Humans live faster lives than most. Their time runs out like a candle with two wicks. And they age so... Visibly. You can see them losing their strength and colours as their hair turns ashen gray and white. But that is also what makes them so brilliant.
They are the brightest flame, consuming their wick the fastest. While they might not live as long as we do, within their short existence, they bring the most light and warmth to this cold space. And, like bright fire tends to do, when mishandled or carelessly roused, destruction.
I was still a young trainee, around 207 solar years old, when our crew got our first human worker.
I had not yet learned much about humans, but I was curious and excited about meeting them. After all, it wasn't every day you got to meet a new species.
First contact with humanity had occurred mere months earlier, and we were among the first fleets to employ their species.
Much about them was still unknown and shrouded in mystery, and vast majority of the little information available, hearsay and rumours.
Understandably, no new species wants to openly give all their information to the wider galaxy they have yet to know and experience.
It usually took decades or even centuries to get just the basic information of a species' biology recorded. It was honestly impressive how trusting humanity was, already sending their own to work on ships owned by other species, nearly immediately after first contact. Their adaptability speed must have broken records.
His hair was the colour of burnt copper, and eyes turquoise blue like the ocean planet of Verais 7, while his pink skin was filled with small copper brown dots.
He bared his teeth with the energy of a blazing sun. We had been briefed about some of their body language observed during first contact, such as this "smile" of theirs, that was meant to signal joy. It was quite an odd gesture to see in person. On most species with teeth, showing them would have seemed aggressive, but for some reason, when he did it, it felt almost warm.
He straightened his back as he addressed the crew in an enthusiastic voice
"Pleasure to meet y'all. I'm Alex, the new maintenance technician. I have much to learn, but am looking forward to working with everyone!"
“my name is \[•၊l|l၊••၊|။l|l။၊|•\]. I'll be working with you starting today. Let us get along.”
“Thanks buddy, likewise.” He nodded quickly, and then rubbed the back of his head for a moment. “Uhh… sorry though, I don't think my tongue bends in ways that would allow me to even attempt that. Can I just, like, call you by a nickname or something?”
“A nickname?”
“You know, like a name people call you that isn't your real one.”
“Feel free then.”
“Hmmm… I feel like ET would be a bit too on-the-nose… How ‘bout Cosmo??”
“Cosmo it is, then.”
As fate would have it, we ended up becoming cabin mates.
He seemed to learn faster than anyone I had ever seen before. Not only did he memorize new information at incredible speeds, he also quickly started to apply what he had learned in new ways he hadn't been taught. In the evenings, he could be seen experimenting with various chemicals and materials, trying out the seemingly endless stream of ideas he came up with, his eyes burning with passion.
I often found myself watching him from my bunk as he worked at our shared desk, scraps of metal and wires scattered around him like a nest. He would hum to himself in his alien way, low melancholy tunes and melodies, tinkering with his tools to the rhythm. Sometimes, he looked up and caught me staring, and he would bare his teeth again in that strange, warm way — and I found myself mimicking it, though I have no teeth to show. It made him laugh every time.
He asked questions constantly. Why our ship’s walls were curved instead of angular. Why we used saltwater in the cooling system instead of ammonia. Why the corridor lights flickered for a moment whenever the engines transitioned into or out of FTL. No detail escaped him. Sometimes he would even crawl into the ducts to see for himself how things worked. More than once, I had to pull him back out by his boots, his hair full of dust and his grin bright as ever.
For a while, life settled into a steady hum. Work, repairs, fuel stops. Shared meals where he insisted on swapping bites of carefully chosen food, ensuring I could taste alien flavors safe for my species. Nights stretched long as he stayed up late, sketching intricate diagrams on scraps of paper or building tiny machines from spare parts, humming softly as the lights of distant stars flickered through our porthole.
“Do you know what I miss most about earth?” Alex asked one evening while gazing out into the vast expanse.
“Seasons. Real day/night cycles. Sun rising and setting beyond the horizon. Just the feeling of time passing. Here, it often just tends to… Blend together, ya know?”
“I don't quite, actually.” I replied. “We have clocks and calendars. They're not all that hard to follow.”
“Yes. But they're all so artificial. Sometimes it's hard to tell whether it's been 10 minutes, hours or weeks…. I'm not quite sure how to explain it… It's like time just stopped, but also ran through my grasp like sand at the same time.”
"Do you regret coming?" I asked.
His laugh was sudden and bright. "Hell no! Are you kidding? I get to see space. Real, actual space. Stars and nebulas and-" He gestured wildly at our small porthole. "Do you know how many humans would kill for this opportunity?"
"Then why speak of missing things?"
He was quiet for a moment, his smile softening into something more contemplative. "I guess... you can be grateful for where you are and still miss where you've been. It's not either-or.”
It was a night like any other, our shift had just ended, and we were eating and chatting in the mess hall. The ship had slowed down to a drift for a while to cool down the warp engines from continuous FTL travel.
Alex was looking at the swirling nebulae passing by through the large windows spanning the entire wall behind me.
