contain how much I loved him in that moment. I looked at him and thought about how much he means to me, and the tears just came out. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it normal to cry when you feel a lot of love for someone, or does it mean there’s something deeper going on with me emotionally? I’d love to hear your thoughts or if you’ve had a similar experience.

I have this thing when I express literally any type of emotion, I get tired. It feels “expensive”. And annoying most of the time. It’s like I have to express them in a way that would make people care. Or else it’s pointless. I only do it to satisfy my needs that I can’t do myself. But the price is exhaustion.

Hi all! Reposting this survey participation opportunity as we got some great responses from this group last time 😄

We invite you to take part in an anonymous online survey: Personality, Close Relationships and Attitudes towards Mental Health Problems.   

If you are 18+ years old and choose to be included, your participation in this survey will help researchers at the University of Wollongong to better understand attitudes towards mental health problems, and how these may relate to pathological personality traits, mood states and relationship styles.   

 The survey will ask some questions about: 

• Your personal characteristics (e.g., age, gender) 
• Your personality traits 
• Your experiences in close relationships
• Your attitudes towards mental health problems

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Like when people say their heart hurts, or they feel nerves in their tummy?

I don’t.

Hi everyone, this wound is still pretty fresh, so I want to summarize mostly but will answer any questions at all.

I’ve (21M) been talking to this girl (20F) for about 3 months, and the last few days we’ve been bumping heads. She had a wisdom teeth removal done, and it had been making her anxious, and she voiced that to me, but I didn’t know what to say or how to help really because I had a root canal done before that I told her about, and that wasn’t really a big deal to me. It happened, I followed the aftercare rules, it healed, and then everything was normal again. I’m sure they’re vastly different procedures, but I didn’t process why it was such a major thing for her. I figured she was as independent as I was because of the things we had talked about, and I didn’t understand why it was making her anxious. I have autism, OCD, alexithymia, and some other comorbidities for context. I wasn’t sure what to do, and me not being helpful or showing I cared for her when she’s feeling this way made her distant and cold, but I had been trying to extend my hand and tell her I was here and asking what she needed and how I can help, but she wouldn’t tell me anything. Everything she was telling me didn’t match her actions.

She told me she didn’t want to be seen because she felt ugly, so I took that literally like she didn’t want me to come see her, so I figured I couldn’t show up with flowers and stuff like I’d thought of, and I didn’t want to have them doordashed and the driver not care about what flowers they grab or not care about how they got delivered. I thought FaceTime was out of the picture. I didn’t know what I could’ve done, but apparently, she said she only said that she felt ugly because the surgery had left her face swollen, and she never had to deal with a swollen face or anything of the sort before. I can’t do anything about that. I figured I would just save a surprise for her after she had healed some and the swelling had gone down. Since she was being distant and sort of cold, I figured she just needed space because I’d ask if she was okay and I was checking in, but she would just say that she’s okay or fine, so I figured I just needed to step back and let her come talk to me when she’s ready, and I did that, and when she did end up coming to me she told me that she didn’t think this would work because I wasn’t being urgent about her being in pain physically and emotionally.

I saw her the day before her surgery because I had taken off from work. We planned to see each other the day before, but I had to ground myself because I was burning out and I wanted to try and catch it before it was too late, I didn’t want to be burnt out when I was with her, and I didn’t want to let my burnout be related to her. She’s an hour drive away from me THROUGH Atlanta, 40 miles to and back home. That traffic is AWFUL, but it’s always worth it when I make it to her house. So I stayed in and told her what went wrong and offered to hop on FaceTime and watch some movies. But she told me that energy would’ve been noticeable over the phone and that I should just take time to recover. So we rescheduled for the next day, and I took her to the library because I thought it would be a nice place to sit in some and decompress. She read for a while and then got bored and got on her phone. I didn’t know what she was doing, but she seemed agitated when I would look up at her. She later told me she was finishing an assignment from school, but I didn’t know how to take it in the moment. It wasn’t the best idea looking back, but it was something to try. It just didn’t work out too great.

We went to get food after we left there, and then we went back to her house and watched movies together for a while. My burnout had been building because I had noticed I was making more mistakes, having worse reaction time, and other problems while driving. I didn’t want to keep making mistakes with her in my car, risking her safety. She told me one of the reasons was that I wouldn’t take enough initiative with things like ordering in public, even though I’ve never had problems with it. So I don’t know why she brought that up. I ask her what she wants to eat, and then I place the order and pay. Me having alexithymia makes it to where she’ll ask me something about my feelings, and I genuinely need time to think and truthfully answer the question. More often than not, I LITERALLY do not know, and I guess she’d thought I was trying to hide what I want to say, but I genuinely just don’t know the words. She wanted me to want to meet her mom. I did want to, but she made it seem like she wasn’t ready for me to meet her mom, so I figured she wasn’t ready to meet parents. We had been within miles of my house, and I thought to ask if she wanted to meet my family, but I didn’t want to throw her under the spotlight. I expected to have met her mom the first time I showed up to her house, but she just came straight out the door, and that was it. There was a time her mom did happen to be at the door, and I tried saying hello, but she just came out the house and closed the door, and we left. I didn’t want to pry, and she’s not ready for me to meet her mother. I do wish I would’ve done more to show support, but she didn’t even give me a chance before wanting out completely.

I’m trying to make sense of a terrifying disconnect between my body and my emotions, and I’m wondering if anyone here has a similar profile—especially after a brain injury.