“Ship to the spaceman! Your food is getting cold”, I said to the technician entirely engrossed in staring at the swirling clouds of gases and dust
“Hm?” Alex blinked, pulled back from whatever thoughts had captured him. "Oh. Right. Sorry. In my defense, I doubt the temperature really makes a difference in how appetizing the slop that counts as ‘food’ here is.”
“It's confirmed to be edible and safe for humans. Not to mention very nutritious.”
"Everything terrible is always 'very nutritious.'" He said, as he scooped up a spoonful in resigned acceptance.
His face scrunched up as the utensil reached his mouth. “Okay, you were right about the temperature. It's somehow so much worse when cold.”
He gestured behind me with the spoon “That view though… it makes even the bland cafeteria food worth it.”
I sighed. “I have seen hundreds of nebulae. They're nice to look at, sure, but hardly something to make such a fuss over.”
He let out an exasperated groan. “You are exhausting, you know that? What, are your species incapable of feeling awe and wonder or something?”
“I will have you know I am plenty capable of-”
Suddenly Alex let out a loud gasp, and his utensil clattered against the tray. He was completely frozen, staring out the window.
I followed his gaze and turned to see what he was looking at.
Massive, winged, bioluminescent forms glided through the void of space next to our ship, just outside the glass.
Their wings, or maybe fins, rippled with patterns of light that shifted through colors I couldn't find words to fully describe. Vibrant cyans shifting to blues, and pinks bleeding into neon violets like watercolor on paper. They moved with a grace that seemed to mock physics, their massive bodies navigating the vacuum as easily as fish swimming in the water.
The mess hall had gone completely silent.
Even crew members who had been deep in conversation stopped mid-sentence. Trays forgotten, meals growing cold, everyone simply stared.
"What..." Alex's voice was barely a whisper. "What are they?”
“Star-rays.”
The only species known to have achieved spaceflight through biological evolution alone. They travel from planet to planet, and dive through nebulas as if they were simply ocean waves.
Seeing them was said to be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, even for the longest living of species.
“How can they survive out there?”
“If I remember correctly, they breathe hydrogen, and store compressed filtered atmosphere in specialized organs and muscle and blood. They have incredibly slow heart rate and can control blood flow to specific organs. Their skin is highly radiation and temperature resistant, and they can enter long periods of suspended animation.”
One passed by mere meters from the ship shields.
It must have been at least four hundred meters across, maybe more. Its body was almost translucent in places, as if the creature was made partially of the void itself.
“Nobody knows exactly where they're originally from, but scientists had theorized they originated from a low gravity planet, aiding their evolutionary path to space.”
No matter how I tried, I don't think my words could capture or explain a fraction of the magnitude of what we were witnessing.
“It's debated whether they should be considered sapient," I continued anyway, trying to make sense of it all myself as I explained what little I knew. "Some say any species capable of reaching space, regardless of the method, should be classified as sapient, others argue their intelligence, which is still unknown, should be considered for that judgement.”
“So, how about you?” Alex asked “What do you think? Whether or not they're sapient, I mean.”
I went silent for a moment, before answering:
“I think… it doesn't matter either way. Their very existence is something unique. Something that wakes awe that words can't describe.”
Many myths are told about them. Some say the first spacefarers used them as guides, following them through the uncharted space. And many believe them to be the first species to have reached space in the first place. They were believed to bring solace to the lonely, and guide the lost to home. Some reports even stated they led rescuers to damaged ships in the vast vacuum of space, earning them nicknames such as void guides and guardians of the lost. Catching even a glimpse of one was believed to be a good omen.
Unlike many of the ship crew, I wasn't really the superstitious sort, but seeing with my own eyes, I could understand why the stories persisted.
We watched until the star rays disappeared into the distance, their light fading like dreams at waking.
One lingered for a bit longer, circling the ship as if inviting us to join them, before finally following the others.
Then, it was gone.
The mess hall stayed quiet for a long moment after. Then, slowly, the spell broke. Crew members began to move again, to speak, although quieter than before. Some rushed to check if the sensors had recorded anything. Others simply returned to their meals, though I noticed many of them kept glancing back at the window.
Time flew by, and the days settled back into a quiet routine.
I watched as Alex struck a match, and placed it on top of a pastry he had brought from the mess hall, and then blew out the flame right after.
“what are you doing?” I asked
“A birthday cake.” Alex replied, as if it were obvious “It's my birthday today.”
“Birthday?”
“Literally the day of my birth.” he explained “Well, I mean the date… July 23rd. Not that I was literally born today. I lived through yet another cycle of our sun. On Earth, we usually celebrate this with cake and gifts and songs. …Well, at least where I'm from. I hear the traditional cuisine can vary by locality. ”
“So what does this have to do with setting the pastry on fire and extinguishing it?”
He shrugged, “It's just a tradition. Usually we use candles though, but for now a match is a good enough substitute. We blow out the flame and wish for something, and according to superstition, the wish is supposed to come true.”
“What did you wish for?”
“I can't tell you, or it won't come true.” he smirked, and then bit into the pastry.
In only five years, Alex had become an indispensable part of the group.
If something critical needed doing, or if someone needed assistance, Alex would be there. If something broke, he’d fix it, often before anyone even noticed it was broken. He’d figured out ways to recycle materials and resources that would have otherwise gone to waste, and practically turned his side of the cabin into his own personal workshop.
But somewhere in those five years, though I barely noticed it happening, small things began to change.
Faint lines started to be visible around the corners of his eyes.
He decided to try growing hair on his face, first just around his lips, then the rest of his lower face as well.
One evening, we had docked on a large station for trade and resupply reasons. We had gotten leave in the evenings during our stay, so we could explore the station and buy what we wanted for ourselves.
The market was bustling as they tend to be.
Vendors from hundreds of species sold wares of their homeworlds, yelling over each other in languages and ways so varied that the translation devices gave up trying to decipher any of it.
There, Alex first met Zara, a human mercenary guard searching for employment.
They seemed to get along almost immediately. I wondered whether it was because they were both human, that they could connect so easily.
When they exchanged contact information, for a moment, I saw a spark of something I hadn't seen before in his eyes, and every now and then I could swear he turned ever so slightly redder in colour.
After a few weeks, it was time for our vessel to leave again.
Alex wanted to say his farewells to Zara before our departure, but unfortunately we couldn't find her anywhere, and she wasn't responding to his messages.
“She must be busy.” I said. “Nothing that can be done about it.”
“I know. It's just a pity we couldn’t say our goodbyes in person before leaving.”
As we boarded the ship, Alex looked back towards the station one last time, as if hoping for some sort of sign or a miracle. But, unfortunately, miracles rarely occurred in reality.
After a quiet sigh, he turned towards the ship, and we finally stepped inside.
We went to our cabin to rest for a bit before the ship would depart and our shift would start. I couldn't help but notice him glancing towards his tablet. He really was as subtle as a hull breach alarm.
A sudden announcement crackled through the intercom. “All available personnel, please gather at the main lounge.”
The crew murmured quietly while drifting in. Nobody seemed quite sure what this was all about.
The captain slapped their tentacles together and the room quieted.
“We have a new crew member I’d like to introduce to you all.” they announced.
A side door hissed open, and a human stepped in.
Alex’s eyes grew wide, and my antennae twitched in surprise.
“This is Zara Begović. A human mercenary. She’ll be joining our security detail”
Against all odds, a small miracle had occurred after all.
Over time, Alex and Zara grew increasingly closer, and started officially dating.
Eventually, the two got married. A human ceremony and contract declaring their willingness to be a mated pair for life. Although, from what I heard, the contract could often be dissolved.
After ten years, Zara's contract with our ship had reached its end, and she had decided to return to earth.
Alex hugged her tight.
“I wish you could stay longer.”
“Me too, but we both know it's not a good idea for me to renew the contract now.” She answered
“I know. I just….” he sighed “I'll miss you.”
“Me too. But we can video chat every evening. And you can visit whenever you get vacations.” She kissed him on the cheek. ”We'll be waiting for you on earth.”
It had been 40 years since I had first met Alex, and it all felt like it had gone in the blink of an eye. His hair had started to fade, and many strands, both on his head and face, had started to turn gray. The lines on his face had deepened, and I could almost swear he had gotten slightly shorter.
Tonight was the night he was retiring.
“Do visit me on earth sometime.” He said, his voice warm and smile bright as always. “I'll introduce you to the best spots I know in town, and drink till the sun sets.”
I chuckled, imagining the two of us wandering crowded streets, sampling every little café and bar he claimed was the best. “I’ll hold you to that then. I'll definitely visit whenever the ship has business in the Sol system.”
20 years had passed since I last met Alex. I had become a fully fledged maintenance technician since his departure. And finally, our ship had returned to Sol once again. I couldn't wait to catch up with him, chatting about all the stories and experiences we'd had while apart.
I looked at the address he had once messaged me.
I knocked on the door. The person who opened looked much like Alex, but shorter, and from what I understood about humans, this one was female.
“Who are you?”
“Oh, I'm \[•၊l|l၊••၊|။l|l။၊|•\] , though you may call me Cosmo if you please. Pleasure to meet you. Do excuse me, I thought this was the address of a human called Alex. We're friends.”
“This is, officially, though grandfather isn't currently here. He's at the nearby hospital. I can give you the address."
The hospital was mostly white like the medbay of our ship, and smelled of alcohol based disinfectants and antiseptics.
A frail-looking man laid on the bed, various machines surrounding him beeping at steady rhythm. His hair was thin and now entirely ashen white. Pale rings, like clouds of smoke, framed his blue eyes, and deep lines ran down his features, accented by familiar copper brown dots.
He slowly opened his eyes, studied me for a moment in a stunned silence, before the corners of his mouth formed that unforgettable radiant smile.
“Cosmo, my old friend! Still the same as the day we met! You haven't aged a day.”
I sat by his side on a chair set up next to the bed. We gazed at the stars outside the hospital window as the sun set and then rose once again. We spoke of the memories we had made not too long ago, and joked around like nothing had changed.
In the end, though it felt far too soon, he simply closed his eyes and drifted to sleep, just like every other night, but this time, he never woke up again.
The world went on, unaware that the brightest flame I had ever known had been extinguished.
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