​Earlier this year, I sustained a TBI. Since then, my emotional processing has been completely broken. A few days ago, under a mountain of family stress, I had a severe crisis. I ended up self-harming worse than I ever have in my life, requiring 10 stitches.

​The terrifying part is that I didn't know I was at a breaking point. I couldn't feel it or process it until it was already happening. My emotions feel like they jump from a 1 to a 5 out of nowhere. I don't get the physical warning signs—no racing heart, no slowly building anxiety, nothing.

​After doing some research on my symptoms, I stumbled across Poor Interoception and Alexithymia. It perfectly describes what I'm experiencing: an inability to read my body's internal emotional cues, paired with an inability to identify what I am feeling until it manifests as a physical crisis.

​I am currently receiving mental health support, but I feel stuck on how to get actual help for this specific issue.

​For those diagnosed, does this "1 to 5 instantly with zero warning" match your experience with Alexithymia and poor interoception?

​How do I best bring up these specific concepts to my therapist?

​Would I be better off seeking out a specialized psychologist to get evaluated for this?

Last fall, I cried every Friday evening for a month. Then it stopped because I fell pretty hard into despair and what may have been autistic burnout.

Well, the crying is back but during random days of the week. Today was pretty bad as it was 2 hours long while feeling very alone, unsure about my path in life and still in the process of grieving my life post-late diagnosis.

It also happened two days ago after waking up at about 3am and just cried it out for 2 hours. Soaked both of my pillows.

While this isn't new as it happens on and off for short bursts, the frequency worries me. I'm trying to fix my life like trying to get a license and going back to school this fall and don't want to be derailed yet again. I guess I'm not sure if this is deregulation, grief processing, depression or a mix of everything.

Hey all,

I am new and dont know where to start. I have googled it and it led me here :)

I am searching a sort of explanation on why I "feel" music. When I listen to music, I feel instant goosebumps, over my whole body, i can feel it getting from my toes to the back of my neck and spreading out through my shoulders towards my fingers. I also have one spot in the back of my neck that when touched is, mostly senaitive, but often overly sensitive. Neckscratches aswell. I dont know if that is related or not :)

I mostly have it with a synthesizer type of beat or with alot of musical notes and vocals. Very often I get intensely emotional aswell.

I never thought there was an explanation for it so i hope i can get some answers here if possible

Thankyou in advance🍀 :)

With the kindest regards,

Me🍀

Hi everyone, it is my first day here, but I wanted to start off that I had a very traumatic relationship roughly a year ago. Two days ago was the one year mark of her breaking up with me, it hurt mainly because we knew each other for a while and liked each other for majority of it, unfortunately she was not with her emotions and left me without explanation, thus giving me my biggest emotional hit, but that is besides the fact. Before her I had always dealt with serious anger issues and couldn't control myself and my emotions were all around the place and home was often hard to be around. I have always have had self doubt of myself, not enough confidence even though I'd mask it with an immense amount of it. I then turned emotionally numb, to the point of not feeling anything but rather just a deep void and did not know how to deal with it. I would randomly have a random spike and cry but it was very sudden almost like my emotions wanting to come out. Nowadays I've been better but still struggle with finding my emotions and it is affecting my current relationship which I had just started yesterday, I really love her and she does too, but she points out my constant lack of emotions and often calls me "emotionless". I really want to know, or have guidance on how to fix that and finally feel emotions again. Thanks.

My ex (the mother of my adult daughter) passed away last month. I realized since then that I felt nothing .... I was just numb.

My father died in 2021. He was my hero, but I felt nothing at his funeral, just numb.

The other day I watched a movie where the hero avenges a group of people who could not defend themselves. I teared up, and my wife asked me what was wrong.

Why is it that when people close to me die, I feel nothing, but watching a movie can drive me to tears? What is wrong with me?

Lately, I've noticed that whenever some sort of significant stuff happens, I can't seem to identify and describe what emotions I felt. My mind doesn't really feel it on an emotional level, but my body is physically reacting to these situations, specifically, my stomach suddenly feeling like it's in knots and next thing I know, I'm suddenly throwing up or dry heaving in the toilet with zero clue on what made me nauseous.

It felt weird because back then, I never really felt any sort of physical effect from strong, particularly intense emotions. I was just a regular kid, if not, a bit of a sensitive crybaby.

has anybody here gone thru something similar? i wanna know

My brother C 19 we believe has Alexithymia however I've been really struggling to deal with him, I understand with the bit of research I've done that he struggles to open up and acts aloof and arrogant but its other behaviour he's showing that I don't stand for and my dad enables because he believes he has Alexithymia.

My brother C is quite selfish, refuses to share anything, isn't patient in anything he does and if we go out as a family to sone that he said he wanted to do but decided "yep I'm bored now" gets really nasty.

He's Autistic for reference as well so it may contribute to this but whenever he acts like this we can never be upset with him as my dad as mentioned enabled the bad behaviour.

His outlets are just YouTube and nothing else,he's so addicted to it he'll ruin a holiday to get to a screen which he did previous and we had to end it early because he was getting really nasty to deal with.

I have brought up limiting his screen time which my dad thought about be again doesn't consider doing and if he has Alexithymia I don't think that's helping.

People who have sibling with this or are going through this can you give me any advice with how to help him in speeding up the diagnosis as in the UK its apparently not great.